I Refuse To Become Scumbag In Tokyo
Ch - 168: I don't Want Half - Measures

Walking side by side, Shishio glanced at Saki, who was speechless.

She knew very well that this girl was not good at talking, but even so, it made her feel strange since she had not asked anything about her relationship with the other girls, but instead, it made her feel strange because she did not ask anything about her relationship with the other girls, although she reacted so much when she saw him with Nana before.

Shishio wonders what Saki said to Nana when she had left them before, but she knows that it doesn't really matter as she needs to confirm her feelings and tell the truth about her feelings.

On the other hand, Saki wasn't sure what to say to Shishio, especially after he spoke to Nana yesterday.

Although he said that they might share with him, there was no way he could talk about the matter, right?

Saki glanced at Shishio and wanted to ask a lot of things, but what she wanted to ask the most was what she thought of him?

'Shishio, what do you think of me?'

It was a very simple question, but Saki could not say it out loud.

The distance between them was so close, and if they only moved a little closer, their hands would touch each other, but he did not dare to do so until suddenly, Shishio held Saki's hand naturally.

Saki was surprised then saw the hand that was holding her hand.

He stared at her hand for a while, feeling quite complicated because he knew that Shishio had many close relationships with some girls, but more importantly, even though he did not want to feel these feelings, he said, he has to admit that he is happy.

Just by holding hands with each other, she felt her heart pound at this moment.

Saki was reminded of the warmth and feeling of being protected by him when they first met.

It was so comfortable and addictive that it made her not want to lose it, but she only held her hand twice, so he did not know what to do at this moment until he saw his fingers intertwined with his fingers naturally.

Saki could feel her slender and strong fingers through the gaps in each of her fingers, which somehow made her dizzy, but at the same time, it also made her confused as she did not expect that holding hands with him would be so much fun.

"You didn't ask me to let go of your hand?" Shishio asked while looking at Saki.

His movement by holding his hand so suddenly might be very bold, or rather, he might be slapped because he had done something so perverted to a girl, she said, but he did not regret his actions because he wanted to see his reaction.

He wanted to see if he would forcefully separate their hands or let her hold his.

Saki, who was feeling confused inside, quickly became calm when she heard his words.

Seeing Saki's reaction, Shishio knows that Saki is in a lot of conflict right now and doesn't know what to say to her.

He did not want to lie to her, and it was better to settle this matter directly so that there would be no feelings left between them. So whether he's going to accept what he has to do or he can't accept it, he's going to finish everything here.

"You've seen all those girls, haven't you? Like you, their relationship with me is very close to each other" Shishio said calmly.

Saki looked at Shishio for a moment and asked, "...Do you have feelings for them?" His voice was somewhat trembling, and he did not look at her, looking down at her feet.

"No."

When those words fell, Saki looked at Shishio in surprise.

"If I say that, I'll lie, but I can't give my heart to someone so easily" Shishio said as he watched the sunset in the distance.

Falling in love with someone is so painful, Shishio has died and becomes Shishio Oga.

Even though it had been about a month, he would have lied if he had not missed his previous life.

She misses her family, she misses her friends, and she misses her boyfriend.

It hurts when he thinks that he can't see them again, and he'll get ...

Shishio shakes his head and knows that he has to move on, and the easiest way is to fall in love with another girl, but suddenly he received a system that could give him various gifts that he could not think of.

Shishio can earn various extraordinary rewards that can only appear in fantasy by making out with a girl, although at first he feels disgusted.

However, as his life progressed, he knew that there might be a chance he would gain the strength to return to his world again, although the chances were small since most of the gifts he had obtained were talent, strengthening his body, strengthening his body, assets, etc.

Still, even if Shishio doesn't gain the power to travel to a different world, he may be able to develop technology that helps him to travel to a different world, after all, with all the talent he received, it was possible. , moreover after getting “Machinery Mastery”, he even thought of developing Doraemon gadgets with this talent.

However, to be sure, Shishio knows that he must let go of his past and move on because there are many people waiting for him.

"I am like this. I'm the worst kind of guy, even though what I'm about to say might make you hate me or even beat me up, but I still have to say this." Shishio stopped, looked straight at Saki, and said, "Saki, I can't give my whole heart to you, but even so, I want you to be mine."

Shishio feels too pitiful when he thinks that he should make all the girls who have feelings for him wait until he says goodbye, especially when she saw Saki's sad expression back then so even though she knew it was wrong, she knew that she had to break the rules she made for herself.

"....."

Saki looked at Shishio in surprise and would never have expected that he would confess like this.

His heart was pounding, and he was happy, but at the same time, he knew that he would not be the only one, and that made him very complex and wanted to defeat him somehow.

In her mind, Saki often thought about what it was like when she didn't meet him because she might not feel like this.

