Beans Forgot the Skin
Chapter 7 Hope and the Sirna

Pov Tiara's

With Revan my life is so happy, he's a very loving and patient man, not only that he's also romantic and Sholeh, he's a very loving and patient man, every day he brings Radit congregational prayers and always rebukes me when I pray at the end of time, he is the dream husband.

"Thank you for loving me in such a way and accepting Radit as he is" I said softly.

"Abanglah a man who is very lucky to have a wife that Sholeha like you dik, is not the jewelry of the world is a wife that Sholeha," he said steady. The rubbing of my head.

The marriage is two years old but there is no sign that I will conceive a second child.

Another week Revan would go out of town to work on a project from his office but my heart was so afraid there was a bad feeling, like something was going to happen. But forbidding him not to go there's no courage in my heart.

"Bang, you can not replace others to go to Surabaya next Sunday ya Bang," said sad.

"Why dik, how worried it is, can not be dik, brother trust boss to handle this project," he said softly.

"My heart doesn't feel good Bang, it looks like something will happen," I said slowly.

My forehead is soft.

"Well be the best, we just leave everything to Allah SWT. Life and death are in His hands." His eyes are looking at me softly.

It's been a week I've had nightmares, dreams of planes catching fire, but the plane doesn't know what the name of the flight is. It's been three days in a row the same dream. Precisely that morning Bang Revan kissed my cheek and my forehead to leave for Surabaya by early morning route flight.I was not allowed to take him because the flight schedule was still early, at 4 am, he said, because the percentage with the company in Surabaya at 7 am.

My heart was uncertain, when the arrival of my body there was something that seemed to be lost but I don't know what. My heart was crying that night

"Why the hell dear, spoiled really do not want to stay husband want to find mam," he said gently before his departure.

"Bang, my body is not good, nausea continues, I want to be hugged by Brother Trus, sad it feels if you wake up in the morning Brother is not there," I whine.

Gently rubbed my stomach it seemed like she felt a seed growing there. I'm 2 Weeks late.

"Honey, after returning from Surabaya we check yes, hopefully there is a dedeknya Radit there," he said softly.

"Don't go Bang, please stay here with us" I said seriously.

"Honey can't, this is a very important percentage, baby, it's a booby yes, ntar if kangen can vc really," he said gently.

To put my head on until I fell asleep, that night was the last night I slept in front of her, sure enough I had another horrible and real dream, once again, the dream of seeing the iron bird burning at the end of its tail and free-falling into the open ocean, after waking up it turns out Revan was no longer by my side. I'm pretty sure it was Revan's flight, because it was clear the name of the fuselage was the plane that Revan was on.

I took my salary on the nightstand, I vc My beloved husband turned out he was already at the airport.

"Honey a little bit more brother went into the plane already yes," he said softly.

"Bang, don't go please, the plane will crash, please," I stammered. Tears are raging.

"Don't bother dear, it's closed, hapenya, it's been a call from the officer to enter the fuselage," he said again. I saw him waving his hand.

My body was falling to the ground, there was a part of my soul missing, it was completely real, but why would Bang Revan not listen to me in the least. I cried and took ablution water to perform tahajud prayers for my husband's safety. Not feeling all the tears spilled on the prayer mat. I give it all to You, Lord. Whatever it is I have to accept what it is.

Exactly at 04 30 I suddenly clicked my phone there was news from the news link that the Jakarta Surabaya flight had an accident. My heart is really crumpled. When dreams come true. That's a very scary dream that came true.

Bang why don't you believe your wife just this once, in my heart murmuring and sobbing.

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Tears fell until Radit woke up from his sleep.

"Mama, why cry, Papa Revan where?" said innocently.

"Papa Revan will be fine, son," I replied weakly.

Radit hugged me in tears, half an hour later Mama-in-law and Mama and my Papa had come to my house. They strengthen while the spirit of life. I was really broken and almost desperate because this time the breakup was very painful, parting again unfortunately again sweet-sweet. Especially in my womb is pregnant with the fruit of love Revan.

"Ma, it looks like I'm pregnant, what my fate is Ma, save this child if you have to lose the affection of a Papa, little Radit is happy to have a surrogate Papa but fate says another," I said softly, my tears broke in my mother's arms.

"Patience and sincerity Son, God is sure you are capable of facing all this, he believes only you are able to pass this storm, others are not," replied Mama.

"Why should my children lose the image of a Papa Ma, my heart nelongso Ma, I used to be very happy to have a complete family and very happy but why can't my children feel the same happiness as me Ma" I said.

"Every human being stands on a different destiny Son, do not bershuuzon to Allah SWT Son, the spirit of yes Son," said Mama softly. The rubbing of my head.

I told my youngest brother to buy a testpek to be clear, I was pregnant or just another common cold.

"Then la Mbak, Sarah is still a girl to buy the game," he said shyly.

"Udah let Mama Temenin," said Mama.

"Yes Rabb returns Revan to me Rabb, I know the fact that life is just a matter of abandonment and abandonment but please put Rabb on hold" I whispered in my hajat prayer.

Like a loss of direction, when just sipping the sweetness of love turns out God loves him more than me, just limited to our meeting.

"Revan, thank you for giving me a sense of being loved, loved, spoiled, protected that I never felt with my former husband. But our meeting was so short I wanted to be with you even longer, dear." I took our wedding photos.

She smiled sweetly at the photo, still feeling warm last night's hug as she tried to convince me that everything was going to be fine. It is still warm in the memory of all his heartfelt affection. O Lord, strengthen your despicable servant. This heart is really fragile and broken.

Revan's words clearly.

"Darguably, if I may ask God, I alone leave you, it is not strong if you leave me, my love is so great for you, Mama Radit."

All the memories repeated again, suddenly I remember his favorite song Kemaren Seventeen. I don't like sad songs I don't like. But he always didn't care.

"Darling I want you to always remember me like this song does" she sang.

I replayed his favorite song Diplaydistnya.

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Yesterday

You were still here yesterday

With me enjoy this taste

Wish it would never end

With you

With you

The world looked so beautiful yesterday

And with you feeling all this

Passing through this black and white life

With you

With you

Now here alone

Looking for you doesn't know where

Have a calm

You're there forever

I always remember you

Pray for you every night

Have a calm

You were there

Forever

Faced with the lyrics of the song and I enjoyed the sensation of pain, I fell even worse. My mother-in-law hugged me tight.

"Ra, do not play heart-wrenching songs, will add to his wounds, pray Son, may there be a miracle from Him," said Mama-in-law, hugged my body tightly.

"Ma, this is Bang Revan Ma's favorite song, it turns out that he wants to be calm all my life, Ma, I'm weak and fragile Ma," I said weakly.

"Mama's sure she'll calm down there, but Mama still wants her back for us, there's still a lot of responsibility, Mama's always praying there's a miracle from him."

Half an hour later, the sound of my hape ringing turned out from Bang Revan's office stating that Revan was one of the victims of the plane crash, but there is still a possibility there is a miracle because Revan's body has not been found, just Revan's suitcase and bag of clothing, we had to pick him up and make sure it was all Revan's.

I could not say anything but tears kept on unraveling while gently stroking the fruit of our love, Papa gave strength to me even though his eyes were reddened by enduring the tremendous pain. Radit wept at the news from television that his father was the victim of the ill-fated plane.

Suddenly my vision was dark and I didn't know what was going on anymore, I saw bang Revan smiling at me, I cried seeing him waving.

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