I Want Forever
Episode 23

This morning Ayunda escorted Satrio to where Ayunda taught, as if there was no problem in his heart with the professional teaching children. Yes his ideals of wanting to become a Kindergarten teacher have been achieved. Even if I want to go back to school, that is impossible.

Ayunda passed the day very hard, the night Satrio did not pick himself up. Ah.. Maybe her husband is busy with his affair. Ayunda tried to be strong, patient and sincere if Satrio wanted to marry again.

"I must be strong, patient and sincere if this is Your guidance. " The inner power of Ayunda felt her pain and tears unstoppable.

A few days later Satrio came back to pick up his wife and said he was out of town B where the affair was working and it really hurt to see the look of a happy face on Satrio's face.

"I used to feel loved by my husband. " Batin Ayunda when he saw Satrio telling a story.

"Aa tuh want to buy you shoes for ngajar, uh angry Novi go ninggalin Aa. Well, that's right if you have a wife of two. " Said Satrio who smiled.

"Yank, Ayunda does not forbid ayank to marry again, in Islam also allows. But if the needs of the first wife are met and able. Aja aja not able to meet the needs of Ayunda, how can you marry again. " Said Ayunda stroked Satrio's hair.

"Well, would you allow Aa to remarry? " Tanya Satrio looked up.

"InsyaAlloh Ayunda allows the origin of Aa is able to provide and meet all the needs of all of us. And maybe this is all God's will, Ayunda InsyaAlloh sincerely and patiently accept all the decisions that Ayunda received. " Answer Ayunda.

"You're very patient with Aa. " Said Satrio. Ayunda just smiled faintly.

This week Ayunda was secretly in touch with Dedy, although there is fear in the heart of Ayunda if her husband knows Ayunda is also having an affair. But does Satrio feel guilty too?

This morning Ayunda and Satrio had a big fight, Satrio hit Ayunda like a man of infidelity. His mother's father scolded Satrio and tried to calm Ayunda down.

"If you don't leave this house, let me go. " Satrio pointed his hand at Ayunda's face.

"No need to go, let Ayunda go because this is not the house of Ayunda. " Said Ayunda who tidied up her clothes.

"And don't pay attention to me, because I don't need to. " Satrio put pressure at the end of his speech.

"Aa is Ayunda's husband and remains Ayunda's husband at any time. " Inst Ayunda though ill in such treatment by her own husband.

Then Ayunda called someone who had become a destroyer of his household.

"You've ruined my household? Huh... " She cried Ayunda in the woman's ear.

"Now you can be happy, but don't forget that God doesn't sleep. Allaah is omniscient to hear and grant the do'a of wives who are despised like me. Someday you and my husband will feel more pain than I do. " Said Ayunda who hung up her phone.

Ayunda came home with a shunt and wanted to go away from Satrio's life that had made him sick. But his heart could not hate the man who had made him fall in love.

One month Ayunda and Satrio separated the house and separated the bed, he is now learning strong even though his heart is fragile. Although Dedy always gave him encouragement and support.

This morning Ayunda finished praying because Dedy built it by calling Ayunda. Apparently there are still people who love Ayunda besides her parents.

"Today we go out yuk, neng. " Said Dedy who called.

"Lazy ah, A. " Ayunda.

"What loving someone is like this huh, pain huh A. " Said Ayunda who was sad.

"Neng, when will neng see Aa who loves you? " Tanya Dedy's.

"Sorry, but you can't love someone else. " Answer Ayunda.

"Learn to open your heart to Aa. Although Aa is not your first love, let Aa be your last. " Said Dedy.

Ayunda just quietly heard Dedy talking, no matter what feelings Ayunda felt on Dedy. But when with Dedy Ayunda feel comfortable and calm.

This Sunday Ayunda will meet with Dedy who whines to meet, actually Ayunda is lazy but he does not want to disappoint people who have sincerely loved him. After the appointment at the usual place meet. Ayunda invited to his house, his house is very minimalist there is a car parked in the garage and looks quiet atmosphere.

"This is Aa's house? " Tanya Ayunda who got off the bike and went inside. Dedy just nodded and smiled.

Then Dedy went into his room and approached Ayunda who was sitting on the sofa while watching television that had been turned on by Dedy.

"This.. " Said Dedy who handed a file to Ayunda's lap.

"What'sthis? " Tanya Ayunda read them one by one.

"That's the certificate of home, BPKB motor car and Aa deposit. And all make neng changed in the name of neng all, if neng want to accept Aa married with Aa. " Said Dedy who rubbed his head and tucked the child's hair that covered Ayunda's forehead.

"For me, A. " Said Ayunda astonished.

"It's 3 million money for neng to sue for divorce neng husband, and this deposit for neng college to become a teacher like neng said if his ideals want to be a teacher. " Said Dedy again who held the hand of Ayunda.

Ayunda does not believe in all this, not the treasure he wants but compassion, love and understanding.

"Ayunda can not accept this A, to be honest with Aa Ayunda sure that Ayunda's husband will try and will be a good husband. " Said Ayunda.

"Until when, neng? " Tanya Dedy breathed her rough breath.

"That's it, but Ayunda feels very comfortable when close to Aa. Ayunda is still a wife of people, A. " Ayunda.

"Aa knows that and Aa wants you to belong to Aa. That man does not deserve your love, he has hurt your heart and your physique. Until when do you keep going like this. Haaah.. " Said Dedy who kept holding Ayunda's hand.

Ayunda was silent and said nothing, then Dedy took him into his arms and Ayunda felt the warmth of a male Dedy Atmanegara who had only two months Ayunda knew him.

Can Dedy replace Satrio in Ayunda's heart? Ayunda himself never knew what he felt for Dedy, which must have been a sense of comfort when close and talking together.

Ayunda's heart can not be denied that he still loves Satrio very much. Ayunda believes Satrio will one day change, be patient.. Well.. Ayunda must be able to patiently face everything, because all this is a trial and test in a marriage.

Ayunda's confidence made the men who hoped to have Ayunda seem disappointed. But Ayunda tried not to make her feel hurt because of Ayunda's rejection.