HIS SOUL IS DEAD
12. Dara and Aziz Plan Something
"Ra, maybe Lu still hesitates or even doesn't believe me at the moment. But this time I can be sure that Lu's story about Arin and Adit used to be safe in my hands" ensured Dara.
I would love to hear all the real stories about them right from Dara before Arin tells them everything, I also want to know for a moment and as bad as what woman has been able to destroy Arin to this extent.
"Ra maybe Arin is not the type of girl I want to even like, but I really need a lot of Lu's story" I wonder to Dara.
"Well if Arin isn't Lu's type, why do you need that story ?" ask her in wonder.
"Gue just needs a girl story that really has the heart to ruin Arin" I told Dara.
"Due Lu, Ziz ?" dara replied with a bit of surprise.
"Lu know who Rena is from ? Or is Arin a little story ?"
"It's a story, but I don't get a lot of information about that girl"
"It turns out that you already know that bastard girl Ziz" said Dara in a limp voice.
That night Dara told me at length about Rena, Adit and Arin. Hearing all the stories in such detail made me even more angry, irritated and emotional. My hands clenched in annoyance when I heard the story. I can't imagine Arin's feelings at the time being as broken as what.
Patience Arin is indeed incomparable even the kindness and sincerity of Arin on Adit was extraordinary, this time I just found a great and strong woman like Arin.
"Wait for the presence of Gue Ren" I was annoyed in my heart.
"So far as Lu goes, to the end of the world I'll go after him"
"Ra, I'm horrifying this story. Why is Arin that strong huh"
"Ziz, Arin loves Adit sincerely, and is willing to sacrifice anything, including time for Adit"
"A thousand apologies Arin gave to Adit, but finally Arin who Adit throw away for Rena" explained Dara.
After a long chat with Dara and I learned all the information about Rena from Dara, I decided to go home. Coupled with the late night, I was afraid to even interfere with Dara's rest.
The most important thing this time I and Dara have agreed with the plan that we have made earlier to avenge the treatment that Rena has done, I say goodbye to Dara and decided to go home.
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"Aziz, how do I know everything I like ?" I said while looking at the ceiling.
"Today I feel like I'm alive and I have spirit again"
Adit has always been a winner in anything in My life, but if you remember Adit's crimes to me, I feel that the world was unfair at that time. Why would anyone destroy my world?
4 Years I have always closed myself and the heart of anyone who comes to my life, punishing myself from any situation and condition. I feel like I'm a failure and useless to anyone, even I always feel a great fear if someone tries to get close to me because of my own trauma.
Failed me too much but traumatized me even more so that I had to sacrifice my mental state, always pretending that I was okay in front of everyone made me feel cape and tired. But I did that so that not many people would question my situation.
Actually at that time I didn't want any separation or sadness, with Adit I just wanted to be happy but the universe said something else. I need to know something big that makes me hate sweet words. It was a day that I really did not want to see, but God gave it to me so that my forgiveness would no longer be used as Adit's staple food.
"I don't want to feel the pain of the second time God, I don't want to feel so much disappointment anymore. For healing yesterday's wound I went half crazy"
Dara pityed me from this story that I experienced, even Dara who was annoyed with everything she witnessed with me insisted on avenging Rena's treatment at the time but I strictly forbid it with my selfishness because I wanted to forgive Adit and fix everything with that opportunity I've given it back.
Not only am I disappointed but both my parents and my extended family feel the same way, they were so angry and upset at Adit's behavior that I again muffled and convinced them that this was just a misunderstanding they didn't know about.
4 Years struggling with a confused mind makes me always envious of all the couples I see before my eyes, not infrequently I always spend my night crying secretly to be unknown to anyone, busying myself and returning myself is very difficult for me who do not have the support of anyone.
*drrrrt.. drrrrt*hpku vibrating.
"Rin, you're sleeping, aren't you ?" a short message from Aziz.
I just stared at my phone at the time, not replying or responding to Aziz's chat. I kept it back on my side of my head.
"Ziz, can we please each other without any pain we give each other ?" ask me with a grimacing voice.
"I wanted to restart a feeling, but my fear was still too great"
"God can Aziz help himself get back to his old self ?" tanyaku looked at the ceiling of the room.
"Huhh .." my breath.
I decided to change clothes and clean up, drop my body on the mattress and pull the blanket.
"Dit, if today you see me from above. I'm telling you that my struggle to heal myself is not as easy as turning a palm"
"I'm a woman who almost went crazy for what you did"
"But I always forgive whatever has happened"
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"Arin don't you bales chat I'm anyway ?" I asked while looking at HP.
"Has she slept because of today's soy sauce ?" sanku.
"Gue must be really quick to reply to the dajjal woman's behavior" I growled while opening the jacket I was wearing.
Adit really had the heart to do all that to Arin, even though Arin always apologized repeatedly to Adit no matter how much the problem. Arin who accompanied the difficult times of Adit at that time with the patience that Arin had, even Dara said Arin gave all the car surprises for Adit but the car was instead made to drive and pick up Rena.
The world was not fair to Arin at that time, not only the physical that Adit destroyed but also the mental Arin did not hesitate to destroy Adit. Now it's my turn to make Rena's life miserable.
No woman would be willing if her love was divided into two, but with the sincerity of Arin He would do that and still give Adit time to choose. It was amazing Arin.
From this moment on, I will make sure that Arin will feel happy in my hands, will get himself back in my hands and will get his smile back that has long been lost so far.