How You Give Pain And Happiness Together!
chapter 1

Introduce, my name is sadiyah. I am a housewife who has two children.

I live my life as a housewife sincerely and without complaining even though sometimes it feels very tired.

Our life is quite financially, though, although I am not allowed to manage household finances, I dare to be sure if my husband's salary is very, very enough to meet the needs of the four of us for one month.

Yes, for four years I was married, I was not allowed to hold household finances by my husband. The reason is because of the many debts he had to pay at that time, until now I have never asked to manage our finances. Wh why? The answer is that there is always a reason.

Such was my husband, stern in character and unwilling to be blamed and unwilling to accept correction. Even sometimes if we are exchanging opinions, there are always things that he thinks are not right and finally his own opinion that he uses. Sometimes, I think. So, why did he ask me for an opinion.

Like at the moment, he asked my opinion to open the older brother's coffee shop while I was seven months pregnant and needed a lot of money because the doctor had said that I had to do Cesar's surgery because the position of the birth canal was closed by ari-ari from my baby.

"Don't you first, we need a lot of money for me to give birth. You know, the doctor suggested I give birth to Cesar, but we don't have any health insurance. You also I ask for a lot of reasons, now if the money to open your brother's coffee shop will not necessarily return the capital in the near future. Later how to get my usual labor" I replied when he asked permission to use the savings for me to give birth held by him.

"But, Kasian Abang. I mean let him not be so straight as that Bun" replied my husband at the time.

"Mas, do you remember when he came home a year ago? Your brother asked to take the motorcycle credit, but after it was taken. He had never even tried it, not in accordance with his words when asking to be taken the credit. Where is the motor now? After a year he disappeared and you took over the payment of the bike, he came home suddenly without bringing the bike in." Answer me who was a little upset.

"Don't count it so Bun is with my family, they are your family Mom" he replied tightly.

"I'm calculating? Where is mas? You always say that if I bring up your mistake of taking action, even though you yourself have given me fifty thousand meals a day. Even you also complain if I cook that food, and again when I crave you also say if I take the opportunity with the word cravings. You're sane, man?" I replied, who was upset by what my husband said at the time.

"That already do not remember remember, now you have no cravings anymore right" he replied do not want to lose.

"It's hard to talk to you, even if I say you're buying, right?!" Reply cynical.

"Loh loh loh so anywhere, people are asked for opinions about opening a coffee shop Abang kok" he said with a tone that began to not feel good to hear.

"Free mas, you asked me for an opinion if in the end you will not wear what I say." Answer me with annoyance.

I went into our rented room with my first child, who was three years old, the laziness to respond to the words of my husband was present and the annoyance continued to spread for several days.

Until the moment I started to feel like I was going to give birth, I woke up at half-two in the morning. I felt my water start to break on the bed, but I did not feel heartburn at all. I woke my husband up by shaking his shoulder a few times.

"Mas, wake up when my amniotic fluid has broken" I said trying to wake her up.

"What is the heaahhh, yesampun is still what time it is" he said rubbing his eyes to be able to adjust to the light beam.

"Still half two mas, my amniotic fluid has broken this loh. But I don't heartburn, let's go to the hospital" I asked him.

"Well! You serious?!" He asked in shock, his eyes widened as if he could not believe what I said.

"Yes that's why the hunt, let me use the adult press that has been prepared first. Then we will leave Nayla at home, all through" answered me who immediately woke up and walked towards the bathroom after getting one for the adult press that I had prepared to keep watch.

Lukman Hakim is the name of my husband, the husband who has been married to me for five years. 

After arriving in front of my parents' house, I also leave Nayla to my mother. You need to know, my father is currently having a stroke due to high blood sugar accompanied by high blood disease that has clogged his blood vessels.

I left Nayla at my parents' house, and we both went to the nearest hospital from our home.

Finally we arrived, I was immediately rushed to the ER before entering the delivery room. In the ER room I had to be in a rapid test because of the moderate circumstances of the case of covid-19. Likewise with my husband also did the covid-19 test because it will be in charge of looking after me during the hospital.

After a few days in the hospital, I was finally allowed to go home today, and we argued again. Because at that time mas Lukman kekeh opened a coffee shop for his brother, even though he knew himself if the usual Cesar expensive surgery.

"How about you, do you have the money to pay for the administration?" I asked at that time.

"Emm the money is less Bun" he replied with a little hesitation.

"Less how? Didn't you promise that the money will come back before I give birth? Where actually?" I said in a annoyed tone.

"His name also just opened the Bun business, must be more patient again the customer is also not much" he replied as if innocent.

"Alaaahh you are not reliable!!" Answer me with annoyance. I finally had to call my sister to ask for extra hospital fees.

"Remember, this is a minjam not a request. You have to change Rey's money for payday. Wait for Rey here, Rey will pay using all the money in your heart you just think she is paid off" I told Lukman at the time.

"Kok so Bun, why not half first. Later we will definitely need for other things" replied Lukman as if not accept with my words.

"I'm looking for a solution so that you don't accumulate debt, business after home later yes back again becomes your business. Part of where all our savings money, so far you are holding the finances of the house. Whereas I only give you fifty thousand a day" I replied slightly snapping.

Mas Lukman was just silent, until shortly my brother Rey came and immediately invited mas Lukman to the administration.

Soon both of them returned, Rey also showed proof of payment made twice.

"This is mbak, I only added five million rupiah" he said made me feel bad because he used his savings.

"Thank you Rey, I'm sorry if it's a hassle. It will definitely be replaced if Lukman's mas is already payday" I replied to Rey who only smiled and nodded her head.

"Yuah yuk home Bun, I settle first. You want to anterin, won't we go home to Rey?" Ask Lukman not knowing his shame.

"Sorry, I got on the bike. There's no way I'm shaking you two let alone bringing a red baby" Rey replied by scratching her non-itchy nape.

"Father Rey, we'll book a taxi online" I replied.

Finally, Lukman and I went home using an online taxi followed by Rey behind who uses his motorbike matic.