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Chapters 87. It hurts so Starla

Starla POV

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My and Saka's marriage started with our one-night love affair. At first Saka refused to take responsibility for my womb, where Axelo and Aluna were still in my womb. Wickedly he even asked me to ask for money for responsibility, as if he was out of hand of everything. I still remember exactly how it happened, when I was PPL at the school where Saka studied and that's where I talked to Saka about this pregnancy.

"My answer. Bener Lo is pregnant and that's my son?" saka asked me with his haughty face that made me want to scratch his handsome face.

"If I say yes, what do you want? Responsibility?" I replied originally, I was actually testing it as well.

"No, I won't take responsibility. This is Lo's fault, because Lo who has seduced me first," said Saka was so selfish. From the beginning he seemed to have emphasized to himself, he would not be responsible if something happened to me. Wicked!

I was surprised, I thought he was just kidding but I was wrong. This guy is serious.

"Lo..do not want to say that I seduce Lo! Everywhere, the guys are acting and doing. Not the girl side! So how do I tempt Lo hah?" I'm defending, I don't want to be blamed alone. Isn't it in a bed relationship, a man who is more powerful? It's good that he blames me while he has made me break a virgin.

"Lo's the first one to kiss me, keep Lo the seductive me. Lo up above my body, hold me. Is it natural that I am? I'm a normal guy....And not all men are wrong, if the girl is not cheap." continue to blame Saka and insult me.

I whose emotions directly slapped his hand.

Plakk!

"Who did you say cheap, huh?" sentakku emotions.

Did he not think about how I felt by saying so? This guy is really more than a bad word. I was pregnant with her child.

"Yes horror! If you don't want to apologize, or feel guilty. Why do I talk to you? Denger ya leaked belagu, I also will not hold Lo accountable! This baby, I'm going to grow up on my own. And anyway, it's a little bit like Lo.it's not worth it to be the father of this kid!" I said firmly while holding my own stomach.

"good. I don't care either." said Saka with a cold smile that of course made my heart ache.

"Lo's Oath is so sweet," I said hurtly. Even from that moment I held back these tears from falling.

"Yes, its me." admit Saka shamelessly. No matter how I feel.

"If this child has been born later, or even has grown up. I won't admit Lo as his father, nor will he admit Lo as his father." I threatened.

"Oh.nothing. No problem. Just my advice, you don't watch a lot of flying fish soap operas. So halu, right?" saka's insinuation is subtle and pierces my heart.

"Damn it!" umpatku.

"Inget, you can't hold me accountable and people can't know about this. Including my girl" Saka warned me and it made me sicker.

"Quiet down! I won't say anything. And at school, we pretend we don't know each other!" I pretended to be strong so as not to be underestimated by him. That I could live without him.

"good. But, if you want to ask for money to hold me accountable, you can ask. Not married though!" cetus Saka is arrogant.

I tried to smile even though I was reluctant. "Okay, later I will ask Lo for money if I need, make this content fallout." I replied origin, then I stepped away from there with annoyance.

Yeah, that was our bad start and I don't know what happened. Saka began to care for me, even he decided to take responsibility when before he was reluctant to do that. This marriage was initially strongly opposed by Papaku, but Saka was held accountable anyway. He's the guy who got me pregnant and he's the father of my baby.

We got married, without love like we do in drama movies. But slowly the sense of it began to grow as time went on, I thought this was a hate plot to be love. Saka really paid a lot of attention to me, even though I had previously thought that this attention was only because of the baby in my womb. However, she expressed love for me and she looked sincere.

Even he was willing to work part-time to support me and our son who was still in the stomach. He didn't let my money or the money given by my in-laws go out one bit. The love in my heart grew bigger and bigger. We are like a couple now. Yeah, don't forget what happened before. That Saka was kissed by his ex, which I was angry at that moment. Disappointed, jealous, it was the first mistake and I forgave her because Elisha kissed Saka first. I believe in Saka, where maybe Saka will betray me who is pregnant, I thought.

Then when he promised to pick me up for the gynecologist, he didn't come. That's where my pain came back because Saka would rather accompany the sick Elisha than me. After that, as usual Saka apologized and said he would not repeat it again. All right, I gave him a chance but we made an appointment, if one of us cheated. Then there is no return word or opportunity.

One day Galang came to me, where he told me that Saka had a relationship with his ex-girlfriend. Again the name of Elisha became a thorn in our marriage. Of course, I do not just believe in the words of Galang even though I have known Galang for a long time and Galang is my best friend. To be honest I felt when Galang as if asking me to be suspicious of Saka.

At first I did not heed Galang's words about Saka. I don't think it's possible that Saka cheated on me with Elisha, whereas they've met less often than not communicated as far as I know. Ever since I got angry, Saka deleted Elisa's number from her contact and even changed her phone number to a new one.

