D. Deirsh & Depression
The Part 19

..."Because the universe knows, I'm not okay."...

       On a roof of a building so tall, there was someone standing with a feeling of being so crushed. Although it looks so many city lights but his view is so empty when staring ahead.

       Sometimes he stared at the night sky so innocent without a single star, that he tried to close his eyes, set a breath that was very inconsistent, so that he could close his eyes, until he really felt calmer.

       "Losing that life can make my life calmer... Then I've done it a long time ago" he murmured softly.

       "But I realize, if I do... Still nothing I can hope for."

       That slow sentence came to a halt as the lips chose to be silent for a moment, even the gust of night wind was able to disguise such a fragile sound.

       The cold wind made his legs feel so limp, he chose to sit on the floor without any reason. His eyes were fixed on the sky that night with a feeling of being so tired.

       "But sometimes I feel tired. Think, what is my reason for surviving again? If I wish, disappear together." Mumbled back.

...~~~...

       Literary writing carried into the series of stories can bewitch some people who like to read it. Even some of his words are able to captivate the heart and mind in one reading. Now a woman closes back a book that she read for a moment, feeling interested she also chose the book for her to borrow.

       After putting down some books of his choice, he now walked to the place of loan, passing high shelves filled with books that were so neatly lined up, he said, I never thought I would be interested in a book. When he tried it there was a comfortable feeling when he managed to get into the beautiful sentences that he rarely heard.

       "Sister! I want to borrow this book" he said after arriving.

       "Oh yes, wait my brother noted first!" said the library officer.

       "What's my name, brother?"

       "Deirshs... Deirsh Anash."

       After giving his name, Dei waited for the officer to note something before he borrowed the book. While looking at some people who pretty much chose to read the book in the library directly.

       "This is his sister, here we give him three weeks at most one month, brother," explained the officer.

       Dei nodded listening to the explanation while accepting the book he had borrowed. "Thank you, brother."

       He has now left the library building. Being at that place was originally a recommendation from Salwa, a few days ago because he was bored and there was no work Dei tried to be patient with Salwa.

       As usual, even though only by phone, Salwa will tell a long story about the story he read in a novel, because he always heard the story of his friend, Dei felt interested in trying to read as well. Until Salwa recommended a fairly large library with so many books.

       At first Dei hesitated to go to the library, because the distance was quite far and he never went alone with a long distance.

       Not far from the library building, there is a railway not far from the place. Seeing a stall on the side of the tracks, Dei chose to wait at that place until the vehicle he ordered arrived.

       Never felt that way, Dei was quite comfortable. The feeling of fear that always disturbed his mind has now gone somewhere, seeing the atmosphere of the city makes there a sense of interest in him. From a magnificent library building, neatly lined shops, to a rail until he saw the train passing by.

       Until a car stops right where it's waiting for now. Make Dei stand up and make sure the car is his order.

       "On behalf of Deirsh Anasyah?" Ask the driver of the car.

       Dei nodded his head and rushed into the car. Until the car was running, he was still looking at the outside atmosphere until he really moved away from the place.

       During the trip, Dei was silent staring out the window while listening to music on his phone. Until the car stopped right in front of his alley.

       "I've already paid for the app, sir!" Dei said to the driver of the car who immediately nodded.

       Dei put his cell phone in a bag, before entering the alley of his house. But just a few steps away, a motorcycle stopped right near him, making Dei even feel shocked.

       He just fell silent while looking at the motorbike driver who was trying to remove his helmet. After the man had removed his helmet, Dei felt like he had met that person.

       "Lo the girl who worked at Regan's apartment, right?" asked the man Suddenly making Dei slightly aware.

       "I-iya," Dei replied as she nodded her head.

       "Lo have a look at Regan?" ask the man again.

       "I-i... Since I didn't work at her apartment, I've never seen Regan again."

       Hearing Dei's reply, made Egi The man rubbed his face annoyed. Looking at the expression of the man who was feeling uneasy made Dei feel so curious what was going on.

       "Sorry! If you can know what's going on?" asked Dei to vent.

        Egi looked at him a little. "Have two days Regan did not know where, his phone could not be contacted after he left when finished fighting."

       "Biantem!" said Dei parroted.

       "Two days ago there was one gang looking for trouble with our gang. But somehow Regan beat his enemy so brutally that even his enemy was unconscious." Clearly Egi.

       "Son Regan is like that!" That sentence immediately crossed his mind.

