Being my Master's Wife
Episode 23: Pamit

“And at least, ... you still believe in me even if only a little ...”

Episode 23: Pamit

After making sure no one was swerving anymore, in the middle of the already dark atmosphere, Fina decided to go to Raswin's ward. Fina found the two clockwork walls in the front waiting room of Raswin's ward, pointing at exactly nine p.m. In other words, for almost six hours Fina was awake in front of the mortuary. And during that very moment, Fina who was silent contemplated her fate, found two deaths. There were two bodies delivered and it happened to be an accident.

The two bodies who were high school children were bleeding especially in the head. And according to the caretaker, both teenagers died in motor accidents. The fact that increasingly makes Fina parno against the two-wheeled vehicle. Moreover, Fina also had experienced pain until trauma because it was hit from the opposite direction by another driver. However, ... Come to think of it, why does everything in Fina's life always end in trauma? Why did everything really traumatize Fina? Motor riding, trauma. Friendship, love and even marriage, trauma.

And all the thoughts outside the problem disappeared from the thought of Fina, because of her presence in the nursery Raswin, just silenced by Rina and Murni.

Fina who had just left the nursing room door began to suspect, has something bad happened to the two women? Or maybe, Rina and Pure have also been poisoned by the news that developed? About the gossip Fina who has rivaled the top artists, in the village they live?

“Bu, ... Rin's? Have you eaten?” ask Fina pleasantries for the sake of melting the atmosphere. Next to his hand scratched softly around his neck which was actually not itchy. But again, he remained silent. “What do you want to eat?” Fina who was actually already starving gradually sat on the mat next to the care bed Raswin, as where Rina and Murni were sitting.

Once again, Rina and Pure actually stepped aside and even looked unwilling to just glance at Fina. And the reality succeeded in stirring up Fina's feelings among the sadness that suddenly attacked. Fina had even been close to crying, but as much as possible, she held him back so that no one would know let alone her sister and mother, if in fact, she was already very tired and even wanted to give up.

“Regarding the problem of the cost of treatment father ..” said Fina who had become uninspired. He who tends to look down, often glances at Rina and Pure who sit tight and clearly avoid it. “Everything is in order .. the father lives to undergo treatment .. and in the future, the need for treatment of the father also does not need to mess around.”

“But Mbak shouldn't justify any means, right, just to get all that?” demand that Rina look at Fina while shedding tears. His fingers moved quickly on the screen of his phone that was gradually lit up. And shortly after, he thrust his cell phone at Fina, among the annoyance following a seemingly deflated wound.

A photo of Fina being with Rafael, before Fina was spotted by four mothers while helping Rafael meet Raden at the beginning of their meeting, after a long time without seeing him.

No different from Rina, Fina who looks much tougher, and indeed deliberately forced herself to always be strong, also covered in tears. “For the sake of family, .. everything I will do without exception, Na!” He let out a deep breath in order to dampen the tightness that suddenly filled the cavity inside his chest. “And everything in the photo, not as you think!” sureness.

“These photos are very clear, Ma'am! And it shouldn't be, too, Mbak sacrificed his pride, Ma'am!” sue Rina again with a soft voice filled with emphasis. Every now and then, he who felt disappointed as well as injured, wiped his tears with origin using both backs of his hands.

With tears that continued to fade and left just like that, Fina gradually looked at Rina. “Indeed, ... since when do I have self-esteem, after everything that happened? And after such an urgent situation we have no other choice ...? Silence ...? Is it limited to silence, can create change let alone a miracle? Will their mouths make you okay, cured of the disease? And does everything you're after also make things better ...?!”

“Fina, enough! You are already over!” hold Pure who finally raised his voice.

Fina looked disappointed. “Padahan, .. I only want trust as well as support from you. I really just asked for both of those things!” firmly reassuring. “And at least, ... you still believe in me even if only a little ...”

“Mother never taught you to be a woman is not right, yes, Fina!” Purely cannot suppress emotions. Even his call to Fina who is usually “mbak”, changed drastically in addition to sounding rudely laden with anger.