I began to suspect...

"You're coming home tonight again? Why almost every day overtime? What's the show?" I asked Saka when my husband told me he was coming home the other night. This past week, he's always been home a long time. Go before I wake up and go home after I sleep, if I don't wait for him to come home, maybe I won't see him.

"Dear, there's a birthday party and a cafe for rent. So I'm busy. You are the same little star bobo aja first yes." said Saka who sounded attentive but nervous.

"Yes, be careful with your work. Love you." I tried to act normal, even though I started thinking differently.

"Love you." replied Saka in a soft tone from there. Sometimes I melt with this soft voice, as if she loves me very much.

As the days went by, my suspicions grew when I found evidence on Saka's phone. There's a number with the name of the messenger mama calling Saka repeatedly. At first I was normal, but when I saw the chat from the name of the courier, I was surprised not to play.

My heart was racing when I saw the contents of the chat that said 'honey, are you home? I miss you'

I finally decided to hack Saka's phone, inevitably. I learned to tap from Riko who is an expert in this business. Although not an expert, I managed to get a chat in the pocket with the writing of this messenger mamang and how surprised I was when I saw it. My tears fell unbearably, what have they been doing behind my back all this time? Is it more than a kiss? I don't know!

Their chat showed me the intimacy that made my heart hurt more and I knew that person was Elisa from her profile picture.

I find it hard to believe that the husband in front of me seems to love me, but he still loves his ex-girlfriend and is in touch with her.

I tried to keep quiet even though I already had evidence, I endured my pain. Until I see for myself, I won't believe it. Am I stubborn, or am I stupid for loving Saka?

Then came the fateful day, the day I almost lost my life and the lives of my two babies who were 7 months old. I went to the cafe where Saka worked and finally God showed me all the evidence. All the lies that Saka always told me.

God, this is really sick!

Withstanding the pain in my heart, I went to Elisha's house to see all the evidence. And there, my eyes began to open, my ego began to collapse. Saka. Really, what I'm seeing is leaving me so hurt devastated. Then I wonder if Saka really loved me or not all this time?

Saka wasn't silent when I caught him cheating. He tried to explain everything to me. What...what does he need to explain to me? The beginning of the affair or what? I was angry, I was disappointed, it turned out Galang was right and all these facts had silenced my lips. No more defense for Saka, no apologies, I'm sick...

It is different if Saka did not intentionally do it, but Saka deliberately did this and more disgusting again. He said enjoy it, oh my god, I can't stand this pain anymore. Saka hurt me too much. People say, sometimes it hurts. This is what I feel from Saka's honesty.

After the accident happened, I who had woken up from my coma and had nightmares of death, immediately decided to part with Saka. But of course Saka did not want to part with me and I am sure it was not because of me but because of our children. But Saka said that he loved me. Bull shitt's! I don't trust his words anymore.

He begged, cried, even repeatedly he did not hesitate to show his regret. I heard from his friends that Saka was devastated by my decision. If anyone asks, do I miss Saka? Yes, I was devastated but it was not up to me to want to go back to him or to undo my intention of parting ways. Nah!

People around me say a lot, to give Saka a second chance. But, isn't the opportunity I gave her already wide enough? Many times I forgave her and tried to forget her, but she repeated fatal things for our relationship.

It's not just a matter of cheating, it's a matter of feeling. I am self-conscious, I am not Elisa who has a relationship with him 2 years. I'm just a new person in Saka's life. And all this time Saka's affection was only because of the baby in my womb. I'm sure of that and I don't care or care about Saka.

What do I care about people who don't love me at all? Now I've decided my life is for Axelo and Aluna, no more romance. At least for now.

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Today I accidentally met Elisha in the hospital toilet, at first I heard the sound of crying and pain from a woman near the mirror. And sure enough, I saw Elisha there with a pale face and wearing a patient's shirt. Honestly, I get angry every time I see that woman. It was the first time we met again after I caught Saka kissing her. My hands clenched firmly, my jaw hardened and I could feel my heightened emotions when I saw Elisha. But, I held myself back from being emotional and being calm. Until Elisha spoke to me first, he even greeted me and there was guilt in his eyes.

Then should I be happy? I guess not! But I wonder enough, what really happened to Elisha? Is he pretending to be sick like before?

I tried to ignore her call and went out of the toilet, but Elisha held my hand.

"Sister Starla, I beg you. I want to talk to you, Lo. I have something to say."

"Sorry, I-" I intend to refuse, but Elisha looks at me with a circle of tears soaking in his cheeks, that my heart is hard to resist.

"Please.gue please brother. Before I go, I want to talk to you about something, Lo." Elisha was crying, holding my hand. I don't understand why this woman who was always so arrogant in front of me looked so pitiful.

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