ALINDYA PEN
28. Epilogues
...'He was once lost so far...
...At that time, happiness was also sad...
...meet the niche...
...Happy, because there are so many amazing things...
...Sad, because those memories might be forever rooted...
...He made it back, but with something still stuck there...
...I don't know what he should call it...
...Have you ever felt like crying ?...
...But there's no reason to do it...
...I want to laugh, but I never feel satisfied...
...What exactly is he looking for?...
...What does he want to hold?...
...He kept going without ever knowing his purpose...
...But what he found was always a vacuum without certainty.'...
..._Alindya Sheila Princess_...
Alindya smiled looking at the sparkling night sky. A smile that may have thousands of meanings in it. His black mane was swept away by the sighing of the wind. Along with the clear hair that he managed to hold on both of his eyelids.
"I REALLY MISS YOU." Sissy speech.
Just for tonight Alindya wants to blow it all away. Being strong in front of many pairs of eyes is sometimes exhausting. Trying nothing happens really drains his energy.
Alindya just doesn't want to look weak in front of her loved ones. He just wants to look okay now, tomorrow, and never mind when?
Alindya thought she could be happy, in fact everything was just a mere mask. Because the one name that still reigns in his heart continues to haunt him. A name that brought pain when Alindya called it.
Can he hope to return? Is he being selfish this time? A thousand questions he kept asking himself. Though in the end all he found was a difficulty.
Tonight is a special moment for Alindya. He was exactly 22 years old. Probably the same as in recent years. He spent his precious time with his parents.
A thousand words of gratitude will not be enough to reply to all that his two loved ones did. Even millions of rhymes would not be able to describe how precious and beautiful their presence meant.
Until the sound of the guitar passages made Alindya freeze. The voice of the passage that Alindya memorized outside her head. Accompanied by a very familiar aroma in Alindya's sense of smell. The clear circle that he had been holding back finally fell. His defense collapsed right then and there.
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Happy birthday to you
Happy birthday to you
Happy birthday, happy birthday
Happy birthday to you ...
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"Happy birthday Alindya Sheila's daughter." He said with a smile that adorned his handsome face.
For a long time, they looked at each other. In silence they throw at each other thousands of longings.
"Gue Lin's home." Say again.
Alindya reflexes ran over and hugged the man in front of her.
Her crying broke out right then and there. Until the man's burly hands began to gently caress the ends of Alindya's hair.
"Cup cup cup." His words made Alindya reflexively hit Alfa's arm.
"Gue's not Al's little boy." Alindya said while pouting.
Alfa only replied with such a loud laughter.
"Btw girl where's elo?" Ask Alindya suddenly.
"girl??"
"The girl who often elo up in the account sosmed elo Al "
"Basic stalker."
Hearing the alpha's speech, Alindya reflex hit Alfa's arm a second time.
"Ouch." Pekik Alpha.
"It's such a hobby to hit my arm that it hurts to know Lin." Whining again.
"Belgroff." Alindya said as she passed away leaving Alfa just like that.
"I'm glad I love." The Alpha.
When they reached the living room there were both Alindya and Alfa's parents there.
"Good baby." Tika Kavindra's Mother.
Alindya's focus was on the sweet girl sitting right next to Alfa's father, Mr. Fajar Kavindra.
Alfa realized that she could only hold back her laughter.
Alindya turned to look at Alfa who took a sitting position right next to the girl.
"Know her dear Nayla, the younger sister of Aunt Tika who settled in Bandung." Mother Lilis.
"Hay Nayla I'm Alindya." Alindya.
Alindya could only smile in embarrassment while looking down.
After some time Alfa moved from her seat and approached Alindya
"I'm afraid of yuu." Take Alfa and hold Alindya's hand.
Alindya simply nodded as she followed the direction Alfa was walking.
Arriving at the back garden, Alfa then looked at the two Alindya netra.
"Remember I never promised to go back to Elo again Lin??" Said Alfa while tidying up Alindya's mane that blocked his face. His two pairs of eagle netra were aimed right at Alindya.
"Remember." Alindya answered briefly.
Alfa's head slowly approached towards Alindya. Their distance is now getting thinner so that Alindya can clearly hear the sound of the interlocutor's breath.
"Gue dear elo Lin." Alfa's speech was then right in Alindya's ear.
Alindya was embarrassed.
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Dear Diary's,
Bandung, 06 March 2020
Hay, how are you doing there?
He asked me but unfortunately I couldn't answer him.
If only I could, I would say, I'm not okay here. I missed you really, a day without you making me lose this self.
Dear Diary's,
Bandung, August 22, 2020
Happy birthday to you,
This special moment feels empty without your presence. I still refuse to say hello. Still hesitant to just stare at your beautiful beauty.
My prayers are always the best and I hope they are still the same as I hoped they would be.
Dear Diary's,
Bandung, November 10, 2020
When do you play here ?
Ask me, so sweet. If I imagine her little face at that time. Our memories are perfectly carved into my memory. Don't forget to be happy there..
Dear Diary's,
Bandung, November 16, 2020
How was your college there?
Honesty here is empty without your presence. Sometimes I think about running towards you. But unfortunately my promise to you is much stronger than anything.
Dear Diary's,
Badung, January 01, 2021
Happy new year !!
He said to me in the past years. A year where there is no distance between us. I really miss you the spoiled girl who always colors my days.
Dear Diary's,
Bandung, May 16, 2021
Good night
Thank you for the two words that made me excited again. In a moment please wait for me there.
Dear Diary's,
Bandung, August 22, 2021
Happy Birthday's
Say it to me just like when we were kids. How is he currently there? I keep wondering if he's getting sweeter every day? Does he remember me every second? And am I still there? In the depths of his deepest heart.