Hot Duda: Love For Rangga
The panic!

Drr....

"Wait, there's an incoming message. Whatsapp from Roy. She said. Now that she's getting Stella, doi's in the hospital."

Whats? Oh my God, what's wrong with that girl? How'this?

"Woi! Lu why? Where's diem?"

I'm shaking. "It's okay. Emm... Stella... Why was she hospitalized?"

"Cieee."

"No. I just want to know."

"Where do I know. You're now close to Stella."

I swallowed spit. I don't worry, I don't know why, but I'm afraid something bad happened to her. Not because there are feelings, but I'm afraid that it's because of me -- because of what I do and what my people do. I pulled my das and made it a little loose. My neck suddenly felt like it was suffocating.

"Yeee is daydreaming again. You have a taste, huh? You really wear Stella's heart? Hmm?"

Again, I shook my head. "No, Ray. Emm... That, Roy, is he that close to Stella?"

"Well? You don't know, Ngga? Seriously?"

"Seriously...."

"They were friends from childhood. Close friend. Very familiar in fact. They used to be neighbors in the village."

Whats? How can? My pupils widened and my eyebrows spontaneously raised. I'm riled. What if Stella told Roy about the other day?

"Relga."

"Emm?"

"Only. I was, please, you don't tell anyone. Can promise?"

I'm nagging. "Quiet, I just because I care. Not to be bullied. But.. You want to, don't you, get out of this thing?"

"Emm.. if that's the case, I can't promise. This is a comfort zone for me. I feel comfortable living my life like this."

Miris. But I can't force it. Everyone has their own life. I also know, even I am well aware that even if I am in the position of a hypocrite, I am naive. Sok directs someone for good, while myself still continues to fight with resentment and heartache. The desire to avenge those who hurt me and those who annoy me - I can't even stop myself.

"Maybe not yet, but I hope you can change someday. I want us all to live better."

Raymond smiled. "Maybe. But it's definitely not that easy, Ngga. At least. you know, everything has its causes. Everything has a reason, there is a reason why it happened. And that is the basis of his mistake. Like me, even like Stella."

"Stella?"

He's nodding. "yeah. You must think she's a cheap woman, binatan* street* or what's the term, right? Honestly speaking. I know you think so."

I thought for a moment. But why would I cover up if I did think that way about Stella? I finally agreed with a slow nod.

"Lu must have thought so too, right, about me? Yeah, that's natural, anyway. His name was also human, they only swallowed raw what was seen by his eyes, then judged as they pleased. Though themselves...? Who knows?"

Fix it! I feel insinuated. But I admit I was wrong. I just saw it through my glasses.