Calm Down's! Mr. Psychos!
My Estelle

Hospital

The man went to the doctor who performed the surgery on the girl who had just lost one eye.

"Like him he will experience permanent blindness, because the sharp object that goes to damage some nerves and fortunately it still has not reached the brain." said the doctor who showed pictures taken from his scan photos.

The man only sighed softly as he looked at all the captions that were in front of his eyes.

Now without her cousin it asks her not to give the donor an eye any girl who lost her one eye it would no longer be able to see with her two eyes normally.

"When will he realize? It's been two days" Diego asked the doctor.

"She should have been conscious since yesterday, but maybe because of the trauma that made her unconscious until now. But we'll try to wake him up tonight" the doctor explained.

Diego patted, he came out of the doctor's room and opened his cell phone to check.

"I must be her secretary again." murmured that although she was still so angry but she also needed that position to see all the movements of her cousins.

Even if he became his secretary, sometimes it is difficult to know the movement of his cousin what else if he does not work with him?

He has someone he still hides.

......................

One Week later

Hiddensee

Anna looked towards the tiny baby who was already showing her fussiness. Maybe because he is still a baby so all his way of communicating is crying.

"You why the hell? Crying continues? Do you drink milk too? What do you want anyway?" anna asked frustratedly at her baby whom she had not given the name.

She can't sleep one day and she still doesn't understand why her baby is crying.

"you guys? Try to come here?" said Anna who called the waiter who came to her house to clean.

"Yes? Miss?" answer the waiter and get closer.

"Why is she crying? I've given her breast milk." said Anna, who also needs to sleep after returning from the hospital.

The tiny baby seemed to continue crying and writhing like it was uncomfortable, his whining sound with tears that were not there continued to sound until he wanted to make the girl's ears deaf.

"Maybe he's not comfortable with his position, try on a sling like this and wipe his back," said the waiter and then took the little baby of his master and put it in Anna's sling by leaning her head against his shoulder.

According to Anna, he rubbed the tiny back that looked like it could crumble so easily.

Her baby cry slowly subsided, the frustrated face returned a thin smile.

Anna moved, she walked while continuing to rub her baby and hold her.

"Cherry Mama's a good boy, what do you want Mama to name?" ask the baby who has not been able to answer her.

He still didn't think anything about his baby name.

Anna chose to sit on the second floor balcony while looking towards the front yard of her house.

"Grooof!"

The cry of the little baby broke again as soon as the mother sat down. Anna woke up and carried and rubbed the tiny back.

"Don't cry, Mama's going to rest!" lamented Anna who indeed he also wanted to sleep but his baby at night easily woke up and cried.

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Two Weeks later

Therapeutic places.

Comfortable room, soft sofa and neat layout and make the eyes become more relaxation.

"If you still can't help me, I'm really going to cut your neck" Lucas told his current therapist.

dr. Dave nodded, trying to calm down, even though he was very scared.

"You still having nightmares?" ask her who tried to re-treat her counseling.

"Yes" Lucas answered briefly.

"What do you experience in your dreams?" ask dr. Dave at the man while staring to notice an expression that very rarely came out.

"Nothing, I'm just alone" Lucas replied soberly.

"on your own? You think of it as a nightmare?" ask dr. Dave again.

"Yes" a short answer with no expression.

But the man wearing the glasses, looked frowning. Although not a single expression was released but his eyes were a little shaky when speaking.

"So you haven't said anything? Try to say what you see in your dreams" he said again, which requires the honesty of his patients.

"I'm not alone, I'm with him." replied Lucas, who chose to say it this time because the doctor had seen a bit of his lie.

"That girl? You're with that girl? Then why is it a nightmare?" ask dr. Dave on that guy who looks so cold.

"I killed him over and over again by asking him if he loved me and why did he leave me? I asked her such a thing while stabbing her in the stomach with a knife and strangling her." Lucas this time answered her without a lie.

"after that? What do you see?" ask dr. Dave is again.