       Now the two of them were silent in the situation. Egi who was feeling uneasy and Dei who was still so curious.

       "Other than the park, this is the most comfortable place for me." Instantly Dei recalled a sentence that the man had once spoken.

       "It looks like Dei knows where Regan's brother is, "Dei said Suddenly.

       "Where?" ask Egi.

"If you don't come with me to a place you know." Pinta Egi while thrusting a helmet.

       Dei did not immediately take the helmet, he looked towards the alley of his house and saw the dark sky. Surely his mother had been waiting for him to come home, but there was also a sudden worry in the man.

       "Come on the hunt." Said Egi Again resuscitated himself.

       Until the two of them arrived at a building that Dei had not come to that place for a long time.

       "Apartment! He's not inside, I've been here" explained Egi who had come first to Regan's apartment.

       "No, but above." Dei stared at the roof of the apartment building so high.

       Without waiting for long Egi ran into the apartment, as well as Dei who followed Egi from behind to where he pointed.

       Darkened. There were no lights on top of the apartment at night, they immediately blamed the lights from their mobile phones. Looking around the place but there was not the slightest sign that someone was there.

       "Lo's sure Regan's here a lot?" egi's question made Dei instantly nod her head.

       "KIM!!!" Shouted Egi trying to call his friend.

       Dei also looked to the other side. Several times he also stumbled because of the lighting in that place, until Dei saw something right where he was illuminated by his cellphone lamp.

       "Sister!" Call Dei make Egi directly approach him and glance at the place that Dei described.

       "Smoking!" muttered Egi while taking some leftover cigarettes scattered on the floor.

       "Right, it's like a new Regan from this place. Cigarettes have him."

       "But where is he going now!" obviously Egi.

       Now they were just silent, as well as Dei who already knew nothing. Because they are in a high enough place and also at night, make the night wind feel so cold than the nights before it. Because there was no hope in that place, they chose to leave.

Drtts... Drtts... Drtts....

       The sound of the phone ringing makes Egi step pause to lift the call. So also with Dei who came to stop and shut up while looking at the man.

       "Hello," reply Egi.

       "He's serious lo! Okay I'm going there now." That call is dead too.

       "We're going to Regan's house now" Egi told Dei, who was still confused.

       "He's now at his house" he continued.

       "Home!"

...~~~...

Flashbacks

       That night Regan was really tired, lying under the empty night sky with her mind also coming up empty. Almost a pack of cigarettes he had spent, without thinking about anything. His eyes slowly opened and rightly stared at the darkness above him.

       With his mind as it is now Regan has been on the road with a motorbike that is not focused. Even some vehicles had reprimanded him but were ignored by Regan.

       The motor stopped at a house. Regan immediately went down by throwing his helmet into the careless place where even he opened the door of the house so rudely made the person inside shocked.

       "Den Regan! What's up?" said a middle-aged woman so worried.

       Regardless of Sayu's words, Regan continued to step towards her room with a trembling body.

Bi Sayu who was very worried immediately followed Regan because she was afraid that something would happen to her employer.

       "Den... Den Regan why? Try the same bi-" story"

BRUK!!!

       Not finished bi Sayu finished her sentence, Regan immediately closed the door of the room so powerful. Seeing that bi Sayu could not hold back her tears to not drip, it was long enough that she did not see the boy back as fragile as now.

Prangs... Prangs... And prang!!!

       Now some goods have been scattered everywhere, even some broken glass has hurt the legs of the owner of the room even though he did not mind.

       Walk slowly to a table with a body that is so trembling. Now he could clearly see a small frame located on the table, seen a picture of a boy with a smile that was so cheerful.

       The hand that was covered in blood tried to reach the frame with a vibration that he could not stand. Seeing a picture of a smiling boy made the man smile, not a happy smile but a painful smile.

       "Gue hates that smile." Regan murmured by slamming the photo so hard.

       His eyes now turned to the window of his room which he had never opened from himself as a child. Regan used to be very afraid if anyone knew of her life even with the universe.

       But now he slowly opened the window, even the window was hard enough to open for him who began to feel weak. He was forced to open the window for the first time.

       The wind gusts again greeted his body, even making some of the wounds on him feel so painful. Without Aba-aba Regan dropping herself under the window, her tears had already flowed so hard. Now he really felt so fragile with such a painful feeling.

      "There are no more secrets. Because the universe knows, I'm not okay."

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