Dear Me Jesselyn Anastasia
Being a Good and Deserving Man

...I waited for a long time, though,...

...It now feels the deepest of hearts,...

...When love comes,...

...When love is felt,...

...Why the mistake I made?...

...Why when love is present the heart becomes erratic,...

...This feeling makes me feel unworthy of it....

...~ Leon ~...

...My heart finds the light of your heart. Sometimes you really give hope but you can also give a lot of doubt....

...~ Jesselyn ~...

Early in the morning a pair of young people cut through the cold streets of the capital. The cold morning air adds to the freezing between the two who are busy with their respective minds.

An hour ago still in a state of slumber the girl was awakened by a breath so warm and tickling in her ear. He blinked, gathering his consciousness, piecing together the debris of events he vaguely remembered.

Only after he returned to his consciousness did his reflexes lift his body but the weight he felt. His whole body was locked tightly.

"Are you awake?" a voice so familiar to him again leads him to the scariest events after the departure of his father a dozen years ago.

Jesselyn tried to wake up from her sleep but the hand that last night so easily stripped her clothes held her back.

In a hug that still gave her the fear of Jesselyn biting her thumb nails.

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"Come, I'll take you home."

Leon took off his embrace and got off the bed. He washed his face in the bathroom. One by one they picked up clothes that were scattered on the floor. Wearing what belongs to him.

Leon approached the bed and gave the girl her clothes. The girl was still curled up in her blanket.

Doubtful Jesselyn grabbed the shirt that last night so easily Leon put it off.

"Wear"

As quickly as lightning Jesselyn ran into the bathroom to justify her clothes and face as tangled as the blanket on her body. Jesselyn came out, walking so carefully, her hands tightly holding the buttons of her shirt.

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Jesselyn stepped back as Leon walked towards her. His bead catches the young man's fingers again opening one by one the buttons of his shirt, again many events last night haunt his mind.

"Take off your clothes" asked Leon gently.

"No-no!" the girl answered without thinking.

As much as Leon's energy took the girl's hand off her shirt. Leon took off the top clothes and threw them in a garbage can.

"Wear mine alone, yours can't be buttoned anymore."

Like a child, Leon helped Jesselyn put her shirt on the girl who was so tense.

The girl continued to stare, frozen in silence, so unwilling to respond to all questions for her. Leon flicked his messy hair and tidied it up until his gibberish reflex closed his eyes.

Troubled Leon took the key he threw down under the bed. It was unexpected that his actions made him so overwhelmed that he was forced to shift the position of the bed that was quite large and certainly so heavy.

"Come on" Leon grabs Jesselyn's hand and takes her out of the hotel room. The room bears silent witness to Leon's madness and Jesselyn's helplessness.

****

It's been two weeks since the hotel room. There is nothing different except minimal communication between the two, although every day they meet more and more.

Every morning Leon would bring breakfast and eat it with the girl, take her to campus, with patience he would wait for Jesselyn to finish work at Rainbow Cafe and take her home to the rented.

Lena was unable to restrain and forbid Jesselyn from working after she was informed by Jesselyn. Lena only advised that the work done was not to disturb her lecture.

On the weekend after work Leon will bring back Jesselyn to her parents' house which is also one of the conditions for her to remain able to work.

Two weeks went by so quickly for Jesselyn that it took so long for someone to miss the girl she met every day.

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Tonight Leon goes with his bike to pick up his busy girl at Rainbow Cafe. Leon glanced at his watch, it was still seven in the night that the sign of his girl's working time was still around three hours away.

Like a guest who came to Leon directly order food and drinks listed in the menu list. Waiting for his message came his two eyeballs sweeping through the room that looked so crowded, looking for the girl who was the reason for coming to the cafe.

There, on one of the tables the girl was writing an order that looked like a husband and wife by commenting on the friendly smile on her face. Leon's view cannot be separated from everything the girl did.

"Lo look at the guy sitting on the corner table there, really handsome I want to wrap it to take home," said Lilis who is also one of the waiters at Rainbow Cafe.

Sinta searches for the whereabouts of the person in question and discovers his whereabouts. A moment later he looked for the whereabouts of Jesselyn and it turned out that the girl was standing not far from him waiting for a guest order that he would deliver.

"There is already someone who has Lis," said Sinta while confirming her hair ties.

"Know where? Do you know him?"

"Know. That's what it's got," he pointed it at Jesselyn.

Lilis seemed to not believe what Sinta said and continued her work.

Ten o'clock at night Jesselyn finally finished work. When he came out of the cafe he found Leon was waiting for him. Although for two weeks Jesselyn did not talk much, Leon still waited for her to finish work.

"You're done?" leon asked as the girl approached him. Jesselyn nodded her head and let Leon put a helmet on her head. Before propelling his bike Leon grabbed Jesselyn's hands, wrapped them around her waist.

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Whether out of his own desire or without realizing it, Leon was so happy when the girl in his arms increasingly tightened the circle of his hands. Dropped his head on Leon's shoulder.

While shedding tears Leon cupped the girl's tiny hand with one of his. Leon deliberately slowed down the speed of his motorbike so that their togetherness tonight was even longer. Unbeknownst to him, the girl behind him also dropped the clear details.

Arriving in front of the contract Jesselyn immediately entered after removing her helmet without saying anything to Leon, just as she did for two weeks.

There is a lot that Leon wants to say but he tries not to be selfish which will make the girl more away from him. He decided to wait for the girl's heart to come to him by itself not because it was forced. And as long as he waits for the girl's heart he will continue to learn to be a good and decent man for the girl who owns his heart.

"Good night and good dreams."

Leon turned his bike back home but this time there was a little relief and a glimmer of hope in his heart when he remembered what Jesselyn did when she was rocked earlier.

"Be careful, brother," said Jesselyn when she heard the sound of Leon's motorbike passing leaving her contract.