I Refuse To Become Scumbag In Tokyo
Shiina Doubt

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Shiro-san, Ritsu, and Misaki also looked towards Shiina as they also wondered if it was okay for Shiina to give up all her achievements in the art world due to the manga.

"Mashiro, do you remember what I told you before?" Shishio asked.

"You have said that you are a color and you will color the world in your own color" Shiina said.

"What?!" 3x

Shiro-san, Ritsu, and Misaki were shocked and looked at Shishio in astonishment because this person's ambition was too great, right? However, when they thought about his abilities and dreams, they had a premonition that this person would actually be able to do so.

Shishio nodded and ignored everyone's reaction, staring straight at Shiina. "Mashiro, I always thought that my life should be colorful, and I never intended to set one goal for myself, or put myself in a certain circle, therefore, I never intended to set one, in the future, I won't just focus on cooking, painting, and painting. , or even scientific research."

Shishio's words were arrogant, but why did he not accept the system, and with that, there were many things that could be done in this world. This might sound unfair, but this world was unfair and he was also someone reincarnated in this world so it was normal for him to accept something that ordinary people did not have. Like people who have many connections can quickly rise to the rank of the company because they or their parents know the boss of the company so that his achievements are better than most ordinary people who do not have connections or what.

Shishio reincarnated and accepted the system, the moment he was reborn, his existence was already unjust so there was no harm in him having a great purpose.

Well, even though Shishio didn't get the system, he still believed that he could be a tycoon, after all, he could make popular apps and games from the previous world into this world.

"It's not that I don't want to, but I don't want to limit myself, after all, if I really did, my life would be very boring and there would be nothing interesting about it." Shishio paused for a moment, sorted out the words in his mind, and said, "Mashiro, you as a world-class painter, must also understand the process of creating the perfect painting, if you choose to remove most of the colors that should belong to him, then only one color will be left, what will it be?" He looked at Shiina who was deep in thought. "I do what I want to do, this is what I want and this is my life, I will not follow everyone's expectations and arrangements, otherwise, what's the point of living?"

"Shishio..." Shiina looked at Shishio with a serious expression.

"No matter what color we live in, I'll just let it be colored in my own color, instead of being eroded and synchronized by the surrounding colors."

After hearing Shishio's determination, Shiro-san, Shiina, Ritsu, and Misaki were stunned at the same time and felt that he might really reach his determination.

"Mashiro, if you want your canvas of life to be painted in your own colors, then you must understand the colors that you already have. Throwing away all the colors, and leaving behind all of your old self, now only white, is this kind of life that you really want?"

If Shishio is not mistaken in the original plot, Shiina chooses to break up with Sorata after graduating High School, after all during High School, she has a lot of disagreements on many occasions be it because of career, life issues, etc, or because of Sorata's inferiority, so after breaking up he left Japan and returned to England.

However, after four years of graduation, Shiina returns to Sakurasou again and reunites with Sorata.

So what happened during the four years that Shiina returned to the UK, and why has her name not been heard from in the art world in the past four years?

In the original story, after Sorata and Shiina broke up, Sorata never saw Mashiro's information in the art magazine or the news again after the two broke up, and it's not hard to see when Mashiro returns to England again, she's not the world-class painter she used to be, and she's lost her talent forever.

Shishio did not want to let Shiina go according to her plot, let alone when he thought Shiina would return to Sakurasou with a smile on the last page of his novel, he felt that something was missing from that smile.

Many people might feel moved by that smile, and they think that both Sorata and Shiina reconcile and become a couple once again, but many people ignore the fact that Sorata is attracting Shiina, who should have been an angel of the art world, drawing her into the mortal world, hoping to make her as ordinary as she was.

Sorata used his "Yasashi" (Others) again and personally cut off Shiina's wings, making him lose the ability to fly in the sky.

Sorata did happily hug the prettiest woman, but what about Shiina? When Rita Ainsworth came to Japan, why did Shiina seem hesitant?

When Shishio thought of the relationship between Sorata and Shiina, he suddenly recalled Hermoine Granger in "Harry Potter".

Hermoine was intelligent and omniscient, even though she was a girl born in an ordinary family, she did not care about the ridicule of those pure-blooded witches, either, and set his future goal as an Auror in the wizarding world, but what is it? final outcome?

In the final scene of the film, only changes and rustic dresses are left in Hermoine.

