Falling in Love Again
Flashback 5 Years Ago (Lost Past with Papa)

Aggita had just looked at Fatur's face and found his eyes moist like a new cry, his smile was not as bright as it was this morning. What was going on to him, why did Fatur's mood change drastically at this moment. Since then Fatur looks not so focused when listening to Anggita talk, often he daydreamed as if thinking of something that became a burden on his mind.

Honestly seeing the state of Fatur makes Anggita very confused what to talk about, since Fatur was busy himself daydreaming looking in one direction only. The ordered coffee was left cold without touch Fatur, and Anggita had been ignored by him.

"Are you okay?" asked Angita who was curious and confused because he had been silent without any conversation between the two of them.

Sontak Fatur turned his head when he heard Anggita talking to him, lying if Fatur said he was okay. If only Fatur could tell everything to Anggita, but somehow his mouth is always locked if it talks about his papa.

"Yes," she replied in a slightly raucous voice looking at Anggita while smiling sweetly covering her sadness and reassuring her lover if she was okay.

Aggita know the meaning of the smile that is painted on the lips Fatur, must have happened something to him at this time so he was late to meet Anggita. Should Anggita ask Fatur again, or let Fatur bear alone the burden on his mind.

"Erik said you wanted to go to Japan. Is that true?" Anggita is looking for another discussion that he really wants to discuss and ask him.

Deg, Fatur looked at Anggita with clinging and a bit of shock. Erik must have told Anggita about the plan. His old plan that Fatur dreamed of long ago. Maybe it's time Fatur discussed the issue of scholarship selection to Anggita, so that later if he managed to get a scholarship no longer need to explain to his lover.

"Yes," Fatur replied briefly.

There was a slight sense of disappointment captured from Anggita's facial expression when Fatur answered him. Fatur understood it must be a little heavy for Anggita to undergo a long-distance relationship or LDR.

"Do you mind if I get a scholarship and go to Japan?" ask Fatur trying to make sure.

Anggita was silent for a moment did not answer Fatur's question, his mind continued to drift imagining how the relationship would be between Jakarta-Japan. Not a short distance like Jakarta-Bogor that can only be reached in 1 or 2 hours. But they'd be miles apart different countries.

Without Anggita answering the question that Fatur gave, from there also Fatur can guess if Anggita like objecting to undergo a long distance relationship or LDR. But how also Fatur must be able to convince Anggita.

"Why didn't you tell me about this? Why should I know from Erik?" Angita sounded a little disappointed knowing about this from Erik instead of from his own lover.

"I'm sorry, Git. I haven't had time to tell you about this, and I just want to tell you that later I have got it," explained Fatur staring fixedly at Anggita who still looks disappointed by it.

"I hope you can wait for me after I graduate from college later," Pinta Fatur again held Anggita's hand close to his.

Actually Anggita is very doubtful about this relationship, he can not live a long distance relationship as desired by Fatur. The beautiful girl was still silent as to what she would say again, Anggita could not promise fully to Fatur's question.

After a debate between Fatur and Rudi, Tias Ayu finally ventured to talk to her ex-husband. Tias Ayu was no longer able to see Rudi so casually to his youngest son. Indeed Rudi is the father of Fatur but all this time Fatur has lost his papa figure to him.

"I hope you never force her choice, she is an adult and has the right to choose her life" Tias Ayu said as she spoke to Rudi in the living room.

Tias Ayu's face still looked sad at the scene he had just seen, Fatur's emotional outburst made Tias Ayu hurt. How not just did Tias Ayu see her son so very happy to find his long-lost happiness, now Rudi is trying to prevent him from returning.

"I just saw a smile and laughter that was so strong on the lips of Fatur, a smile that was hindered by the duka because of your departure. Some years I've always seen him moody, his life so very quiet. No future and dreams were seen in his eyes, but after meeting Anggita all changed." Tias Ayu tells the story of his son's change when he meets Anggita.

Tias Ayu's eyes re-glazed after crying earlier, if Tias Ayu remembers the times that made her sad and cry. Almost every day Tias Ayu is always sad to see the attitude of Fatur who turned quiet and introverted.

