I Also Want to Be Happy (Double-line Warrior)
Mother to my husband's son

Zahra, who was finished with her work, approached Arham. He saw Arham standing looking at him.

"Mas, what is waiting for mom is the woman who will be introduced to, Mas?" asked Zahra to approach her husband who was wearing full clothes. Zahra had just seen the clothes her husband was wearing.

"I don't know either, mom just gave me these clothes to wear. He also said there would be guests. I don't know who they are either" he replied, still tidying up his clothes.

"Are you going to accept the matchmaking you did?" ask her with teary eyes.

Arhan was silent, he didn't know what to say.

"Did you still love me?" ask her again and now with a trembling voice.

Alham turned around and took Almaira to the bed, they sat opposite. Arham held Zahra's hands tightly together.

"Zahra, you should never doubt my love for you. I love you so much, but you know I can't argue with my mother."

"Why Mas? Why is that the only reason you gave me? I know she's your mother, but not everything has to be arranged. You're not a kid anymore, Mom! You also have a right to you, to your happiness, to our household" Zahra said. 

"I'm sorry" he replied.

"I apologize and keep apologizing. Is that all I can do? That doesn't change anything, Mom! I know that I am not the perfect wife for you, I have failed to make the household happy, I cannot quickly give offspring to this family, but is it a sin? Is all this my fault? I don't want to be in this condition either, Mom. It's all a fate I can't prevent. I don't have the power. I want to be happy too." Zahra had shed her tears. " I also want to be a mother, I want to be happy." Zahra sobbed, she felt very sick and unappreciated.

Arham brought Zahra a hug.

The sound of knocking stopped their conversation.

"Sir Arham, mother calls you. She says You are asked to come forward to greet the guests," Auntie replied after knocking on the door and then came back knocking after uttering a message from her employer.

Arham stood up and opened the door, looking at the aunt who was still standing there.

"Yes, Bi. Thank you, I'm out" he replied.

Arham only saw Zahra who was still sitting in his place, looking at him who was still hiccupping. However, he still chose to go out to his mother.  Zahra was getting sobbing about it. He closed his eyes, allowing water to drip in his eyes. Zahra held onto her chest which felt tight.

"Why is all this happening to me, is this a test I have to go through. It's too heavy" he said, pointing his gaze upward, as if complaining about creation. "Am I a despicable woman just because I can't give a baby out of this. I also want to be happy, I don't want to be in this position, it's too painful" she said, covering her face with both hands, her back shaking as Zahra was holding back her sobs, he did not want his voice to sound out, because it would only make him look weaker in their eyes.

The sound of knocking was heard making Zahra look up at the door of her room.

"Mom, Wani's mother sent her to the dining room" said the aunt from behind the door. 

"Yes, Bi." Zahra answered the aunt with a shout.

Zahra tried to smile to see the reflection of her face in the mirror and she was out to convince her heart, strengthening her heart to remain patient and sincere.

"Zahra, you are a long time away." cried Wani as she saw Zahra walking towards them. "Hurry and prepare food for us" said the mother.

Zahra, who wanted to sit back, stood up to hear her mother-in-law's request.

Zahra served them, gave them what they had appointed.

Sometimes Zahra glanced at Arham who looked only down embarrassed to see himself treated like a maid. Wani several times said the word if he was catapulted and useless.

"Wani, where's Arham's wife?" ask Tanti while taking the side dish from Zahra.

"In front of you there is the useless wife Arham, the wife who cannot give children to Arham. Just bother," he said, making Zahra clench her hand, holding the eret plate that Tanti had just returned.

Tanti was silent, she did not expect that this woman who was serving them was the first wife of the man who would be betrothed to her child, he said, Tanti could see the face of sadness and the trembling hands of Zahra and she fell silent.

Nasya smiled cynically at Zahra's appearance, 'His face is indeed beautiful. However, he looks more like a maid when viewed from his appearance.

'If this is the wife of Arham, I can easily get rid of her, ' Inner Nasya.

"Oh yeah! Zahra, meet Nasya. She will be the mother of Arham's children later, you must be kind to her. He will give us what you can't give us" said the mother stroking Nasya's hand, which sat nearby. Those words immediately stuck right in Zahra's heart. Not to mention seeing a second smile.

"Hi, meet me Nasya." Nasya channeled the hands. However, Zahra did not respond to him making Nasya again pull his hand. "Oh yeah, I've known Arham for a long time, we even had a relationship when we were in high school. Maybe I'm his first love, too, so I don't think our relationship will be difficult. I hope you will accept me" said Nasya.

"Mom, enough! Does it realize what mom just did to me. I'm the daughter-in-law of this house, none of this I deserve" Zahra looked at her in-laws.

"How dare you say that, who are you? Only a daughter-in-law doesn't know herself. A wife should be able to give offspring to her family, not just be a burden."

"Load? You see me as a burden. Do you forget that we are lawful husband and wife, not only in front of people, but also in front of God. Arham has promised me a wedding, Mom. I'm her responsibility, not the burden she's saying."

Hearing that Wani was silent, it was true that her son had married her and now she was the responsibility of her son.

"You are self-conscious. You are not worthy of being a daughter-in-law in this house. Arham has been responsible for you, taking you to live in this luxurious house, then what did you give him? just give a baby you can't." Cats Nasya.

"Nasya," Tanti said.

"Nasya's right. This family needs a woman who can give an heir." Wani looked at Zahra who was also staring at him.