The bad emotions he felt in his heart would not happen when he thought that he would be together with other girls.

However, at the same time, she was also happy to meet him because this was the first time he could depend on someone, and for the first time, he was in love with someone.

"...You bastard," Saki said in a low voice, looking coldly at Shishio.

"I know." Shishio nodded calmly.

"You have made me like this, you have helped me, you have saved me, you have solved all my problems, and you have made me depend on you, so you think that I can accept your relationship with another girl by saying that to me, right?" Saki said coldly, but tears kept dripping from her eyes.

Shishio nodded despite his heavy heart and said, "Yes, I am indeed a bastard. I deserve to be hated by you for playing with your heart, so let's get things done here, you can either reject me or accept me, but even if you reject me, you don't have to worry, you don't have to, even if we split up now, I will help with the cost of your education and even your brothers, so you won't have to work late at night anymore."

He just wanted to run away from her now and scream, but he couldn't because his hand held her tighter.

Shishio shook his head gently and wiped his tears with his thumb.

"Of course not, I've never thought of you that way, and all I want is to help you."

"...Why are you always so gentle with me?" If Shishio is not so gentle with her, Saki can slap her cheeks, kick her nuts, punch her in the face, then quickly return to her house, but after what happened between them, he can't do all that.

"Isn't the reason clear?" Shishio said while looking at Saki.

Her heart was so heavy now that she knew that she was hurting him, but she knew that there was no turning back.

He had decided to walk down this path, and the brief pain was better than a half-hearted feeling.

"...." - ".Saki looked at Shishio, blushed, and was almost affected by his words, but then she shook her head and said, "I can't make a decision right now." Everything happened so quickly, and he felt that if he stayed here any longer, he would probably directly approve of his words, but he did not want that.

He wanted to reaffirm his feelings first, and even though he said that he could share them with Nana, when it happened so suddenly, his heart could not accept it for a while.

Saki wanted to monopolize him, she wanted him alone, and she didn't want to share it with anyone, so she couldn't accept this confession right away until she confirmed her feelings.

Shishio nodded and said, "Then how about we go on a date?"

"Date?" Saki looked at Shishio doubtfully as she did not understand why they were dating what happened today.

"Let's go on a date next week, so before that date, I want you to confirm your feelings, think about this carefully because if you accept it, then I won't let you go, because I'm quite possessive," shishio said in a whisper in Saki's ear.

Saki immediately blushed and felt her body go limp for a moment.

Shishio chuckled when he saw Saki's reaction and said, "I'm kidding, but I want you to think about it. Let's go on a date on Sunday." She thinks that she should finish her novel before Sunday, and at that time, she can say a simple "I love you" to Saki because she can't say that right now.

"...You...!" Saki knows that this guy is a bastard!

Saki looked at him for a while, sighed, and said, "Then let's go on a date."

"Good." Shishio smiled happily.

Seeing her smile, Saki snorted and said, "I haven't agreed to your confession yet!"

"It's okay, I know you won't take it easy, but my feelings are serious" Shishio said as he looked towards Saki.

"If you're serious, then you should date me alone!" Saki said without mercy.

"...." - ".Shishio could not say anything to refute.

Saki snorted but was satisfied when she saw him in silence.

"I want to go back."

"Then I will send you back," Shishio said without hesitation.

"...." - ".Saki looked at Shishio for a bit and nodded slowly.

Shishio smiled and said, "Saki, you're so beautiful when you're angry."

"...Are you happy to tease me?" Saki looked at Shishio with a displeased look.

"Yes." Yeah." Shishio nodded without hesitation.

Saki sighed and said, "...Should I reject you now?"

"You want to reject me?" Shishio asked.

"........." Saki's.

Shishio looked at Saki, and although he felt guilty for using his feelings, he knew that he could not regret it, and what he could do was move forward and make her happy.

"Let's talk about the date, is there a place you want to go?" Shishio asked while looking at Saki.

"Why are we talking about this now?!" Saki was surprised and blushed.

"Of course, it's because I'm excited. After all, this will be our first date" Shishio said with a smile.

"....." Saki somehow wanted to fight back, but when she saw this smile, she knew that she could not, and knew that she had fallen so deep, she said, but he was unwilling to accept his confession because of the current heat.

He wanted to confirm and calm himself down first before he accepted everything because it was not an easy decision for him.

Looking at Shishio, who is holding her hand, Saki knows that she is unable to escape, but does she want to escape?

Saki will not answer that question now, but she will answer that question on their first date later.

He looked at Shishio.

Then he threw away his face with a blush while wondering what it was like when he didn't meet her?

Will he be in pain? Or will he be happy?

Saki wasn't sure, but she just wanted to enjoy this moment now.

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