Hot Duda: Love For Rangga
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I nodded my head slowly. "So, regarding Stella, what do you know about her?"

"Widiiih...."

"Ray..please...."

"Well!"

"He why?"

Raymond laughed knowing my curiosity, and then he cleared his throat. "Okay, I'm telling you. He was a kid when he was a victim of immoral acts." Raymond threw a glance out the window for a moment. "His father died when he was a child. Her stepfather raised Stella. I don't need to tell you the whole story, you know, right, how's it going? Predictable. That's crazy gambling. Heavy gambler. If he loses the bet, he doesn't pay the money."

Geez, it feels like there's a scrap of cement on me. Why is everything I heard today so shocking?

I swallowed again the spit that actually does not exist. "You mean... use Stella's body? So, Ray?"

Raymond nodded. "Stella's just trying to survive. She thought she had no choice, and thought learning to satisfy the man was her way of staying alive. See, he's good, right? He was sick inside. Mentally ill, also sexually ill. It all made him unable to control the desire to tempt the man he wanted."

"It doesn't make sense."

Raymond's lips chipped slightly and both his shoulders were raised. "Yes, for normal people it doesn't make sense. But for someone who has the trauma of immoral acts, anything can happen. It could even be worse. It's me not talking about Stella's disgrace, yeah. I just want you to not think he's some kind of a lowly fly without you knowing his background."

"Which he experienced it is the same as me, if you are interested in the opposite sex, the curiosity wants to try it really up to the crown. Luckily I can still control myself, I'm determined never to touch a virgin girl. But for the wife, that's the exception, yes. I realize, I'm personally damaged, but I don't want to if I have to damage people's girls. But Stella's different, Man. He does not look at virgin or experienced men, even if it is the husband of people. Severe, anyway. But we can't blame him. It was one form of protest on life because from childhood he was already abused by people who had raised him. Once at the age of balig, her virginity was forcibly taken by her stepfather. Imagine, he was only twelve years old that time. After that, it was instead used as a betting material at the gambling table."

And now I'm the one who told people to turn it around. That's so nasty, you, ngga. Totally evil. Lu binatan*!

I'm not calm. My neck is getting choked up. How can I atone for my guilt for Stella? That's what I'm thinking right now. I didn't think I was the bad one. Totally evil.

"Lu why? How's it weird?" ask Raymond.

I just shook my head. How could I possibly tell the truth. Even though Raymond had told him his own disgrace, I could not open my disgrace to anyone.

"Drink, gih. You're like a scared person, you know!"

I swallowed and felt tight. You're right, I'm scared again. Fear of their own mistakes.

While sipping a soft drink, I secretly hope Stella is willing to forgive me if I apologize to her someday.

Hope so....