Benalu In My House
ONE HUNDRED AND SIX

Now Mentari and Jervario have arrived at the spiritual home. Apparently, Shandi's request to meet with Mentari yesterday was none other than to apologize to him as well as convey Spiritual desire to meet him.

It was actually hard for Mentari to set foot again in the former-in-law's house. The house, although purchased with KPR, but in it there is a contribution from him to make his former father-in-law happy, which was still not considered at all.

The house also has a lot of memories. A house where he was once a good son-in-law in order to be well received. Many hopes were soaring when he lived there, but there too his hopes were blown with words of rejection. His struggle was never considered, it was precisely the wounds that were so deeply touched.

Shandi indeed yesterday apologized profusely to himself for all the wounds he had inflicted, although forgiving, but the pain in the chest was still so felt. Though Shandi to lower his self-esteem by resting in front of him, but his name is a wound, not that easy to heal. Although sorry has been said from his lips, but still not able to muffle all the pain they have incited.

"Dance, I know my mistakes will never be forgiven, even though I have spent weeks, months, or even years, the wounds in your heart will never heal, but I still want to apologize to you for all my fears and mistakes. I really did sin against you. My sins and faults must be so many that it will be unforgivable. But I keep begging, I'm sorry, sorry, sorry. I also apologized on behalf of my mother and Septi because they often insulted and demeaned you. They often say you are barren, even though I am here barren. You're the perfect woman, Dance. I'm the one who's not perfect here, not you." Said Shandi while struggling to make Mentari jerk up to immediately stand up from his seat.

"Here you go, stand up. Not nice to see the others," exclaimed Mentari surprised and feeling uncomfortable when he saw Shandi who was resting at his feet. Then he asked Shandi to sit back in his chair. "The wounds you're trying to inflict are too deep. Even every time you see it, the pain and tightness are still felt, as if imprinting in the recesses of the soul. But I've tried to make peace with the situation. Maybe it's our destiny. Although I can not fully forgive, but I will try sincerely for all the destiny that has been outlined by God to me," Mentari said to make Shandi bowed while stunned. In the room there was only himself accompanied by Belinda, while Jervario had urgent business so he could not accompany her that afternoon.

'I do feel devastated by everything you and your family have done, but after I thought, if I had stayed with you, I might never have felt what it was like to be pregnant let alone a mother. Whether to be grateful or regretful, which must be your blessing, I can finally feel true happiness. The happiness I never felt when I was with you first, is the love and affection of the family and have a baby. Although Asha was not born from my womb, her presence perfected my happiness. And now with two babies in my womb, it makes everything perfect. You're actually a good man and I know you loved me sincerely. But the destiny of our love must get here, mas. Hopefully later you can find someone who can perfect your life, like I who have found the perfecter of my life, Mentari continued in his heart.

Knowing Mehtari was the one who came, Septi immediately rushed out of the house. Even he immediately rested under the feet of Mentari made the pregnant woman with a surprised snort to reflex rewind her body. Fortunately, Jervario was always alert to stand beside Mentari so that the man immediately restrained his wife's body so as not to fall.

Then suddenly, there was a sobbing sound from the woman who was sitting on the floor. Though they were still on the porch of the house, Septi threw all his shame in order to apologize to Mentari, the noble-hearted woman he had hurt with sharp and piercing words from his lips.

"Mbak Tari, Septi please forgive Septi's mistakes. Pardon Septi, madam, Septi really regretted saying bad words to mbak Tari. Septi was ashamed, Septi was wrong, Septi really regretted having done so bad. Though Mbak Tari was never evil as Septi, whereas mbak Tari always rose the same Septi, mbak Tari also always meet the needs of Septi, but Septi is still evil. Forgive Septi, mbak, Septi is wrong, forgive Septi who is so stupid can not see the goodness of heart mbak, forgive Septi, mbak. Forgive all Septi's faults, mbak, Septi is truly sorry," roared Septi as he continued to rest under his feet.

