ASA IS FADING
CHAPTER 21. Faced With Difficult Choices

"What do you mean please explain?" Pinta Naya grabs Sami's hand. He held it tightly to the man's palm. The warm palm of the hand now feels so cold. Sami looked down inside. He flinched.

"Please explain Mas Sami. What did you mean by that sentence? Whose seed? Who'd you impregnate?"

"I'm..." Sami.

"Bag.."

"I've impregnated another woman." 

"Crazy you mas.." Naya. He almost choked because he did not believe what Sami had just admitted. Her husband impregnated another woman? Did he not hear wrong? How could a Sami he knew do such a thing? The man she knew was a very loyal man. He was even very cold to others. Especially for a woman he doesn't know. How could he possibly hire another woman besides Naya as his wife? Thats impossible.

"I'm crazy, Naya, but you're a lot crazier. How can you..." Sami paused his sentence. The pain felt now in his throat because it endured thousands of disappointments that felt squeezing the chest.

"You.sleep with a lot of men while I'm still around. We're still Nay's husband and wife. Where's your mind?"

"Mas listen to me first." Naya cuts Sami's speech.   

"What else would you like to explain? Why can you do that for so many years without me knowing? What are you looking for? What did you get? Isn't that enough with everything we've got Naya? Is it less than what I gave it?" Sami said at length. Staring deeply into the bead of eyes belonged to the woman who had given him one daughter. Trying to get out of there. There is still a sense of love for a wife in a husband who is also struggling to defend the ark of his household in the middle of the storm of the ocean.

"Mas I also have a reason why I could be like this. All are also out of my control. Your fault too. You are too busy with your own world. You were never there for me when I needed you. That warmth you can no longer give me. Where were you when I needed you as a husband?"  

Naya shouted at Sami with an unstoppable emotion. Evaporating all his disappointment because it had been ignored for so long that he was forced to find a place as an escape from the loneliness and cold that he felt without a warm touch of husband.

Sami. Then he laughed sadly. Laughing at how stupid the situation enveloped him and Naya. "So that's why you did all that Naya? Is that enough as an excuse for you to justify the activity you do? Does that make any sense, Nay? My absence you made as an excuse for you to do vile things behind your own husband. Where's your mind, Naya?"

"What's different about you Sami? What you have done has not changed what I have done. Do you realize you're no better than me?" Naya refuted the husband's words. Trying to find self-righteousness. He looked at the face of the husband who was wet with tears. Sami looked back at Naya without blinking. Full of his heart now heard the sentence that Naya had just said.

"OKAY. I may not be a perfect husband for you. I'm sorry for that. I am indeed not a man who can satisfy your desires as a caress-hungry woman but one question I...are you satisfied now? Are you satisfied that our household is falling apart like this?"

"Mas...Don't throw all these mistakes at me. We are also not entirely because of the mistakes I made. You are also guilty. We're both wrong." Naya wrestles on Sami's body. Crying grimly condemned all that he had done. 

"So far what do you want?" Ask Sami.

"What do I have to do to deal with this complicated situation, Nay? Where are we going to take our household now? What decision do I have to make in the face of this reality we are now facing? How should I face you? Facing our extended family? How do I explain what we're dealing with, Naya? Please tell me now?" Sami's heart is at the moment. He no longer knows how to deal with his chaotic household situation. If only Naya had only done that once by accident it was possible that Sami could still close his eyes but the reality is very severe. 

If it was just an affair that does not involve physical might Sami would try to forgive but the fact is not like that. The fact is that Sami never thought it would be this bad. Naya being a woman of the night? Which husband will not be disappointed like he is now? Can he close his eyes? If only he could...

"What does it mean to carry our big family name? Do you want to involve all family members in our household problems? Don't tell me you're gonna..." Naya is suffocated as she captures the meaning behind Sami's sentence. Does her husband now intend to reveal all the facts? To tell a large family the disgrace of his household? Naya shook her head in disbelief at the thought of it. He would no longer be able to face the world if all members of his extended family knew what was going on in their households. What will it be later?

"I beg you mas. Don't ever do that. Don't tell me you're gonna do that ridiculous thing. I beg you." Said Naya with a clear face. He rested at Sami's feet with tears coming from his eyes that began to suck.

End of all the happiness in the household heresy with the husband. Sami did not even pierce at all his tears that sounded bitter. Sami flinching. He feels the same. Is he willing to go further? Can he involve a large family in his household problems with the ravaged Naya? Where will he hide the shame he will bear? Not only Naya will suffer the consequences. He himself is also guilty. He is also as sinful as his wife. What about Kiara? His little daughter would definitely be more injured as well. The child will be the victim of the chaos that occurred between him and Naya. 

Sami let out a long sigh imagining how much his little daughter would suffer if he knew what had happened between him and Naya. Sami couldn't imagine if it happened. Her tears fell down to hold back the pain that felt like a crack in the corner of the heart. Naya's betrayal and the sin she had committed with Jihan now rendered her powerless to make the wisest decision she would ever make in the future. If it may be selfish he wants to break free of the snares that bind him with Naya. He was eager to spill all the blame on his wife but there was Kiara who stopped him from doing so. The sinless face will suffer if Sami does. Then how is it now? What's he supposed to do? 

"How good is Nay now?" Sami asked with a trembling voice.

"Buck...." Naya choked up without knowing what to say.

"Now I have to take the middle ground for our household.." Sami took a breath before continuing his next sentence.

"What are you going to do?" 

"Please choose for yourself. Want us to go to the religious court with a good separation or your story will reach the ears of our extended family if you refuse to let us part. I can't tolerate it anymore because what you're doing is too embarrassing for me to bear for a lifetime." Sami finally gave a choice that he felt was quite wise for himself and Naya.

"Mas.I don't want us to separate.."

"I guarantee Kiara will never know your behavior. Kiara I will never let you know what kind of mother you are, Naya. The choice is in your hands." Sami cuts off the wife's words by brandishing her palm. The gaze of the eagle's eyes had turned extremely cold as if it was ready to drown Naya in a very deep abyss. Naya will fall and disappear if she continues to impose her will.

"Yes..." Omit the call but Sami passed without heeding again Naya who now can only stare at the sturdy back continued to go far. Leaving Naya with a sense of despair that has now begun to eat away at the soul.

How do they move after what happened???

******TBC********