
Having been unable to do anything more, the heartbroken Bhishma immediately went to her room.
Rejection made by Ara, it really makes the heart of Bhishma broken. He felt that Ara had no feelings for him, thus making him reluctant to do more than this.
Several times Ara had made him fall in love, but only with one rejection, was able to make Bhishma sad because of it.
“If this is the case, what else will you do? He certainly will never release Morgan who can be said to be perfect. He might also think, if I were also his half-brother and we wouldn't be together. But, what's wrong? What's wrong like this? Why can't we be together, anyway?” murmured Bhishma, who was lamenting her heart and feelings for Ara.
Because of feeling sad, even Bhishma to cry without a sound. Her tears kept flowing, blushing her thin cheeks.
“If he doesn't like me, don't let my feelings get deeper with him. I don't want to constantly be jealous to him, and angry for no reason to him. I also do not want to live just to love someone who already has a partner,” muttered Bisma, who thought to start a life without Ara beside her.
“Indeed from the beginning it was wrong, loving Ara who looks so innocent and different from other girls. In fact, Ara's attitude and nature were instead formed, because of the association he got here,” murmured again, who instead blamed himself for the feelings that had arisen by themselves in his heart.
From now on, Bhishma should be able to forget Ara very hard. Because forgetting Ara without hard work, it will feel useless.
Meanwhile Ara was also thinking about the words of Bhishma in her room. His life felt full of drama, when he started coming to this place. From the beginning of her meeting with Bhishma, Ara did consider Bhishma to be her own sister. However, it is unexpected that Bhishma even considers herself more than a half-brother.
That made Ara worried. On the one hand, he understood very well what Bhishma had done for him. On the other hand, he also could not casually accept the feeling of Bhishma by putting aside Morgan's feelings. After all, Morgan is her lover at this time, whose presence has made her heart a little filled.
The conflict about his feelings with Bhishma is becoming more and more apparent. Since seeing Bhishma doing bad things with Gladis back then, Ara felt something strange about her feelings for Bhishma. But he still doesn't realize it.
When Bhishma kissed her, she realized what she was really feeling. Actually Ara also liked Bhishma, but Ara did not know that feeling at all. Beside Bhishma who was indeed her half-sister, Ara still did not know the meaning of loving someone.
But one thing Ara knew, when she saw that Bhishma had something dangerous to her, Ara felt very sad. He even always slipped the name of Bhishma in every prayer, and hope God gave it a happiness, because at the beginning of the first time to this place, Ara only had Bhishma.
That feeling he did not even feel, when he saw Reza or Morgan. He only felt different things, when he was with Bhishma.
It was so hot, that it felt so sad just to see Bhishma doing such a bad thing with Gladis. Ara only realized it, but she and Bhishma had nothing to do with it. However, seeing it made Ara's heart very sad and down.
“Did I like Bhishma all this time? Why didn't I feel this feeling when I was with Reza and Morgan?” murmured Ara, still feeling confused by the feeling she felt.
However, all the events that happened between them, made Ara feel very confident at this moment. She felt her feelings for Bhishma were also more than just her feelings for her sister. Ara felt different, when together with Bhishma.
Although Bhishma had treated her harshly, Ara still very much wanted to be close to her. All of this is completely unexplainable.
Because it was too late, Ara also involuntarily closed her eyes. His heart was troubled, with a fear of sadness. All because of one name that felt very meaningful to him.
Bisma.
***
That morning Ara woke up late, so tired of thinking about her feelings for Bhishma all night. Ara felt sad, because it turned out that she was trapped in Morgan's feelings, which made her not know the true meaning of her love for Bhishma.
Because it was too late, a lot of phone calls from Morgan that made Ara become restless because she saw the missed phone.
“Duh, Morgan callin continues. Ara just woke up, could not answer her phone,” muttered Ara, who was just about to take a shower, but the time has shown at 6.15 am.
Usually Ara departs at 6 am, because the journey from her home to school takes about 45 minutes. The first lesson bell starts at 7am, so he can relax first, before starting the lesson.
However, this time Ara was too late. He felt bad for Morgan, as he might have waited for him long in front of his house.
Ara sent a short message to Morgan, who said she was still getting ready to take a shower. When she had sent a chat to Morgan, Ara found a short chat from Bisma.
“Bisma nge-chat Ara?” muttered Ara, who was confused by what the content of the Bhishma chat was.
With high curiosity, Ara also opened the short message.
“Food is ready, I cook for you. Don't eat again like yesterday. I go first, lo ‘kan he said with Morgan.”
Ara's eyes were rounded, as she read the short message from Bhishma. He did not know, if the food at the dinner table yesterday morning, was his homemade food. Ara instead ate with Morgan, and only realized it in the afternoon.
“Bisma why is still the same attention Ara? He didn't Ara refuse? Why do you still pay attention to Ara? Not that this way, even Ara became guilty and she would definitely have a hard time eating Ara,” muttered Ara, who felt very guilty about Bhishma.
Ara did not want, a small thing like this instead made her unable to forget about Bhishma, or vice versa.
Ara's eyes glared, as she remembered the time that kept going. Now, the time has shown at 6:20 a.m., and it is too late for him. He decided to take a shower and get ready to leave.