Family Burden
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" Surely they're outside, but why so long". My inner

But wait a while only the bidders come in, bringing barang2 needs. I finally asked one of the nurses. " Sus, my family went where no one accompanied me".

" I'm sorry mommy, she's in the isolation room right now because she's been exposed to the virus, and there's no one to visit or accompany unless we're nurses, it's a phone from your husband if you want to contact them". The nurse answered while pushing the phone at me. I was just stunned to hear the nurse's words either crying or angry because the first time the operation but no one accompanied.

After the nurse left the room I called my husband..

" Hello bang, brother where". I asked while crying

" I'm outside, baby, the nurse forbids anyone from coming in to accompany me and visit. Answer husband.

Immediately the cry broke because it had to undergo this on its own, "do not cry dear, because there is no other choice, we have to follow the hospital procedure, be patient". Answer my husband again

" I'm afraid to bang alone, my legs can't move, I'm afraid". That's all I can say while crying but I can only say the words of my husband to be patient, and finally I went through the post-operative procedure alone without being accompanied by my husband and family , even the child who just came out of my womb is not allowed to meet.

With a heavy heart I can only wait for time to go home in the hospital alone, schedule taking drugs and motion therapy was done alone, often tears crying because of feeling alone, afraid, afraid, mixed thoughts are felt let alone many rumors that say that if it has been exposed to this virus it is likely to lose lives, especially, my husband and I and my first child could only meet face to face via video call,

Some days in the pain of appetite a little disturbed, I forget if the effect of exposure to this virus is a decrease in the performance of the sense of taste.

"What bread, dear?". Answer my husband

" Brown bread bang".

Some time the bread came between by one of the nurses, but still did not taste the bread, but it felt very moved because during the surgery yesterday my husband and my aunt were very difficult to handle the procedure of hospital procedures and accompany me post-surgery.

my newborn son also needs some checks because I was exposed to this virus while they were still in the womb so they are also not allowed to go home, but their room was separate, there was a special isolation room for babies, sad this increased because they could not meet the child who had just been born.

It did not feel 4 days passed I was given information to go home today, but still not allowed to gather with family, he said, this means the same is not yet repatriated but must implement a health protocol for self-quarantine for 2 weeks, I chose to go home to my parents because it was quiet there and rarely anyone went in and out so that others did not get infected, but my husband did not have the heart so he dared to break the protocol to not meet, he said, my husband came every day to visit and help care because to walk is still a little difficult.

My son is still not allowed to go home because there are some unfinished checks, and they are allowed to go home 2 days after I am discharged from the hospital

Thank God the administrative costs of giving birth are free and on the responsibility of the government because I belong to the category of covid patients who are exposed to the virus.