He's my son, not my brother
Am I being selfish?
"Zeline..." Naina slowly removed Zeline's hand from her leg. Both of her eyes were visibly glazed after listening to the expectant request from her daughter.
"Yes Mah. bobo same Papah yes." Ask again with his own eyes.
Naina's hand stretched out stroking her daughter's hair. "Zel bought this using whose money?" Naina asked gently without replying to Zeline's request.
"Lahasia. Inda can say." Zeline's head shook weakly.
Naina's face changed. His mind was now wondering who bought him a mattress. And his guess fell on the father of his son.
What Daniel? He said inwardly remembering that Zeline had just left with Daniel.
"She's a good Papah, Mah." Said Zeline who seemed to understand Naina's thoughts.
Naina took a long breath. His gaze turned to Mom as if demanding an answer. But Mom shrugged both of her shoulders a sign of not knowing.
"Can you get her in her bed, miss?" Ask driver.
"Welcome well." Zeline's face seemed to want to cry to see Naina who seemed reluctant to accept a gift from him.
Naina's breathing slowed down. It was true that his heart was not strong to see the sorrowful gaze of his little princess. "Of course Mama took it, baby..." Naina picked up Zeline and held her. "But Mama is confused, the mattress in the room is still there." Naina.
"Install the warehouse of ja Mah." Reply Zeline.
Mother patted gently on Naina's shoulder. "For a while the mattress was moved to the barn alone, Nai." Mother's words confirmed her grandson's words.
"Put it down here first, sir. The mattress in my room hasn't been taken out." Naina said to the driver.
"All right, Miss." Reply to the driver and then continue their work to lower the mattress and divan from the pick up tub.
"Maci Mamah, tomorrow can be bobo with this Papah!" Zeline is so carefree.
Naina was speechless replying to her daughter.
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The night is getting late, but Naina still seems pensive sitting on the dresser chair while staring at her daughter who seems so comfortable sleeping on her new mattress. Of course, the mattress is currently 40 cm larger than the old mattress. And do not forget the new mattress is clearly more soft than the old mattress that is now in the warehouse.
"I know Zeline desperately needs her father figure this time even so on. I know Zeline must have wanted to be with Daniel at close range. I know my daughter's needs right now. But I can't give you what my daughter needs right now." Naina sighed even more.
"Am I so selfish more concerned with my own feelings than my daughter?" Tears began to fall down on Naina's cheeks. "I'm sorry Mama Zeline. I'm sorry Mama who has not been able to fully heal the wound that your Papa has inflicted. Mama's heart still hurts when she remembers Papa's words. Mama's been trying to make peace with the past, but Mama's heart can't lie if you still hurt when you remember it all." Naina started sobbing.
Until now Daniel only asked him to give the opportunity to give love to Zeline and no other words. Naina is also self-conscious if she is not a woman who suits Daniel's taste. Especially now that there is already Aga who intends to ask for it in the near future. Naina was completely confused by this state of affairs. Moreover, Naina does not want to hurt the heart of a man as good as Aga who has been so sincere in love with her even until the moment the man knows that she is not a holy woman.
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So what do you think, Gaes? Naina again this is🥲