Benalu In My House
TEN
"Mas disappointed in you, Sarah. "
What the ....
I was silent, not even refuting my husband's words because the heart was trying to guess and the mind was trying to digest the meaning of his words just now.
My heart is throbbing pain. Tears are no less to come out. Kuremas the tip of my shirt is strong, this time it feels so painful and much more painful. Does she doubt the existence of the fetus that is in my womb?
"You doubt the child in my womb, Mom? "
I said raucously, holding the sobs that almost came out every time I said.
"You would rather hear Desi's words, than me who is your legal wife? Who stands with you in all situations? "
"... "
"Are you aware of the meaning of your words, words that re-scratch this heart? "
"It's not my intention to say that, there's no intention of the heart to doubt your loyalty, but seeing what you did just now really makes you rethink the truth of your love. "
My knees were shaking, and my breath was hunting. His response was so unexpected. Just because of women, he was willing to get rid of love, even his trust from his own wife. Is this quick to take everything from me?
The gaze of the eyes remained focused on Mas Dani who was sitting leaning on the sofa with her hands squeezing hair.
"Is this right to rob me of what should be mine? "
"Who means benal-"
Suddenly Desi made a sound. Maybe he didn't accept the title I had for him, but it was perfect for him. Hearing her powerful voice, really made me in a rage.
"BE QUIET, DESI! "
My impact surprised him. I am no longer here to be stepped on or treated as I please.
Dani stood up, then moved closer to me.
"What do you care, Mom? Do you still remember the existence of your flesh blood that I had? Are you still aware of its existence? Even with how much you doubt my son. That's bad of you, Mom. "
Mas Dani tried to grab my hand which continued to push her body with her index finger, but I took off. This taste can no longer be held. Pain that always presses.
"I'm sick of it, Mas. You are tired of the drama you are creating. Do you remember the last time you were there for me? You'd rather have this damn woman than your own wife. "
"When he's here, have you ever said hello to my son? Have you ever made me pregnant milk as usual? No, Mas. Try to reflect on all your treatment so far. At midnight you wake up just to make a cup of milk for Desi. For a child who is not of your flesh and blood. While in the back room there, a place that was not worth mentioning as that room, I cried. Crying over all your insolent treatment. Not a drop of milk you've ever made for me, even if it's just to increase my strength in seeing your insolent acts "
"This is my house, Mas. Did you forget? But I was willing to be ordered to move to the back room because you said he was not ordinary in a tight place. Okay, I beat, Mas. "
"It's been too much of a feeling I've sacrificed, but have you ever appreciated it? Have you ever thought about my feelings? No, Mas! The ones you have are getting more and more. "
"Sorry, sweetheart. Excuse me. "
There might have been a slight jolt from my words just now, evident from Mas Dani's tears coming out.
"You're too weak to be a man, Mom. Husband is the foundation in the family. If the foundation alone is fragile, then the entire house will collapse with just one small shock. "
"Mas sorry, dear. I just realized. Your words are right. This shouldn't have happened. It is weak. "
No more rustling to hear his speech, even though tears still come out. Am I an evil wife? It is up to them to say what, because harboring heartache every time really fade my love for him. It's been too deep of a heart scratch that he gave.
"And you, Desi . you should be self-conscious. You're not here to take someone else's. You are just hitchhiking.The existence of Mas Dani is only to cover the disgrace you do, instead of taking it. Remind me of the contract? There is no bond between you and my husband. So it's enough to just get here that you enjoy what you shouldn't deserve. "
Feel it, you fucking lady.
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