HIS SOUL IS DEAD
16. Aziz Starts to Trust Arin

I once treated a wound like this on the state of my heart being broken, I was also willing to fall asleep by sitting down just to wait for the good news that night even I was worried about this situation.

It felt like the feeling had flinched back as I tried to treat the wound on Aziz's leg, I couldn't bear the tears of my annoyance at that moment. Why is the world so unfair to me.

I tried to get down and quietly wiped my tears slowly, trying not to let Aziz know about this. It hurt so much that my chest felt tight and painful remembering it all.

"Rin, Rin Lu why hey ?" aziz asked swiftly looking at me.

"Huh .. Why what is it ?" ask me to switch the conversation

"Today, Ziz, wait for me to let everything go into the house" my permission as I walked away from Aziz.

Unable to hold back the cries I finally broke in the kitchen, the screams I held made my chest tightened, many times I grabbed my hair and fell down, sitting down, crying so I wish I was a little calm but it turned out wrong. I became more and more like everything was turning back.

"Why did Adit go away leaving such a deep wound, my fault what was Dit ?" lirihku while crying bitterly.

My body felt weak at that time but I can't show it to Aziz, trying to calm myself before others is not as easy as people say, I hurried to wash my face and act like nothing.

Walking to meet Aziz again with a very chaotic feeling is not something easy, as much as possible to manage the breath and try to calm down.

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"Rin, thank you" I told Arin, who was sitting next to me.

"No need to say thanks to Ziz, the important thing is that his wound is now treated"

"By the way why the hell can fall gini rich ?" ask him with a serious face.

Looking at Arin's slightly red eyes I know He must have cried while storing the red medicine earlier, Arin probably thought I didn't know what just happened.

As powerful as Arin is in her own circumstances and same as herself, I really want to hold Arin's body tightly to calm her from any situation but I think this is not the right time for Me to do that.

"So I'm buying Rin's cake, I can't wait for that love for Lu so I'm adding more speed just carry the bike" I replied while moaning in pain.

"Can't bring his usual motorbike to Ziz ?"

"No Rin, He.. Hee.hee" I replied a little grimace.

"Ziz, I'm still traumatized by injuries like this. Even I'm still very afraid of being piggybacked at using more speed" he replied limply while bowed.

"I'm just afraid that the accident will repeat itself in my life" he added.

And it turns out to be true! Arin is worried and remembers something about Adit, indeed the accident that made Arin almost crazy, half his world lost due to the accident Adit experienced.

"Rin, I know what Lu Rasain now even thinks. But trust me! I will be more careful in the future and will not make Lu sad again rich gini" explained I reassured Arin.

Arin just looked at me with soft and sparkling eyes, her tiny, red lips quivering slightly when she heard the explanation from my mouth. I don't know how much pain and trauma Arin has right now.

Even Dara reminded me not to do the things that Adit often does to Arin.

"Gue will always take care of Lu from anything as much as I can and I won't be staying alone"

"So I beg you in the future, about anything in Lu's life please involve I yes so I can help it for Lu" I trust Arin while crouching in front of him.

Arin still did not answer just looking at me with a slightly confused look, his eyes suddenly filled with tears and at that moment Arin just hugged me who was crouching in front of him.

Her tears broke as she hugged me, I tried to calm her down and gently rubbed her back and head. I let her cry with satisfaction, I didn't ask her when she was crying.

I could feel Arin's sadness and pain, his tears rolling down my shoulders, screaming with the voice holding back the most painful and tightening thing.

"Wrong I am Ziz" she cried as she cried.

I can't imagine Arin being alone with this great wound, even today I feel Arin is a great strong woman who is able to get through everything with a mask.

Trying to put on a smiley look at everyone so they don't question Arin's true state.

"Rin from now on if Lu feels fragile, Lu can't pretend anymore in front of me ya"

"Lu can be yourself just as I am"

"Because Gur doesn't need Lu's figure pretending to look okay" I whispered to Arin hoping Arin could calm down a bit.

Arin let go of her embrace and wiped her tears, I held Arin's hand and kept her hand on both of Arin's thighs, I gently rubbed Arin's tears on her cheeks while continuing to convince Arin as much and as I could.

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Seeing Aziz do all this to me, made me feel comfortable again, his voice that made me calm and his treatment that did not scare me.

The softness of Aziz's hand that wiped my tears made me sure that I could get through all this easily, though Aziz's feet and hands were injured but he forced and endured the pain just to calm me down.

I don't know what comfort Aziz gave me to keep me company forever or just to make me curious just like Adit used to ?

I have always believed that if a man is serious about me, he will always fight for me wherever he can and how He can.

"Ziz, thank you so much" I said as I hugged Aziz's body in front of me.

"Right now I'm totally devastated and don't know what I'm going to do with Ziz"

"Even I am confused where to start to fix my life again" I added.

"Gue, who will be watching Lu until Lu feels that Lu has returned to Rin" he said to me.

"Now Lu already has I, so I hope Lu doesn't have to worry about anything coming into Lu's life anymore"

"Gue will be ready to go wherever you want"

"Promise" he said as he let go of my embrace and raised his pinky to promise me.