I'M REINCARNATED AND I CAN'T BE HURT
THE PAST EDRIC I

EDRIC POV

Why do you look angry at your mom?

Why did you accept all of your anger without refuting?

Why won't you see me?

Why are you crying without saying anything?

Why is everyone just standing by and looking at me, laughing at me?

Why is everyone staring at me coldly?

Since childhood, I have obeyed only my mother and father's orders.

"Train the sword, to guard yourself." Mother's orders.

I comply.

"You're going to study politics? Wh why? Don't you just love swords? Learn the sword! Let your sister learn another." Emperor's orders.

I comply.

Then it wasn't long before mom got mad at dad because I didn't get an official education.

I just stood in the corner of the room bowing my head, hearing the quarrel of the two of them while the followers just silently watched the emperor and empress quarrel.

Not long after the followers drove me out so that the problem was not complicated because the quarrel of the empress and the emperor seemed to heat up. Still vividly remembered in my brain, their words.

"The first prince does not have a fixed establishment, how will he become the crown prince?"

"The emperor seemed to hate to see the first prince learn official education rather than the sword."

I looked at both my hands with sadness. "What should I do now?"

Does dad hate me?

I rubbed my eyes with all my might, wiping away the tears that were about to flow.

I was just following my parents' orders, why did they get into a fight and people blame me?

What do they expect from a ten year old boy?

"Sister!"

I raised my head and saw Isak's small and fat body, running towards me with a smile like the sun.

"Sister, why are you in the park alone?"

"I-i"

"Sister's practicing swords again? Big brother is indeed great, said those big brother would be a great crown prince."

I can't believe, they must have just licked.

"really?"

"Hm." Isak nodded quickly. "Someday you'll be a great crown prince."

I smile. "Do you not want to be the crown prince?"

"No, that's a position for brother. Why should I take the position of brother?"

I just smiled without answering Isak's question.

Everyone thinks I'm a gifted child in any field, especially the sword. Apparently dad didn't like me to close Isak's presence and told me to just learn the sword.

I can't argue because parents are always looking for a way of kindness for their children, but I was wrong.

As time went on, I began to understand that my father loved Isaac more than I did.

When I asked Dad, did he love me? He just kept quiet and answered nothing. It was precisely the queen who answered with laughter behind her expensive fan.

"The first prince was very quiet, did not have many friends and even thought of anything else when talking to the interlocutor. Can't you follow Isaac who is considered the sun?"

I could see a nod from the father who agreed with the queen's opinion while we had dinner and the empress had to rest because she was too tired with the long journey.

"The West, you are darkness and Isaac is light. Isn't Helcia the light of the sun? Why do people love the dark?"

In the empire, only the emperor defended the queen for now. Not in the future.

I started thinking about myself. Can't I be the light for Helcia?

After that dinner, the words of the queen were clearly embedded in my mind. I am the darkness and not the light for Helcia.

Are you too embarrassed to have a child like me?

"Sister, why are you quiet?"

It turns out I was daydreaming. "Sorry, I didn't hear."

"Sister is always so, is there anything you think?"

"No, sister's just tired."

"Tired? Then you have to rest and go back to the room." Isak pulled my hand to get up from the garden grass we were sitting on.

Look, in the empire only my younger brother cares. No one cares about me who is just the darkness of Helcia.

"Sobbing."

"Yes?"

"What if you become the crown prince? It seems like that position is much more suitable for you."

"Sister, don't say anything terrible. How can I replace a great brother?"

I put both of Isak's fat hands to his cheeks. "But, people consider you the sun and it seems like you are more suitable to be the crown prince than I am."

Isak looked sad when he looked at me.

At the age of twelve, the emperor called me and the little brother before the nobles.

"There is a problem at the border, it should be the second prince who was sent to the battlefield. Can you, Isak?"

Isak just knelt down and lowered his head, not daring to answer.

"Your Majesty, send a seven-year-old boy to the battlefield. Aren't you outrageous?" my many.

"Then who's gone? You?" ask the emperor.

The empress looks angry at the emperor. "What did the first prince say was true, how could you send a little boy to the battlefield?"

"I didn't tell them to jump in, just to lead the war so that imperial authority existed. Empress, the previous empire did not have many relatives, why so blame me? Does the empress want to send my family before marriage to the battlefield and take the lead?"

It's dangerous!

I don't agree if the emperor's family is leading the war. When they win, automatically the emperor and his family can get a but-place

I glanced at Isak who was still looking down in fear.

I was determined and spoke to the emperor. "I'll go."

The emperor frowned. "You're the one who left? Really true?"

I could see the empress' disappointed look at me.

Emperor laughs. "What about the crown prince? You can't just leave the empire."

I could see that dad was trying to frame mom and me, but this decision was a long time ago. "I'll give it to Isaac."

Isaac raised his head with a face full of tears and snot came out. "Sister!"

I smiled sadly. "You are the sun, Isaac. Unlike me who is just darkness."

Isaac hugged me tightly. "No, don't leave. Let me go."

The emperor cleared his throat and advised Isaac. "Your brother sacrificed in your place, Isaac. Don't forget the kindness of brother."

Isak nodded and hugged me heard closely, promising to be a good crown prince, taking my place.

I could only smile sadly, not daring to see the sadness on mom's face. I knew this was the plan of the father who wanted to drive me away from the empire because it was considered unattractive.

I was just a quiet child, a thinker and never close to anyone, even though I was just awkward to face new people and other people looked disinclined to me. I can't do much, it turns out that this weakness boomerangs for me.