"His blood is in my hands, I'm occupying that puddle. He was crying and smiling at me. His eyes look clear but he still does not answer anything." replied Lucas who said about the dream that now always comes on his every time he closes his eyes.

"You feel good for killing her? Or did he die at your hands?" ask dr. Dave looked at the man.

Lucas was silent for a moment, this time the question was a little difficult to answer.

"I don't know, after he saw his death my feelings got worse and I was happy at the same time" replied the ambiguous one.

"Are you laughing?" ask dr. Dave looked at the man who seemed to be starting to have difficulty answering because it involved feeling what was being felt.

Lucas shook his head to hear her, in his dream he did feel a feeling of satisfaction and a little pleasure but he did not laugh there.

"Then? What do you see and feel in that dream?" ask dr. Dave is again.

"My hands are shaking and I'm..."

"I cried," answered her softly who always remembered the end of everything she did in her dreams.

dr. Dave was silent for a moment, he saw a face that also looked surprised and astonished by the answer he gave.

"Then what kind of fun do you get?" her question was because before her Lucas replied if he felt happy and his feelings were deteriorating at the same time.

"I'm glad he won't be able to run away from me again," his answer is also remembered with satisfaction from the taste he got when he knew if his girl would not be able to leave again.

dr. Dave was silent for a moment, "Then I'll ask you one more time. You really love that girl?" her question was this time staring at the man.

"Isn't that a silly question?" asked Lucas who did not seem to like the question he heard.

"It's only natural that if you want to be with the person you love, and even to resist the desire to always be close, it will also be difficult to lose."

"But in relationships and in love there is also his name of affection and pity for the couple, it's like you won't be able to see his death in front of your own."

"But there are some cases that make you may be able to hurt her because of a personality disorder that is difficult to withstand angry outbursts and perform impulsive actions but usually after that you will feel sorry for hurting someone who you love." said dr. Dave said it.

"So you mean I'm just being obsessive?" asked Lucas who was staring with a disapproving look.

"What do you think love means?" her question was staring at the man in front of her.

"Have his life and make him mine" Lucas answered quickly because he meant love in such a way.

dr. Dave paused, "Obsesive love disorder, maybe you're experiencing it for your love right now, and your attitude is also supported with a threshold personality." he looked at the man.

NB Ket : Personality Threshold or Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD) has a different way of thinking, perspective, and feeling compared to people in general.

"You love her, but want her life. You might forget something."

Lucas frowned at his hearing, what he was missing.

"If the girl also has feelings and desires, in the relationship not only you need to be respected. But respecting your partner is also a thing to do because then he will feel if you also appreciate him as your partner" said dr. Dave looked at the man.

Lucas said nothing, to himself, too many diagnoses because he is indeed someone who may only exist a fraction of a percent of humans on the face of the earth.

"If I'm really what you said then why can't I feel anything?" she asked who was looking at the man.

"Maybe you feel something sometimes but you are not aware of it, like you are crying and trembling in your dreams. Maybe you are feeling scared and sad at the same time? You feel lonely and lost."

"But you can't identify the emotion itself. Like a great desire and desire to have, maybe you are obsessed or like something but you are also confused to vent" said dr. Dave gave an explanation.

NB Ket: Alexithymia is a mental condition associated with difficulty experiencing, identifying, and expressing emotions. Alexithymia also makes it harder for people to identify and respond to other people's emotions. 

"If he'd say I'm a psychopath, I'd always hear him mumble," said Lucas lirih who had felt sorry for his girl's behavior even though the word was never blatantly thrown for him.

"In medical science it's almost nonexistent but it's close to or similar to antisocial personality disorder, and you do have a hard time understanding emotions" says Dr. Dave did not say if the structure of the man's brain was different.

"I will give you another prescription medication, please take it regularly" said dr. Dave's on the guy.

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Hiddensee

"sick! You don't know sick?!"

The girl began to scold her tiny baby who continued to cry and fuss, she gave breast milk but it turned out that the suction from the small tongue could make her feel sick and sore at the same time.

Oek!

Oeeek!

