I, Ikhlas Mas
Still the same vibration

... "Rabb forgive me if my awe turns into a taste that is able to thrill."...

Adhan shubuh reverberating from the mosque loudspeakers called Muslims to immediately carry out the obligation of prayer.

The santri rush into the mosque for congregational prayers as well as the hilda, and Nayla Hilda's roommate. When he was about to enter the mosque, Netra Hilda accidentally caught the figure of a man whose name he always called in every strand of his prayer.

Yes, it was because of the figure of Afnan who Hilda admired and unconsciously, the feeling of admiration turned into love.

"Hayo even daydreams you're missing." Nayla patted Hilda on the shoulder.

Hilda's daydreams were spoiled, so soon she was privileged because she realized she had seen what was not her mahram. He turned to Nayla.

"Whoever daydreams is Nay." said Hilda nervously.

"So why do you want to eat Gus Afnan, don't you have a crush?"he said full of slidik.

"Huss you if you like to talk, let's go in the hunt later." said Hilda while entering the mosque and followed by Nayla.

When entering the mosque Hilda and Nayla are in the front row, the color of the curtain is quite short which is only limited to the chest because the curtains that are usually used are being washed,so he can see the male santri up ahead. And accidentally netra Hilda and Gus Afnan met, soon both turned their eyes away.

The prayers of the shajuh run smoothly and solemnly, have finished the prayers of the santri doing the istigosah.

Because ustadz who teach is santri holiday in liburkan. Santri returned to his room and Hilda. As he was leaving the courtyard, a male voice stopped Hilda and Nayla's footsteps.

"Assalamualaikum" he said.

Hilda and Nayla turned their bodies and the shock that was now in front of her was Gus Afnan, Hilda and Nayla bending their gaze.

"Waalaikumsalam Gus, what's the matter?"hilda.

"So, I told you that if I met Mbak Hilda, I told her to go home, I asked for help cooking."

"Oh Iyah gus later I go there with Nayla."ucap nayla while still looking down.

"If you'll excuse me, thank you in advance. Assalamualaikum."he said.

"Waalaikumsalam" said the two.

After storing his prayer equipment Hilda and Nayla went to Pak.Kyai's house. Arriving at the house pak.Kiyai turned out to be a guest, Hilda and Nayla also headed to the back door of the kitchen door.

"Assalamualaikum umi." said the two.

Umi khadijah who was cooking also turned her head "Waalaikumsalam here nduk help umi cook, again there are guests." he said.

The two of them also directly helped the Umi khadijah cook, while slicing the onion of the umi khadijah asked Hilda to deliver tea for her guests.

When going to get to the living room Hilda accidentally heard a conversation between Pak.Kiyai and the guest. Karna did not want to be expected to eavesdrop on Hilda to continue her steps. With a look down he began to arrange the tea onto the table one by one.

"Waahh Gus Afnan has grown up well, when I came here still High School is now an adult. There's no candidate yet Gus Afnan ?"say that guest.

Gus Afnan just smiled

"Insya Alloh already om." said Gus Afnan while looking at Hilda who was arranging tea on the table with a difficult view in the art.

Pak.Kiyai who was aware of his son's gaze immediately cleared his throat and patted Gus Afnan on the shoulder. Gus Afnan who was aware of what he was doing immediately beristigfar and rubbed his face slowly.

"Alhamdulillah if you already have the right one to be in the same match with the child om." said the guest again with a laugh.

"Hopefully as soon as possible, wait for the right time." Gus Afnan replied with a smile.

"Don't take long Gus will be taken by people" he said.

They also laughed, in contrast to Hilda who wanted to leave immediately, the color of their chatter was not good for her heart.

After finishing her tea, Hilda immediately left the living room, not knowing that someone was watching her in silence. Who else if not Gus Afnan.

Hilda returned to the kitchen, but now Hilda's heart. Hearing if Gus Afnan already has a wife.

That he heard from the mouth of Gus Afnan himself, now he still deserves to say his name in every strand of his prayer.

His heart is like a depressed heavy object crowded, but he soon realized he knew that the risk of hoping in humans is disappointed.Let the taste that is in his heart will be kept in silence. No one needs to know even once it's the person he loves enough himself and Alloh who knows.

Since returning from delivering tea, Hilda did not talk much, she just focused on her work. He wanted to finish quickly and return to the room.Until Nayla asked because she was confused to see Hilda who was just silent.

"You're why Hil has been in it since."

Hilda quickly wiped her tears, Karna was afraid that Nayla would be suspicious

"Father just want to be eaten again" he said as he continued slicing onions.

"Well you cry Hil, why?" said Nayla worried.

"My eyes are just about slicing an onion."

"It's not because of the strange horrors in the dalem?"nayla.

"Iiihh what the hell Nay, it's been a bit of a mess in order to make it right, I'm fine."

Nayla just nodded her head in understanding and went back to work. While Ummi Khadijah he returned inside to prepare the dining table.

After finishing helping Ummi Khadijah Hilda and Nayla returned to their rooms, Nayla went to the mosque to perform dzuhur prayer congregation, while Hilda chose prayer in the room.

Finished prayers he also did :a :

" O Rabb, forgive me if the love of the servant towards the Servant of Your creation is greater, forgive the servant if the servant hopes in man that in the end the servant feels disappointed.

Rabb do I still deserve to mention the name of someone who clearly already belongs to someone else".he said unable to hold back his tears.

Now he knows that the hope in man will only be disappointed, if you want something ask the creator because the creator is more entitled to what he created.

... "I have felt all the bitterness in the world, and the most bitter thing is to hope in man." ...

...(.( Ali ibn abi thalib)...

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