Rina who was sitting next to Pure, immediately embraced while trying to calm her mother.

“Even you trust others more ...? In other words, .... now, ... now I'm really fighting myself?” inner Fina who chose to retreat without any meaningful change. He stepped loosely and let his tears freely glisten representing every wound he had so far endured. Also, ... wound that finally darted from the dam that he had always strengthened.

Fina sat across from Rina and Murni together. He rested on the floor, leaning his head against the wall where he leaned his body. Fina's gaze that became nanar also became laden with wounds.

There are no words to share their togetherness. More precisely, Rina and Pure completely silenced Fina. And that fact continued until the next day. Fina who deliberately woke up early to compress Raswin's body, immediately got a wordless rejection. Because after Pure seized the basin following the towel compress from Fina, Fina who was originally just picking up clothes Raswin was also immediately removed by Rina. Rina took Raswin's dirty clothes and then passed from together, but Fina was sure, Lina would wash them immediately.

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Maybe twenty minutes later, Fina returned with a bag of food. Where, Rina and Pure who had been awake for Raswin also immediately compact silenced him.

Fina who did not immediately continue her steps, actually felt very tormented by the judgment she received from the two people who should have given her support. However, Fina also did not want to get late with the situation even more so to leave it in silence. He sighed deeply then stepped towards Rina and Pure. He is ready to end it all.

Fina placed the pouch containing her food in front of Rina and Pure who were indeed sitting on the mat. He knelt before the two while still looking down.

“Bu ... Rin ... for God's sake, although what is in the photo is indeed me, but it's not what you think it is. The man, .. We were just friends. And from that man too, I got a loan of money.” For Fina, it is impossible to explain clearly his relationship with Rafael, including Rafael's past services. Because, Fina was afraid, the reality just muddy the atmosphere. “All I get from him is debt. Debts that I must pay. So, instead of staying here and always getting into a lot of trouble, I decided to work. I want to find a job in Jakarta, because I can't possibly rely on my salary as an honorary teacher. Not to mention, with my case that continues to grow, definitely looking for work here is also not possible safe.”

Rina and Fitri were still a silent compact, although this time, the two would occasionally glance at Fina.

“And about Ipul, why he was imprisoned, .. you should know why.” Fina took a deep breath. Because, today too, he intends to move to Jakarta. He really could not bear if he had to survive while the bad gossip about him was even more crazy and very painful. “I tipped mister. And you don't have to worry about me running away from responsibility. Just pray, .. pray for me to be strong. As for the lack of treatment, ... later I stay the money as well as make your grip.”

Rina and Pure really did not comment. The fact is also what makes Fina feel more sick and heavy. Even though he had to tear up, but it seemed that the wounds, ego, and disappointment of the two people before him were stronger than Fina's own sincerity.

Fina passed from before the two while adjusting her breath slowly in order to muffle the tightness in her chest that increasingly felt very disturbing. Not to forget, he also wiped his tears until finally, he reached across from Rina and Murni. Fina was also willing to pay a farewell to Raswin.

“I really can't believe, if in the end, I have to endure as well as fight alone without the slightest bit of trust ... Sir, ... I said!” inner Fina who then shook Raswin's right hand.

At the same time, Rasvim opened his eyes. He looked at Fina who was growing teary-eyed, while shedding tears.

Fina did not understand Raswin's tears. Are Raswin's tears also a form of disappointment like Rina and Fitri? Or ... other flavors that Fina very much expects similar, ... trust? However, Fina did not want to dissolve with all that. After all, it is useless and it will not change the situation. All he has to do now is work, earn a lot of money to reimburse Raswin's medical expenses, with no support from others including his own family.

“Pak, Ma'am, Rin. I want to get ready right away. Because later in the afternoon as well, I'll be leaving.” right away Fina said that while commenting on the smile between her tears that were not constantly flowing. Heavy and very painful, ..that's how he feels now.

Connect ....

Early in the morning, these same eyes have runny nose because of this writing ....

Yes already, Author want to write advanced “Dream Wedding (Sooking Secrets)” first, yes.

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