ALINDYA PEN
27. Everything About Time
...'Yesterday when you left ...
...I hate myself for not being able to forget...
...When you're just saying sorry...
...I'm sorry I couldn't let you go completely...
...When you told me to choose another...
...I feel stupid for still hoping you turn to me...
...I have loved you so much ...
...As time goes by, though,...
...The memories of us are no longer intact...
...Slowly your face fades from memory...
...There please......
...So that they never meet again...
...I'm starting to realize one thing...
...You are no longer a heart...
...It's no longer a goal I want to achieve...
...You're just a stranger...
...Which ever came in a lifetime...
...Now I understand the meaning of...
...Understand that there are things you cannot have...
...And happy because it was once the reason my loved ones were happy.'...
..._Alindya Sheila Princess_...
May 16, 2021,
"Gue will meet elo again when we are both adults."
"Make?"
"Gue will be my queen."
"Gue can't believe there's a guy who can keep his promise in that long time."
"Elo want a bet??"
"Why not."
"Remember this 27 over 3 months."
"What's that???"
"I'm 27 years and 3 months old I'll see you again."
"Long hunt old donk."
"Not so."
"So much Elo de Rey."
The sweet joke that Alindya still remembered vividly. Either it's just a joke or maybe a word full of meaning. The point is Alindya trusts him to 60%, maybe. But as time went by Alindya no longer considered it a promise, but just a meaningless series of words. His encounter with someone who once gave color to his life was only a past. Memory after memory began to be stored in the exfoliating room. There was nothing left but lara who continued to blindly.
His journey now focuses only on himself and his loved ones. The girl who used to live with thousands of laughs. Now the laughter seemed to keep him alive. The girl who was full of attention. Now living alone in a hazy waiting room.
The girl even ran to a place where she couldn't see someone she didn't want to see anymore.
Alindya smiled wryly as the memories returned to spin. Until the footsteps shifted his busy focus with stacking books in front of him.
"No Zidan in front." Mother Lilis Hermawan.
"Yes mother."
Arriving on the terrace Alindya began to see a wide back that is now in focus staring at the night sky. I don't know how long Alindya's been in this town again. The city he might have made an escape. Zidan was the only friend he had. It is not not easy to get along, it's just that Alindya began to limit himself since the past events passed.
"What's geliatin anyway?"
"The sky is bright rich elo smile."
"I'm disgusted with Zi."
"Kanda doank."
"Btw tumben here nights why??"
"So I can't be here at night??"
"Not that Zi."
"Gue's going to X town tomorrow?"
"No."
"Related??"
"Yes, why are you going there again?"
"Gue there's important business Lin."
"Yes be careful."
"The reaction is a doank?"
"How should my crus be Zi?"
"What the hell. I promise I'll be home soon and the first person I meet is elo."
"Why don't you ever believe that I said promise??"
"Because ..."
"Because what?"
"Because I've been betrayed by the person I trust the most. It destroyed me and the pain is still up to now."
"He??? Sorry I didn't mean to."
"Lupain is for me."
"Gue said yes, take care of yourself."
"Surely."
August 22, 2021,
Today is someone's special day. Because this day he should have come. Like the promise he made. But in fact let alone the presence. Congratulations to him he got. Alindya smiled wryly at the content of her last text message with Alfa. It contained only all of his question marks on Alfa. There is no meaningful reply.
Friday, 06 March 2020
From: Alindya Sheila Princess
To : Alfarezi Kavindra
Subject: How are you?
Saturday, 22 August 2020
From: Alindya Sheila Princess
To : Alfarezi Kavindra
Subject: Happy Birthday Alfarezi Kavindra
Saturday, 22 August 2020
To: Alfarezi Kavindra
To: Alindya Sheila Princess
Subject: Thanks and happy Birthday for you too
Tuesday, 10 November 2020
From: Alindya Sheila Princess
To : Alfarezi Kavindra
Subject: When did you come here Al?
Wednesday, 16 December 2020
From: Alindya Sheila Princess
To : Alfarezi Kavindra
Subject: How did you study there?
Friday, 01 January 2021
From: Alindya Sheila Princess
To : Alfarezi Kavindra
Subject: Happy New Year!!
Friday, 01 January 2021
To: Alfarezi Kavindra
To: Alindya Sheila Princess
Subject : Happy New Year also Lin.
Sunday, 16 May 2021
From: Alindya Sheila Princess
To : Alfarezi Kavindra
Subject: Good Night Al.
Sunday, 22 August 2021
From: Alindya Sheila Princess
To : Alfarezi Kavindra
Subject: Happy Birthday Alfarezi Kavindra
His attention faded with time. Maybe time will change a person and his whole world. There was nothing Alindya could do anymore now. Just pray for the happiness of the person who means so much to him. Only an apology could Alindya say. For all his delay realized as important as that the presence of an Alpha for him.
In the end Alindya understood the reason for the Alpha that night. The reason he asked alindya to open her heart to Reynaldi. Not to hurt especially to give trauma to Alindya about the world of romance. But so that he himself understands how valuable a person is. The one who actually became the owner of the highest throne in his heart, Alfarezi Kavindra.
Alindya really likes Reynaldi. But he forgets that liking and loving are different things. Sometimes there are times when a person survives even without any sense of comfort. That's what Alindya felt when she was with Reynaldi. Stay in a relationship only because of promises. Endure only because of coercion that shouldn't happen.
Alindya believed that her heart had been possessed long before she realized it. But everything had passed and it was impossible for him to turn back the clock. Perhaps far away Alfa had found someone more capable of giving her the meaning of true laughter. Maybe far away he has walked his best.
Forgetting and being forgotten were things that Alindya would experience. There is no power to make everything as it is. Alindya believes the fate of the god now painted for her is the best for her life. Many lessons he took from all the twists and turns he went through. If you have the opportunity to repeat. Alindya didn't want to change any of the grooves in each step.
Although at first he ignited himself about everything that happened. The phase in which he continuously rotates on the big question mark about the bitterness of destiny that he receives. Attended to prolonged longing that does not know time. Hating someone so much that you don't want to see them back. Crying over something that even he himself did not understand.
Everything happened so fast and continued without stopping. Until he finally began to release. Slowly he is in the phase of mengikhlaskan grievous reality. Until he finally smiled again. Smiling as he had made it through all the lara lodged in his mind.
Her happiness is now simple, seeing the person she loves loved loved by the person much more loving her.
..._END_...