I'M NOT YOUR DREAM
Chapter 10 The Loved Ones

This dream was a strange dream that happened so many times. Since then my heart has been covered with bad feelings. There was a feeling as if I was going to lose something precious. It's like it was before I lost someone who had a huge impact on my life. Someone who has educated me since I first lived in a boarding school.

A few years ago....

I'm still in school. In the final grade before the graduation exam. I was very close to him. She is the wife of the founder of the boarding school. People usually call Bu Nyai. In Javanese terms, Bu Nyai is the wife of a religious figure or called Kiyai.

Nyai Fatimah is very gentle, friendly and never angry. I have been close to Ms. Nyai since I first entered boarding school or people now call Pesantren. Nyai's mom is the same as my mom. Ms. Nyai is very attentive to all her students.

One day, Nyai's mother fell ill. Not so bad, not so unusual. After a few days of illness, Bu Nyai finally asked to be treated at the Hospital. So unknown, to the extent that Bu Nyai want to go alone to the Hospital at night. His daughter's son forbade him. Promised to take him to the hospital early in the morning.

The next morning his Son kept carrying Nyai to the Hospital early in the morning. I went to school. My friend Eva took care of Ms. Nyai at the hospital. Automatically all activities in Pesantren I handle. Nyai ma'am handed everything to me.

In the afternoon. Abah Yai, Son of Bu Nyai. The second successor to the Pesantren I occupied visited Ms Nyai to the Hospital. I'm the only Abdi Ndalem of course invited him to visit Bu Nyai. My heart's blossoming. Meeting Bu Nyai is something that is always in the waiting for the Santri. When I got there, I kissed the back of Nyai's hand. I don't know why something I was hoping for changed. My heart feels sad to see Nyai Miss who is lying weakly in the hospital bed. His skin is getting wrinkled unlike the Bu Nyai I've known for a few days. Yesterday a few days ago Nyai was still fresh despite her age. But today he coughed. There was an infusion tube on his nose and hands. My heart can't bear to see the current Miss Nyai.

That very night, Abah Yai decided to leave Me at the Hospital to accompany Eva to take care of Ms. Nyai. The night is getting late. Ms. Nyai kept coughing. Not only that, it turns out that there is something that Bu Nyai is hiding. He always rubbed the tip of his lips. It turns out I just realized. I saw it with my own eyes. It was because there was blood.

All night I was awake. Eva sometimes sleeps and sometimes wakes up. It was so sad that he was so tired. Arriving in the morning, I decided to return to Pesantren first. It has been three days there has been no sign of Bu Nyai immediately returning to Ndalem. Eva is still looking after Nyai at the Hospital.