I Refuse To Become Scumbag In Tokyo
Ch - 182: Let's Be Truthful To Each Other

When this question came out of Shishio's mouth, various emotions instantly appeared on Saki's face.

There was shock, nervousness, anxiety, panic, and various other emotions appearing on his face, but all of them disappeared into a daze as he felt Shishio clasping his hand.

"Saki, I don't blame you, nor do I think what you're doing is wrong." Shishio held Saki's hand gently and said, "I confessed to you yesterday, and I also told you that you won't be the only one of mine. What I've done is selfish, so I'm fine if you're also selfish towards me." He stroked Saki's head gently and looked at the girl who was staring at him and seemed to be on the verge of crying.

She is selfish for trying to date several girls at once, so she doesn't blame Saki for being selfish, trying to take Nana down, remembering if she is in her place, she also wants to have her own partner for herself, which is why, so he doesn't blame her.

"I want to build trust in our relationship, and that's also why I always try to be honest with you. We know each other's secrets very well, so even though I know it's uncomfortable for you, I want you to at least tell me why your relationship with Nana can be so close in just a day? Can you tell me?"

Shishio feels that the most important thing in a relationship is communication.

So he had told Saki that he would not be the only one even though he could keep it a secret.

He still said it despite the risk that he might lose her, but no matter what he did, he would always try not to lie.

Although it might be a considerable hurdle for him, he also hoped that he would do the same.

"...You knew?" Saki asked while looking at him.

"All I know is that you have told Nana about my confession to you, but I don't know why you decided to tell her. Although I don't mind, I find it strange how your relationship could be so close so suddenly" Shishio said as he gently stroked her hair.

He then sighed and said, "You've made me a big trouble."

"...What's that girl doing?" Saki asked curiously, wondering what Nana had done to Shishio before.

Shishio then tells Saki what happened in the hospital and how Nana yelled and got angry at him, even slapped him twice, etc., trying to exaggerate in her own way.

Saki nodded and said, "I think you should be more than slapped."

"...." - ".Shishio's.

"So, how do you calm him down?" Saki asked curiously because after hearing Shishio's words, she knew that it was a big mess, but when she saw Nana, she saw Nana was very calm, which made him wonder what Shishio had done.

"I kissed her," Shishio said honestly.

"..." - ".Shishio's.

"...Can you at least lie to me?" Saki had an uncomfortable expression on her face.

Although he had kissed her before, he did so while she was sleeping, but this time it was different because it was Shishio who took the initiative and kissed Nana's lips.

"Do you want me to lie?" Shishio asked.

"No."

Saki shook her head without hesitation.

Her feelings were very contradictory, she did not want him to lie, but at the same time, she did not want to hear what he was doing with another girl.

If only Shishio could fully love her and date her alone, then that would be good, but she could not, and she also accepted it, even though it was difficult.

He had to admit that he was selfish, but love was always very complicated. Even though she knew that this man was evil and a bastard, she could not stop loving him.

Saki then looks at Shishio and finds out that he is always honest with her.

The truth may have hurt her, but it feels better than hearing her white lies, and that's probably the reason why she fell in love with him.

"Well, I'll tell you why we're so close." Saki took a deep breath and started telling Shishio what happened yesterday.

"...." - ".Shishio was at a loss for words as he listened to Saki's explanation because it was so unexpected.

Listening to Saki's explanation, Shishio barely believes it and his lips twitch when he thinks Nana and Saki want to date him.

If he knew, then he wouldn't work too hard, but then again, as a man, how could he wait for a girl to confess to him?

Lastly, if he let them confess, then there was no way for him to add more harems, right?

Other than a joke, no, it was not a joke, because she felt that if she said it was a joke, she felt that she was trampling on their feelings, given how many sacrifices they have made to say that they want to date her together.

Shishio had to admit that their determination touched him deeply, especially Nana who started this matter because she never expected Nana's feelings towards him to be so strong.

"...You are very lucky," Saki said with a complicated expression.

"Yes, I'm very lucky to have you to love me" Shishio said as he gently held Saki's hand.

He knew that he was very lucky because he could have all of this after he reincarnated, but only. he shook his head inwardly and decided not to think too much.

Saki's expression began to soften, and this time, she did not refute him because it was her true feelings. Instead, he looked at her and asked, "So, what are you doing with Nana?"

"I'll confess to him" Shishio said.

"...That's so..." Saki nodded and did not feel surprised by his decision.

Instead, he looked at her and thought about how Shishio had kissed Nana before.

He wanted her to kiss him, but he felt it was wrong for them to kiss each other so suddenly.

Shishio looked at Saki for a moment and asked, "Saki, do you love me?"

"Well?!" Saki's face was red, and gradually spread to her neck.

He wanted to refute her as usual, but he changed his mind and nodded when he saw her face.

"I love you."

"Then why didn't you accept my confession yesterday?" Shishio asked with a slight tease.