The crying of the baby filled his entire room, the feeling of uneasiness and worry he felt during the bear now came back.

Anna covered her ears with her two little hands not wanting to hear the cry of the little boy.

"Why are you?! You don't want me to be your mom? So you cry on?! Then you're making me sick?!" her angry tanya was mixed with crying.

Oek!

The newborn's cry still sounded so loud, "Diem! You can't be diem!"

"So, that's a drink! Why are you crying!" her words were scolding her son in the middle of the night.

The girl unconsciously and without any encouragement, she closed the small open mouth.

"Diem! Can you get diem? Why are you the same as him! You want to torture me too?!" ask her who started crying.

The tiny baby was certainly squirming as his hands covered the little mouth.

The deg!

"Geez!"

Anna flinched, her baby voice subsiding as she smothered the little mouth.

"Darling? Cherry Mama's? Sorry..."

"You ain't nothing? Sorry..."

His words were softened which then came to his senses and saw the tiny baby who was almost choking and might be able to die without him accidentally.

Plaque!

Plaque!

The punch that sounded loud enough was floated on her cheek, to resuscitate her and prevent her from hurting her son.

Whatever it is, he has promised not to be the same person as his mother or like his son's father who wants the death of a child who does not know anything.

She held her little baby and brought her out of her balcony room.

"Sorry..."

"You're wrong, you're the only one living Mamah..."

His angry and then regretful speech, his eyes filled with watery linang.

Looking up at the sky this time brightly filled with stars.

A thin smile is seen on the beautiful face that looks tangled because of fatigue due to not being able to sleep.

"Star..."

"You are the star of Mama." said her softly who smiled but cried at the same time.

He felt scared, agitated, regretful and so anxious at the same time.

"My Estelle.." murmured her softly which this time had found a name for her baby.

It is common for Estelle to be used for baby girls but stars do not need gender for something.

A star is an existence for anyone.

...****************...

Hayy

Well here the author wants a little more info about psychopaths. As a matter of fact for a correct medical diagnosis" psychopaths are no yes but are closer to anti-social personalities.

Well, psychopaths themselves are not synonymous with cruelty and brutality but because they do not have emotions, sympathy, empathy, guilt, pity they so commonly associated with acts of cruelty like that.

Because normal people feel sorry, right? wkwk

And again the sufferer 'psychopath' itself already has a neurobiological disorder in his brain, well so tuh indeed the brain of psychopath is different from other normal people.

There are many different parts that create emotional deficits and make their behavior so. So his synonymous with psychopath is difficult to accompany the emotions of others as well so he will not understand if the opponent is afraid, happy or angry.

And because here the othor is looking to build a real psychopathic character so maybe the character of this Lucas will be a little different from the psychopath created by the first othor wkwk (Si Hazel) if the ever read the first novel.

Because Hazel is more of a deeply traumatic form that makes her describe her emotions as a form of self-defense but before she goes through the trauma herself she is normal. (If you read until last remember that he was a teenager when he was still a good boy before becoming a bastard boy wkwk)

If Lucas from childhood is indeed a different brain structure in addition to the same traumatic events that encourage cruelty and brutal acts.

Because the beginning if without a traumatic event he will become a psychopath who in the sense of anti-social but also not visible and deficient emotions, in another sense try to blend with memorizing facial gestures such as anger, anger, scared, anxious and happy.

Because he won't be able to read it all.

Because in the past the othor did find out but find out it is still not as much as it is now, well then this time othor want to make the real of someone who is emotionally deficient but he has the same interest someone in the sense (Love)

The food depiction of the Lucas othor makes manipulative and actually feel superior to be able to be as usual because it is someone who is included in the category 'Psycho' it itself has above average intelligence and a high ego.

And again usually they always build profits for themselves.

So the essence of the author's additional explanation is that Lucas is pure psycho because his brain neurobiology is not normal so to expect him to be normal is also so difficult.

And if you want to find further info challenge mental disorders that are only one percent of this case you can find further additional info because where know othor is still lacking in delivery.

Happy reading💕💕