Call Me Isha
63. Our Relationship is an Eternal Rainbow

          True, said Brother Raefal, I was too exalted ego to be unaware of the heart, too blind with the world that I have today.

Upon arrival in the room I hurried to pull the sacred drawer that I always lock because, in it there is a parting gift of Brother Raefal that I have never opened.

This second I seemed to be a teenager who I had long left behind just because the contents of the box were grasped.

Although not as luxurious as the ring that Brother Raefal pinned to Glenda, a similar parting gift is not inferior in giving a sense of haru.

Satisfied with observing the ring given to the former, I switched to reading the series of words that the man wrote.

Let me be the first one to love your ring.

The tears mixed with the little laughter I let out.

I vigorously walked towards the mirror, inserting the ring slowly. Then, show it as if the whole world knows.

Smile terpatri while paying attention to the appearance but, all that did not last long because the tail of the eye accidentally caught my figura with Arik.

As if slapped into reality, I again separated the ring with a tear.

Back, I noticed my figure that looked disgusting because it was lulled with the past and forgot the figure who had been accompanying.

Still fresh in the memory if, the popularity that I mcecap also because of the figure of Kak Arik, he introduced myself to his Uncle who incidentally a legendary singer in the country.

From there my career skyrocketed, without a lover and one of his family who is quite influential, I will not hold success at the beginning of debut.

I wiped every tear. "Flo has to be strong. There is no such thing as heartbreak, let alone heartbreak."

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             Comforting myself on Sunday is not as beautiful as reality because, now I actually have to be stuck in the playground to look after Orlin's children.

My regret is not that I did not sincerely look after Lova but because, the figure I avoided actually had to share a chair with me.

"By the way, I think God loves me very much."

I kept quiet, choosing to enjoy the ice cream that the man bought me a few minutes ago.

"My intention is to ask Zimra to play, but instead meet the person I miss."

"Keep me a care?" I said cuek.

Laughter sounded, maybe the man had forgotten about the incident last night to look ordinary in front of me.

"I'm sorry, you must have cried again last night because of me."

"Totally believe."

I was shocked when Raefal's fingers touched under my eyelids.

"Panda's kayak, but it's pretty."

A snort then, directed a gaze to the two little girls who were playing proselytizing a few meters away from my place.

"Just focus on your child, child abduction is rife."

Silence enveloped to make the atmosphere feel strange and uncomfortable.

After thinking all night, being strict to the ex is not the right thing because, it will cause false perceptions.

Finally, though in doubt I ventured to break the silence and make peace with the past. Let's just say the first step to change, it's not possible forever that I continue to be trapped in the feeling of ashes.

"Zimra, she's the same age as Lova. You married young abroad?"

Despite not seeing the mimic of Raefal's face, a few seconds of silence was enough to make me feel guilty.

"Sorry, you don't need to be answered if you mind," I glanced.

Smiles are just there. "Cook. I'll answer you as best and honestly."

Nodding, forcing my feelings not to act because I was determined to make peace.

"Actually Zimra is not my real son."

Surprised I couldn't cover it, I stare at him as if demanding an answer.

"At that time Balqis was critical, I was in a fog, driving from campus to a hospital that was a good distance. Because of panic I hit the red light until finally hit the car driven by Zimra's parents."

"They died at the scene. Then, because of parental power, I'm free."

"Ayah Zimra is a native there while her mother is Indonesian. Because I'm guilty of asking for Zimra's adoption but on condition that I marry Glenda, Zimra's mother's sister."

My shoulders sagged, not knowing I had to reply to that statement. The brain is at a loss for words.

"Balqis, what's up now?" I finally got a lot after a long time.

"He died about seven months ago, so I went back to Indonesia."

Surprise could not be covered, I stared at Brother Raefal. "Are you serious?"

Raefal smiled. "Yes, go to the tomb?"

"You just write the address, I can go there myself."

Smoothly, the man made my wish come true.

"Thank you" I said.

"Together Flo."

A little surprised because, the man called me by a new name as well as being a big question in the head.

Raefal smiled. "I thought all night, thinking of what you said that was true."

His gaze fell on his foster child who was running around with Lova.

"Especially now there's Zimra, I can't be selfish."

Still tears can't I can't stand, with my head bowed hoping the ex doesn't see.

"Perhaps, before I met Zimra I was still sure I could go back the same lo however. Being at this point, it dawned on me that love wasn't everything."

"While I admit, every time I see you. The sense of belonging is present but now I will not let it again. Because life is not just about love."

"Now don't feel burdened anymore because our story isn't finished yet?"

Take plenty of air supply before retaliating.

"Our story is long over."

"Right, we're just stuck in the shadows of the past."

Wiping away the tear point I did before standing up staring at Raefal Sister with a smile.

"I'm first Brother."

"Lov, we're going home, right? Brother is tired," I asked who managed to stop the steps of the two little girls.

The pair of friends came to me with panicked faces.

"Sister Flo is sick?" asked Zimra who made me anxious because of the twinkle of the eyes that were being exchanged.

"Lumayan, let's go home to Zimra. I can play again tomorrow."

"okay! Take care Brother Flo!" abugn.

"Thank's."

Holding Lova's tiny hands towards the parking lot, as it passed through Kak Raefal's body as hard as I could, I asked her eyes not to turn.

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          The sound of the door opening and coming back closed drew a few seconds of my attention. Then, back to the activity of polishing the face.

"Lo's crazy!" hardik the mother of one child while walking towards me.

"This is what Lin should have happened."

Orlin looked at me with disappointment. "But there is still Brother Raefal, your story is not completely finished."

Being calm in all situations I always experience, like this time. I lightly rubbed my cheeks using dye.

"You're just a spectator, not an actor who knows everything."

"Even if you know everything why you have to make that decision Sha!" snarl. "Byhati lo there is only the name of Raefal, from the past until now. It's real but it's always a shady."

"Call me Flo," pressed me in a dislike tone. "It's my life, you don't need to interfere."

"Gue wouldn't interfere if it was true."

"Sometimes what you think is good is not necessarily judged the same by others."

"That happens to you too. You think the decision to make a quick marriage is the same Arik really?"

I stared at Orlin through the mirror reflection. "Who said I never said the decision was right."

Orlin widened his eyes. "Why did you decide to get married next month! You realize it's not a good thing but you still do it. Where's your brain?!"

"It's not the best, but at least there's hope. "

The beautiful woman fell silent which I used to turn my body to see her in person.

"Raefal and I are just a piece of an old story, our relationship is pseudo and, hope is like an eternal rainbow."

"So I asked, stop trying to get us back. Because it's free."

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July 11, 2021.

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