"Because you have said that I will not be the only one! It's all your fault!" Saki said all that in one breath.

"...."

Saki took a deep breath and said, "I love you, Shishio, but I want you to appreciate my feelings." She felt that if she received her confession yesterday, she would not be much different from other women in the future.

After all, he wanted to be the most special in his mind, even though he couldn't be the only one.

Shishio could not apologize in this situation because if he said it, it meant that he regretted his decision, so rather than regret, he had to say...

“No, I should be the one to thank you for giving and teaching me so many things. You have saved me, you have helped me, with you it's fun that makes my heart pound every time we meet, and I'm happy to love you too," saki said as she held Shishio's hand that stroked her cheek gently, enjoying her touch.

"...." - ".Shishio is confused, and if he can love this girl wholeheartedly, then that would be great, but he knows that he cannot give his heart to Saki alone.

"That's why I accepted Nana's proposal, and I want to be with you." Saki looked at Shishio and asked, "Shishio, what about you? Do you love me?"

"I'm ci--" Shishio felt those words get stuck in his mouth, and he could not say such a simple sentence to the beautiful girl in front of him because he knew very well what he felt towards her was not love but something else.

"I don't know."

Saki did not say anything and continued to stare at Shishio.

“The reason why I confessed to you is because I didn't want to lose you since yesterday, I feel like you would have gone a long way if I hadn't told you something, but I don't blame you. it's my selfish desire to have you, I just want you to be mine, and I don't want some other guy to have you." Shishio pressed his forehead against his body, looked into his eyes deeply, realized how lucky he was to have it, and asked, "Do you blame me?"

Saki blushed, hearing her deep voice say such domineering words, but she suppressed her feelings, and at the same time, was, she wondered if she was so easy that every word made her able to make her heart beat fast, but then she asked, "Do you love others?" Her heart was strangely calm when she asked this question because she wanted to know everything about him.

"....." Shishio recalled one person in his mind for a moment before he shook his head.

"No, I don't love anyone for now."

"For now?" Saki looked at her confused expression.

"Since I confess to you, I want to learn to love you" Shishio said.

Saki blushed and lowered her head timidly.

She hugged him and said, "I'll make you fall in love with me so you can only think of me from now on."

Sometimes, Shishio thought that he was the one who always teased her, but this time, it seemed like she received a reply, which made her blush, feeling a little embarrassed by her sincere words.

"I will." He hugged her back, put her face near her neck, smelling her warm and comfortable smell.

This was probably the first time he felt not alone in this world.

Seeing her hug him like a child, Saki smiled and did the same.

He had to admit that he was a very complicated man.

He teased her often, she often made his heart flutter, but sometimes, he showed her his weak side, which made him want to be by her side the whole time.

He doesn't know where this relationship is going, but one thing is for sure, he knows that he loves her.

The two then continued to sit on the bench while chatting with each other.

"I'm anticipating our date."

"Do you have a place you want to go?" Shishio asked.

"Now that you mention it, you're from Kyoto, right? You don't know many places here" Saki said because she only remembered that Shishio was from Kyoto.

"It's okay. I can search the internet" Shishio said.

"The internet?" Saki saw a strange expression.

"That's a great thing, and I'll do business off the internet later that way. I can dress you up in a secretary dress" Shishio said with a smile.

"A pervert!" Saki's face was red, and she thought this man was a pervert!

"Eh? You don't want to?" Shishio asked.

"Well.well, if you can really do business in the future, then I'll give it a try. I'm your secretary, right?" Saki was a bit embarrassed at that moment.

"Then I will start my business as soon as possible!" Shishio said without hesitation.

"...." - ".Saki was glad Shishio wanted to do business because it was better than him to join the underground fight arena.

Still, he felt that the man's goal of doing business was a bit wrong, which gave him a headache.

"...I hope this isn't some weird business." Still, he didn't take his words seriously because he thought he was joking, and even if he wasn't in business, he wouldn't mind wearing a secretary uniform.

Little does Saki know that Shishio is 100% serious that his intention to do business is to see him in the secretary uniform.

"Don't worry. This is for our future. There's no way I'm doing weird business, is there?" Shishio said with a smile.

"Fu - The Future?!" Saki blushed.

"I'll probably have a lot of kids in the future. So, isn't it obvious that I need to be rich?" Shishio.

"...." - ".Saki's.

*Ding dong!*

"Well, time really goes by very quickly." Shishio stood up and extended his hand.

"Let's go back?"

"Ms." Saki grabs Shishio's hand, walking back together.

Shishio looked at Saki, whose smile was so beautiful at the moment, and somehow it made her back heavy as if there was a huge rock on her back, but strangely, this burden was just right.

"How about we go to the aquarium?" ask Saki.

"certain."

Time quickly passed, and it was time for everyone to go home.

Nana looked at Shishio, who was standing right in front of her with a surprised expression.

"Let's get back together, Nana," Shishio said.

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