Family Burden
next 2's
I returned to work as usual because it was a daily activity like that, there were no other activities because there was no family here but actually there, my sister was also in this country, but how can it be possible to meet him even out of the house just a lot of health rules, and probably not allowed if it is not too important.
" Hello ma assalamualaikum, suddenly call me
" Waalaikumsalam son, why is it like being sad?" I asked because I saw my daughter's sad face in this video call
" I'm sorry ma, I didn't get through this second stage, I failed ma, replied a little crying
" Failing isn't wrong baby, it's natural, maybe your chance isn't now, we're trying next school year huh ? My answer is half encouraging so that Sinta does not feel sad
" Are you okay, aren't you angry?" Ask sinta, oh it turns out this makes him sad because I am afraid that I am disappointed or angry will mean about his failure in the second stage
" Mama was angry even did not change the situation dear, I answered trying to understand the state of love so as not to be depressed, I replied,
" That means I can't attend this school year?" Ask me a question
" But ma (hiks hyks), sorry sinta ya ma?" Sinta
Again, again, I want to talk while crying because of this failure, I keep trying to calm my heart and mind to stay excited, I really understand his feelings because from the beginning I was very excited to take this college test.
There is no more conversation between us because love is sad, I let it first to calm down, after that I will give advice to love.
After the failure of the test yesterday, I decided to return to work at work yesterday, because I had not applied to resign, but only permission to leave a few days to take the second stage test. I don't know what God has arranged for my daughter's destiny but I always say the best prayer for my son.
The longer the more saturated face of this work because no other activity is allowed, but how else is this test and fate almighty, all-powerful, we as human beings can only surrender and surrender to Him. Work routine is always done because this is my goal to go to work abroad, if not done yes, I have to remember what my purpose is to come to this country for. I always pray for children not to fall like we are both parents, hopefully they will become successful people.
But again I heard less bad news again from my family, because reportedly my daughter was urged to get married soon after a few months of her failure to get into college, sinta had denied and refused but the husband's family was too urgent, and they said even though they were married, they could still go to college. Oh Allah, let alone this test, even I have not been allowed to return home. Unstoppable saddened to hear this news, I just wasn't ready to accept this how about my daughter.
istighfar continued to be said so that the heart and mind returned to calm, trials let alone this, I often think the beginning of my departure abroad is a wrong decision. The future of my son is not lost.