Tias Ayu is also concerned that her son is traumatized by a relationship, and is also reluctant to start a relationship with a woman. Likewise for Mili who is increasingly becoming a quiet woman does not talk much.

But after the presence of Anggita all changed, Fatur's attitude was a little cheerful and open. Almost every day his face looks radiant, laughter painted on the lips Fatur and make all the worry Tias Ayu disappeared. For Fatur the woman is the light of her life now, the source of her happiness. Somehow Fatur lives without him which surely Tias Ayu hopes if Anggita will forever be with his son.

Hearing the story of his ex-wife makes Rudi feel guilty, it turns out that all this time he really can not understand his baby. What he does now is merely taking attention but not thinking about how his two children feel.

Rudi's eyes began to glaze over to hear him, what is this punishment for him for having left both of his children. How painful Rudi heard the words of Tias Ayu who deeply scratched his heart, what was the sign of his presence was too late and indeed never expected by his two children.

On the other hand Mili was looking at a letter that had been sent for him for several weeks, whether the letter from whom certainly every time Mili came the letter was already on his bench. An anonymous letter that wrote about his feelings to Mili during this time. Who is that guy? Who often sends him letters?

Without Mili knowing his mother Tias Ayu came to Mili who was sitting pensively at his study table. It seemed that Mili did not know with the arrival of her mother because the door of her room was left open, so Tias Ayu could freely enter Mili's room.

"Mili." Tias Ayu's voice so softly greeted her dreamy daughter while holding a letter.

Tias Ayu's voice made Mili startled, quickly the straight long-haired woman slipped a letter into her textbook. When Mili turned his head already seen his mother standing not far from him.

"Mama." Mili's face looked a little nervous as she got her mother right behind her and walked up to her.

"What are you doing?" tias Ayu asked with her trademark smile approaching Mili.

"Learn," Mili replied briefly staring at her mother.

Tias Ayu's soft hands rubbed against Mili's back hair, a smile of knots painted on Tias Ayu's lips even though her heart was sad. As much as possible, Tias Ayu always smiled at her two children when she was sad because she did not want to see Fatur and Mili saddened by it.

"Have you come home, Ma?" mili asked to know the state of her papa.

"Already," replied Tias Ayu who was still gently rubbing Mili's hair.

Mili bowed for a moment as if he wanted to ask what his mother and father had talked about, but he knew that it was a conversation between his mother and his father who was very secret.

"What are you thinking?" tias Ayu asked as he saw Mili speechless.

"Will papa and Fatur make up again like before?" mili asked in a sad tone looking at her mother with eyes that began to glaze over.

Mili's gaze made Tias Ayu sad again but as much as possible Tias Ayu held back the tears from falling on her cheeks. Mili's question is very difficult to answer by Tias Ayu, she does not know whether Fatur and her ex-husband will make up as they used to.

"Mama doesn't know. It seems that it will be difficult for Fatur to forgive your father," replied Tias Ayu pessimistic about Fatur's attitude all along to his father.

Hearing his mother's answer made Mili sad, in fact he really wanted them to be like before again. Together live beautiful days full of stories, laughter and happiness. But it will never happen everything has been broken into pieces so that happiness there is nothing left.

There are only wounds and tears that are painted every day, although it is undeniable if in fact Fatur also misses the time with his father. All those desires were covered by the disappointment and hurt he still felt to this day.

Mili's tears suddenly fell to her cheeks as she longed for the past with her father. Mili's longing for her father can not be dammed anymore, he really misses the figure of his first love who has left him.

"I miss the times like before" Mili said with tears in her eyes.

Tias Ayu knew how Mili was feeling right now, it must have been very hard for his daughter to forget the events that should not have happened to him at such a young age. Losing his father figure as he grew up.

"I miss our togetherness, long ago," added Mili who was crying more and more sobbing.

What Mili needs right now is his mother's embrace that makes him calm, as much as possible Tias Ayu does not cry in front of Mili. So very tightly hugged Tias Ayu hugged the tiny body of Mili so that her daughter felt calm and comfortable venting sadness in her heart.