Friend's Choice Lover
42. Not possible (Fiya POV )

...I'm willing to let go. Relieve for those who leave. Because nothing in this world is eternal, believe that there will be a more beautiful time in the future....

...~Satya Dimas Adriansyah~...

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Safiya Khanza Ayunindya's

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Moments later, Dimas and I arrived at the hospital. I ran to the emergency room. My mother was crying in the arms of Lastri's mother who was also crying. Papa Kenzo patted my papa on the shoulder. Sintya himself sat down while stroking his knees.

I walked slowly while coming to them. Feelings of worry as well as anxiety, fatigue and lethargy seemed to attack me. Sintya who saw me immediately hugged me. As soon as I thought, my sister was fine.

I approached my mama. She cried and made me want to cry too. It was heartbreaking to remember what happened to my sister at the market that night.

I closed my eyes and I shed tears. I didn't ask everyone. Everyone was just busy crying. I walked and leaned against the wall beside where Sintya was sitting. Dimas sat next to Sintya.

The doctor came out the door. I kept crying even though I wasn't hiccuping. My father saw him immediately.

"How my daughter is doing." cried my father as he shook the doctor's body.

The doctor just nodded. I who saw him could only shake his head and say in silence, that is impossible.

My mind is fucked now. And my father asked the doctor again with great emphasis.

"How is my daughter a doctor." asked my father.

"Sorry, we can't save your daughter. We've tried our best, but fate says something else."

The doctor's words stopped my heart. No more energy filling. My father fell to the floor crying, and so did my mother who was still in the arms of Mama Lastri.

I also sat on the floor crying loudly.

"That's impossible. That's not possible... Tiidaakk... Hix.. Hix.. Hicks..."

Dimas immediately hugged me to strengthen me. My race grew limp, and wanted to fall unconscious. Dimas also stroked my shoulder.

"Fiya.. Fiya.. Ikhlaskan.. Fiya. You're patient."

"No way... My brother can't possibly not be Dim.. Not likely... Hicks..."

I drowned my face on Dimas's shoulder while crying. My mother, who couldn't stand to go straight to the emergency room. I choose to stay there. My cry stopped when I heard the voice of the little boy calling me.

"Sister.." call her softly.

I got up from Dimas' shoulder and wiped my tears. Dimas also helps wipe my tears. With all my might I stood up and looked for the origin of the voice. I saw Aldo there and he shifted to the right.

Instantly I was shocked and my eyes widened when I saw my sister behind Aldo. I ran and immediately hugged her while crouching. Her cold body I was hugging tightly. His face also exuded a beautiful and calm aura. I let go of my embrace and rubbed his head.

"Sister.. I'm picking mom up papa ya. I don't want to make mommy cry. Take care of your mom here. Brother also do not cry yes." said my sister eloquently while wiping my tears that fell.

I hugged him again. It is not strong if you have to lose a sister who is under the age of 4 years. Dimas hugged me from the side and his right hand was given some leeway. I smiled and brought Dimas's hand closer to my sister and touched her hair.

"Silver look at me right, take Fiya's sister well huh. I love big brother." he said while hugging Dimas.

Dimas stood up and rubbed his head. Suddenly my mother came out of the room and came straight to me. I haven't said it yet, but my mother shook my body violently.

"You saw Sofiya, didn't you? Where's she?" ask mama.

I looked towards Sofiya and Sofiya gestured not to tell my mama. I bowed and bowed and shook my head.

"You lied. Where's she? Tell him to go back to his body .... Hurry." snapped my mama.

I held my mother's hand by holding back the overcrowded cries I had stored inside my eyeball.

"Sorry, Sofi is gone. I can't tell him to come back. All life and death are in the hands of the Almighty. I can't do anything else but surrender and sincerity."

With a heavy heart, I could only utter those words. I was shocked by my mother's response which suddenly hit me on the cheek. "Plaakkk.." I immediately cried while holding my right cheek that was painful.

"Mama, relax. Mama must be patient." said my father while holding my mother.

"Please be patient, Ova, be patient" said Dimas who held me.

"Based on useless child. You always bring bad luck. What's the benefit of you being able to see a creature, whereas to bring it back you can't."

It felt like my heart was pierced by the sword when my mother said those words. I fought him back too.

"I was wrong and useless. I also failed to look after my sister. But I'm not the God who can change everything."

I was angry and upset with myself. I left them in the hospital too. I came out until I didn't realize I was almost hit by traffic on the road.

"Hey, relax. You want to die here."

I feel like I know his voice, but it's not Dimas's. I also looked towards him.

"Farhan." I said in shock when I saw him.

"He helped me." inwardly.

"I know you're a shaman, but at least don't die like this."

I threw out the hand that was holding me. I left without saying thank you, so I sat at the bus stop. I was crying and I was bending over and crying on my knees.

Before long Dimas came with a gasping breath. He sat down next to me and stroked my back.

"It turns out here. I'm worried you're okay." said Dimas.

I got up and wiped my tears. Dimas grabbed me from the side and stroked my shoulder. He grabbed my right cheek and stroked it.

"Prophe Fiya, your mother's words were unintentionally because she was angry and sad. You don't have to be sad, hmm.. If your sister doesn't calm down how?"

I just kept quiet, all I did was cry, cry and cry incessantly. Every word Dimas said always made me cry.

"Already, already.... I'd better take you home. We'll make funeral preparations for your sister tomorrow morning. Don't cry anymore.. Hm.."

I just nodded. We left the bus stop to return to the hospital parking lot and left the hospital without saying goodbye to prepare for tomorrow.

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