The feeling of tightness returned. The memories of the insults, scorn, ridicule, ridicule, cynical, scathing, and sharp words they had once spoken to her flashed past. The sun puts his palm in front of his chest. Tightness, pain, heartbreaking, felt so gripping the recesses of his heart.

Mentari's breath hunts, as the sense of tightness is getting hammered. Fearing something happened to his wife, Jervario immediately pulled Mentari into his arms. Seeing how Mentari's expression was, Shandi's inner voice screamed. So great is the pain that his family has given so that the Mentari response looks so painful. Even Septi who saw this increasingly roared, regretting his actions that had been so late. Is there a chance for him to write an apology from his former brother-in-law? While hearing her apology alone made Mentari seem so in pain?

Jervario rubbed Mentari's back affectionately while giving a kiss on the top of his head. Slowly the tightness in his chest began to fade. After he felt calmer, Mentari also returned to face Septi.

"Honestly, what you're doing is really painful. Not even a thousand words of apology can make up for the pain I've been feeling all along. My heart is as sincere as I love you. I sincerely treat you like my own family. As sincere as I dedicate myself to get your love. But what do I get? What's your reply? You insulted, demeaned, reviled, scorned, and more painfully stabbed me in the back. You conspired for Mas Shandi to cheat on me. Though you are a woman, but until your heart makes me lose everything" cried Mentari who tried to vent all the tightness that gripped his mind.

Jervario who had just seen the first outpouring of emotions his wife immediately clasped his hand. I hope he can give peace to his wife. Especially when Mentari is pregnant, of course he does not want his wife suddenly early contractions due to not being able to control his emotions.

Mentari sighed, "you know Sep, it hurts. So hurt. My sincerity you retaliated with a betrayal, it really hurts" Mentari said. Her tears are flowing. Remembering his past, was tantamount to awakening his painful memory. "But .. I will try to make peace with the past. Maybe at this time I can not really forgive you, but I will try it," said Mentari slowly. "stand. You haven't really recovered yet, have you? Later your stomach back hurt," said Mentari gently make Septi more roaring.

Mentari and Jervario are sitting in the living room. Soon Fatma came and served tea to her master's guests. Seeming a little child following the mother who was about to serve the tea made Mentari smile gently.

Shandi who saw it then explained who Fatma and the boy who kept peeking out from behind the curtain. Mentari then called him with a gesture of hand to make the little boy approach. Then Mentari picked up a chocolate bar in his bag and handed it to the boy, making him smile.

Just as Mentari wanted to greet the boy, Septi's call interrupted everything. Moreover, Septi's face looked panicked. It turned out that inside the room, it looked Spiritual with a chest that had gone up and down and a pale face muttering something.

"Sir, I think my mom wants to talk to me about Dance," said Septi panicked.

The mentari came and sat down on the chair beside the spiritual bed.

"Ta-rhi, ma-af-kan. Ma-ma sa-nyak sa-ma ka-mu. Ma-ma ... "

"Mama, you don't have to talk much. Mama's still sick. We go to the hospital first yes so that mama is healthy and can talk a lot with Tari," said Mentari but Rohani shook his head with the eyeballs that continued to vibrate and slightly bulged. Seeing this, Mentari reflex grasps the hand of Spirit.

"Ma-ma su-dah nd-ak. Ma-ma mo-hon ma-af-kan ... "

After saying that, the hand of the Spiritist immediately fell and just fell on the bed. Mentari was surprised and her eyes widened when she saw that Rohani's face had been wiped with cotton. His eyelids were not closed, but the signs of life had completely disappeared making Shandi, Septi, and Septian who had just returned home screamed and roared. The mentari also shed her tears. Jervario who always faithfully accompanied Mentari mere mas slowly his shoulders to channel calm.

'Dance to forgive, mama. Go quiet, ma. May the worship charity of the mother be received at the side of Allah SWT, the inner Mentari.

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