Ex Bastard's
Still a dilemma

"Have you really forgotten about me, Naya..? I'm Bagas" Bagas said sadly, since he tried to contact Kanaya but was not picked up, then tried again to arrive the phone was busy, now he understood why, why, because Kanaya was talking to Bima earlier.

"What's wrong?" Kanaya tried to raise her voice.

"Nothing, just making sure you're okay, but it looks like you're okay"

silence no voice, cell phone still in the ear but no word said.

"If there's nothing you want to talk about, I hang up" but Bagas is still silent, "All right I close" Kanaya turns off her phone and holds it and puts it on her chest, even Bagas only talked for a while and ended up in silence but why he was nervous.

A message appeared shortly

'Take care of your health Naya'

It was a message from Bagas, Kanaya knew only Bagas called her Naya, and it was always a call that she liked.when Kanaya asked why calling Naya Bagas answer made her blush and remember it until now.

"Why call Naya? people used to call me Aya"

"That color will always be special when I say it, and Naya is only mine, so only I can say it.... My naya"

"Oh. That's so sweet.."Kanaya cupped her own cheeks because of the blushing.

Kanaya awakens from her daydream when her mommy Alyla knocks on the door "Honey are you better?" Alyla came in and felt Kanaya's forehead "Thank God it's gone, you're making mom worry"

"Sorry mom.."

"No pa-pa, the important thing is not to ignore your health anymore dear" Kanaya nodded, then lay her head on Alyla's thigh "You can talk to mommy if there is a problem, don't be harbored son, then lay her head on Alyla's thigh "You can talk to mommy if there is a problem, that's not good" Kanaya used to be silent when she was hurt by Bagas and Anina, her best friend, and Alyla only knew from Adam who always watched over Kanaya, until Kanaya decided to go to treat her heart "Mommy doesn't want you to go far away from mom"

Kanaya shook her head "No mom, I won't go anymore, in fact avoiding doesn't make everything good" Alyla nodded, her hands still rubbing Kanaya's long hair.

"So why exactly, do doctors say you're exhausted and stressed?"

"Which friends and love to choose?" Alyla frowned

"What do I do, Mom? Anina had been clear about the reason they were married, and it was not Bagas' son.." And the story of Anina and Bagas flowed.

Alyla did not stop rubbing Kanaya's hair while hearing Kanaya's story occasionally frowning, Alyla did not interrupt and let Kanaya tell her story until it was over.

"Ish.. mom I asked for this advice.." Kanaya blushes, blames the question, and now she's stuck.

"You still love Bagas?" Kanaya. "OK don't need to answer mommy just now you've talked"

"Mom can't say what Bagas did was wrong, because in fact, what Anina needed was status for her child, Mommy understood Anina's feelings because mom experienced it, raising your brother alone"Alyla knows because Alyla experienced raising a child without a husband where scorn and humiliation against her son who is called an illegitimate child, even though she had confessed and lied that she was a widow, he said, there were still a handful of unbelievers, and how painful it was when Azka's peers ridiculed him, let alone seeing his son expecting a father figure.

Kanaya knows all her mommy stories, how Adam the daddy hurt her, and their struggle to be together.

"But, that can not be called right, because Anina who was selfish and blamed Bagas, forget about it because it was finished, and it has happened, and it has happened,but mom salute the Bagas she was willing to sacrifice for the honor of Anina, even though this mommy's son had to be hurt"

"They should have told me honestly, Mom, I'm not gonna get this sick"

"Yes, they should be honest, but if they tell the truth you're sure you won't hurt?, it's still painful to see our loved ones with our best friend"

"At least I can be sincere, without harboring hatred"

"Son mom, it's really mature turns out, you're right, but it should also, even though as hateful and as sick as it is we should be able to forgive is not good to keep the hate dear"

"I want to forgive, but not to go back somehow I feel a little hesitant, let alone the situation feels different now and also.. Brother Bima. I feel guilty.

"If you want to open your heart, please do everything before starting whether it is Bagas or Bima you must decide with a clean heart, but if your heart is still adrift in the past you should not give Bima more hope, you will hurt her dear"

"Peace with your past, just decide to start everything from scratch."

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