Forced Marriage Alea
PPA 59# Love For Pity?

"Mas, you said love wasn't because you felt sorry for me, right?" said Alea instantly.

Ravka's chatter with Grandpa Bayu easily dimmed the happy twinkle shown by the now languidly bowed girl. He linked his fingers, diverting the nervousness that could not be covered. He does not want to be lost in happiness. Happiness comes on the basis of pity.

"Look at me Al," Ravka pulled back Alea's chin looking up at her face standing tall before her.

He held Alea's fingers and led the girl to rise from her seat on the edge of the bed. Then he wrapped his hands around Alea's waist. Close his body until the girl can feel the beating of his heart caused by the girl. He led Alea's hand to the chest of his field, until it was attached to his left chest.

"Can you feel it Al. My heart wouldn't beat so hard if I just felt sorry for you. I don't know since when. But for sure, when I realized, you've forced your way in here" Ravka said, patting Alea's hand still on her chest.

"But why Mas? Why can you love me? Don't you hate me so much?" Alea was still trying to put up the horses. He cannot be weak in his feelings. He would not let anyone in and ruffle his fragile heart. Alea was well aware that she was just a crybaby girl who would fall if she gave up her heart just like that.

No.. no. Of course not. He will not melt easily before believing that the handsome young man who fulfilled his dream really loved him from the bottom of his heart. Not just a feeling of pity for him.

"Do love need an Al excuse?" Ravka answered his wife with a question.

Of course Mas. Love needs a reason. I love you because you are my husband Alea said in her heart.

Sounds cliche to the girl if she hears love doesn't need a reason. Love has its own reasons. Everyone is different in love. Different reasons to love. If there was no reason, on what basis would they survive the storm?

"I heard it myself when you talked to Grandpa Bayu that you feel sorry for me" Alea decided to say what she heard.

"So you eavesdropped on my conversation with Grandpa?" eavka said with a smile. "I feel sorry for you because of my attitude. But that doesn't mean I don't love you Al," Ravka tries to reassure Alea.

The girl only showed a questionable face. Not convinced by the words uttered by Ravka. His low self-confidence makes him feel unworthy of love. He had only accepted humiliation and mockery since childhood. Rejections made by Uncle and Aunt and friends as a child, make it difficult for the girl to be able to trust the sincerity given to her.

"Will it be enough if I say that I love you because the kindness of your heart has stirred my heart? Or has your fortitude and patience with my attitude caused me to melt down? Or if I told you, I love you because of your innocence that made my parents give me their love again?" Ravka paused for a moment to set the roar of breath hunting after a pause of a while. "Do you need another reason?" ravka asked as she stared intently at Alea.

Ravka's heart skipped a beat as she saw Alea still silently silent under her gaze. But now Ravka could see the tension begin to fade from Alea's sweet face. The girl began to lower her defenses. His eyes began to narrow with his lips curved upwards. Publish a little hope in the young man's heart. Will Alea accept her feelings? or is he looking for a word to refuse with a sweeping smile that is now beginning to adorn his beautiful face?

Ravka stared at those lips for a long time. The lips that he had long wanted to devour. Stroked with all the feelings of love that he can no longer hold in his heart.

Without realizing it his head was getting closer to the lips of the tantalizing ranum, until now the distance of Ravka's lips with Alea was only as thin as paper. Slowly but surely, he began to sip the taste from Alea's lips, trying to convey what he had in his heart, but could not be expressed the word. How much he craves.

"Sttt.." Alea's hiss stopped the activities that were so overwhelming for Ravka even though it only lasted for a moment.

Ravka looked at Alea who grimaced in pain. The young man only realized that he was carried away to ignore the wound on the corner of Alea's lips.

"Sorry" said Ravka, full of guilt.

Alea shook her face with a shy blush. The girl's cheeks were not flushed because of the bruises that dominated there. However, it did not fade the embarrassed expression that was clearly on his face.

Ravka gently rubbed the corner of Alea's lips that had turned red again as the wound that had started to dry re-opened.

"Now say Al, do you still doubt me?" Ravka looked back at Alea sharply. Searching for answers to the hue of the face that now began to spread in every inch of the girl's face.

Alea again shook her head while yelling at Ravka's chest. Hiding her shy blushed face to the chest of the field belonging to her husband. His heart was filled with warmth as Ravka's heart rhythm tickled in his ear. Her heart played a cheerful symphony.

Ravka smiled in relief as Alea's hands coiled around her waist. He could understand that his wife was a shy girl who did not dare to show his feelings.

"Wait for one more problem that has not been resolved" said Ravka suddenly and took off his embrace on Alea.

Alea simply knitted her brows in confusion. Unable to guess what had disturbed their closeness that Alea was enjoying.

"Why are you in Cisarua?" asked Ravka to investigate Alea.

"I'm sorry for that. I'm sorry I didn't ask your permission to go to Cisarua" Alea said nervously. He bit his lower lip because of the guilt that ambushed him suddenly.

"I asked why you were there?" The man will not let his question be answered like a merry-go-round.

"I was invited by Kania to stay there" Alea said, presenting a frown on Ravka's forehead.

He did not realize that there was Kania, the younger brother of the man who made him unable to sleep well last night.

"Cania? didn't you go with the man who held your hand?" sindir Ravka presented a similar frown on Alea's forehead.

"I can't possibly walk with another man as long as my status is still your wife Mas" Alea replied pursing her lips.

How low was Ravka's assessment of her? She is not an arbitrary woman who can be close to a man who has no right to be near her.

"But you'd rather spend your time with your cousin than spend time with me" said Ravka.

"I only met Kak Farash at the office, and that was also a job. I've never been alone with Brother Farash. How can you say I'd rather spend my time with Kak Farash?" Alea was inexhaustible what made Ravka think so.

"Didn't you deliberately go home to your aunt to be with that man? As long as we get married just this time you ask to go back to your aunt's house," demanded Ravka.

"I'm. I'm not actually at Auntie Mas's. I was staying at the hotel yesterday with Kania" Alea replied.

He was really worried that Ravka would be disappointed with his attitude. But just now he could feel the love of the husband he always wanted. Alea cursed her stupidity, for being impulsive and childish.

"Stay in a hotel?" Ravka felt something was wrong with this.

"I-iya Mas's. I actually felt sad yesterday when I heard you pitied me. I thought your kindness all along was out of pity. Then I need some time to calm down," Alea again bit her lower lip. A habit that the girl often does whenever she feels nervous.

"Hmmm... So you're sad when you find out I only feel sorry for you? so what exactly do you expect?" goda Ravka realizes that Alea's departure was only due to a misunderstanding of her. And most importantly, the girl did not go to meet another man, making Ravka's heart relieved. The burden that had been squeezing him since yesterday, he was able to get as far away from there as possible.

"You know what I expected" Alea blushed again.

"Are I a psychic who can know someone's heart?" sambar Ravka's.

"It's late, Mom, I'm tired. I want to rest first" Alea said, switching the conversation. He turned straight from in front of Ravka. Laying his body on the bed and preparing to enter the dreamland. "Come on Mas, it's late and you must be tired too. We better go to sleep" Alea said as she watched Ravka not budge from where she stood.

Ravka looked at Alea softly. He actually still wants to pick the girl up to want to admit his feelings clearly. However, Alea was right her body was currently in need of rest. Two days he forced his body awake just because of the girl now in front of him. The girl he can now cling to whenever he wants to without the awkwardness and prestige that gets in the way.

Ravka then lay her body on the mattress and turned her body to face her wife. Ravka then placed her hand on the girl's stomach until she fell asleep in the night embrace.