Besides being extremely loyal to Gryffindor, Ron Weasley, who lacked exceptional abilities, completely transformed Hermoine into an ordinary woman, a small staff member of the Ministry of Magic, and was this what Hermoine wanted? Maybe back then, other than Ron Weasley, he didn't have the ability to pursue anything else, or maybe there was another reason like the writer's plot hole?

"I asked doubtfully what book was more interesting than my own painting and he said happily that it was a manga, at that moment there was light and joy in his eyes, so I want to know what a manga is. and why is it more interesting than my own painting?"

"What?" 3x

Shiro-san, Ritsu, and Misaki looked at Shiina strangely as no one expected her to want to learn manga because of that one little boy.

"I wonder why manga is more interesting so I decided to learn how to draw manga," Shiina said all of that in a single breath, ignoring the reactions of Shiro-san, Ritsu, and Misaki, and looked at Shishio.

"Eh... Mashiro, even though what you said made sense, how would I feel if something went wrong?" Misaki rubbed her head dizzy and felt something was wrong with Shiina's words, but she wasn't sure where.

"Mashiro.i..." Ritsu looked at Shiina and was not sure what to say, after all, other than reading many books, she was just an ordinary girl, there was no way she could understand Shiina's matter, either, but when she saw Shiina like this, she could barely bear it and wanted to do something, but she had no idea.

Shiro-san knows where the problem is, but this is not the time to talk and he also wants to hear Shishio's answer.

"Mashiro, you're wrong" Shishio said as he shook his head.

"???" Shiina titled her head and looked at Shishio doubtfully.

"Mashiro, first of all, you make the mistake that no matter what people do, it is impossible for everyone to like it. Even your grandfather's work can't be liked by everyone, so you were wrong from the start" Shishio said helplessly.

"....." Shiina was a little confused.

"Mashiro, did you notice that at the exhibition, why was almost everyone interested in your painting, rather than the manga the boy read?" Shishio said and wondered how this girl could come to such a conclusion.

"Aah!" 2x

Ritsu and Misaki looked at Shishio in surprise, and finally understood where something was wrong, and both of them also knew what his words meant.

"After all, Mashiro, have you seriously considered that when you give up everything and go to Japan to study manga, will your job be as popular as ever?" Shishio smiled wryly. "Have you ever thought that everyone would treat your work as a manga read by that boy at an art fair when you returned to the art world? You should know that no one at the art fair pays attention to the little boy.or the manga in his hand." He knew that his words might sound cruel, but he did not want him to regret, so he had to be ruthless. "Now I ask you what do you really want again, Mashiro? Everyone's favorite painting or manga that's hidden in a corner and only read by one person?" He looked at the dazed and unhurried Shiina, waiting for her answer.

"What I... What do I want?" Shiina was stunned because she had never considered these things, at that moment, after seeing the boy at the exhibition, she always thought that after she learned manga, everyone would like her paintings, she said, and it was for this purpose that he chose to give up everything in the UK and came to Japan to study manga.

"What am I after. is the painting that everyone likes, the painting that hangs on the wall and everyone likes at the exhibition, so, I was wrong?" Shiina looked Shishio in the eyes blankly, wondering if her choice to come to Japan after she gave up was all wrong?

Shishio felt depressed, looked at the weak girl in front of him, and he could see that he was very surprised by her words.

"Mashiro, I'm sorry if my words might bother you, but I just really want to know what you really want in your heart because it's not too late now." Shishio sighed and wondered why no one had questioned Shiina this question in the story, however, it was a very simple question, but still, without Shiina, it was, then the original novel won't be popular, and it's probably one of the plot holes of the original author.

Shiina's head fell apart and she leaned against Shishio's chest, feeling a little better when she did this, she said, but no one said anything at the moment because they knew that this girl was very distressed and confused about everything.

Shishio looked at Shiina and knew that her words could cause her to return to the UK, but even if she was, it didn't matter, he was rich and coming to England or moving to England was a very simple thing.the thing for him, so at this moment, he was only wishing Shiina the best, after all, things, he was not contaminated by complicated emotions and he also did not come into contact with Sorata so it was not too late.

"Shishio-kun, you are so amazing..." Misaki looked at Shishio and really wondered what was inside Shishio's head.

"Mashiro.i..." Ritsu looked at Shiina and only hoped that this girl could get better.

Shiro-san can read the atmosphere and just observe everything in silence, after all, even though he is a pervert, he can read the atmosphere.

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