If Love is not Angry
Chapter 41's

Ze woke up to the sound of adzan magrib. It was as if he was aware of the mistake he had made.

The smooth snoring of the man lying beside her made her turn her head, observing the face that was sleeping soundly of her. His face looked satisfied.

Slowly Ze raised Saka's hand which was coiled around her stomach and then started to lower her leg. A throbbing pain felt in the core of his body. Lips grimacing.

Now she has become a real adult woman, but unfortunately she goes through it with sin.

Hate Saka after everything they've done?

It is impossible, because they did it without any coercion from Saka. Even one of them was conscious, and should have stopped him, but he didn't. It means Saka he didn't force her.

Ze forced himself to move, ignoring the agonizing pain. A bloodstain scar was seen on top of his light blue bed sheet. Just a little, but enough to explain the current state that is no longer a virgin.

Ze washed his face, watered his body with cold water, ridding his body of the sins he had committed. Instead of water it could purify itself again, but the guilt re-spawned his heart.

He intentionally lingered in the bathroom. His heart knocked for him to immediately speak to the owner of the life, apologizing for his khilaf, but he felt unworthy of the great sin he committed.

Tears dripped down his cheeks again, mixed with the patters of tears. Cowering under the cold water.

"Oh my God, what have I done? Why can I go so far? Why am I so stupid?" Ze continued to curse himself, lamenting what had happened, befriending him with tears.

Tired of her crying, Ze walked out of the room. His feelings were mixed, not wanting to see Saka, but the deepest corner of his heart just wanted to be embraced by the man. Saka who had plucked it, caused pain, but instead wanted the man to treat it.

Struggling with anxiety, he finally chose to come out. His heart grew when he saw that the bed was empty.

His body immediately slumped on the wall of the room until sitting on the floor. Caught up in great pain. What did he expect from Saka? What kind of attitude did he expect the man to show? Who himself? He's a nobody, even after what they did a few hours ago!

Ze's crying broke. Wasted and feeling contemptible. Can you imagine if he was as broken as he is today? That piece of destruction hurt him, piercing the deepest recesses of his heart that would be very difficult to recover.

***

Saka blinked his eyes. A few moments to clear his mind. The sun behind the curtains of his room had already risen to the top, shining all over the world and a beam of light was trying to peer through the cracks of the windows.

Back is often a phone that since half an hour keeps ringing trying to wake her up. Without looking, Saja reached out to the nightstand and took his phone, read the name on the screen.

Airin's!

Back Saka pinched his temple. He still wanted to sleep, his head was very sore, his body felt aching as if bones were being pulled from his body. But he realized, Airin would not give up before he answered the call.

"Rin..."

"Where are you going, anyway? Why don't you pick up my phone?" tanya Airin snapped a little. He was in the fog thinking about Saka. Wanted to fly to his house, but he was still pinned.

Tomorrow they will get married, it's natural that she is worried that Saka is missing.

"Sorrys. I overslept. What's the matter, Rin?" Saka rubbed his face with one hand. Listening to the woman nagging seemed to make her head hurt even more.

"Nothing. Just want to make sure you don't run away!"

Saka kept his phone away from his ears, staring in amazement at the screen as if he could see the face of his future wife.

Airin could have thought about that. Is that a thin feeling of trust?

"Airin, stop that weird thought of yours!"

Thinking about it made him even more upset. But retried, still did not find the missing memory fragment.

***

"You why? From that cocksucker?" tanya Wati nudged Ze's arm. The two walked side by side down the sellers in the market. It had been half an hour of shopping, but it was still not finished buying all the materials they were looking for.

"Sir papa. Just a little dizzy and not feeling well," Ze replied trying to smile.

"If we go home. You haven't had breakfast either, maybe you catch a cold." Wati dragged Ze's arm, speeding up their steps. Ze had to bite his lower lip when the pain on his back jerked because of the rapid movement of steps.

"But, Wat, there's still something we have to buy. As if buying a carrot ordered by Oma," Ze said.

"You wait here for breakfast. I bought carrots inside." Wati leaves Ze at a stall near a big road.

Ze just nodded. It's better, than he goes around again. Ze really had no appetite even though his stomach was very hungry.

"Order what, Neng?" ask the owner of the lontong shop.

"Seek some warm sweet tea, ma'am."

Ze drifted back into his mind, unaware that someone had been watching him since.

"Nara's... You're Zenara, right? What's here again?"

Ze's face paled. If it had looked like someone who had anemia, now when looking at each other with the owner of the voice, Ze increasingly paled like a corpse.

"Max!"

"What are you doing here? Why are you getting thinner and looking shabby?" Max takes his place in front of Ze until the girl can't run away to escape the man.

"I... I'm...." What should Ze say? She's confused. Why meet Max now? In this place? Ze is not ready!

"Zenara, hey! You why? How can you be a dazed person? How can you be here?" Max touches Ze's cheek gently, but the girl immediately pulls away.

"I-I should be, why are you here?" Ze was already able to control himself even though his heart was still pounding.

"I? Can't I be here? I'll accompany Mama shopping with bi Inem."

"I mean, why in this town? Are you not in Singapore anymore?" Damnit damnit! Ze's heart is pounding. After waiting for a long meeting with Max, why exactly when he was so bad?

"I'm on holiday. What are you, anyway? Why could it be here? Yesterday I went to your house, my stepmother said you were on vacation with your friends to Hawaii."

Ze took a heavy breath. So far away from home, he forgot to have a home.

"He lied, I ran away from home!" ze said frankly. "I beg you not to tell anyone, especially my family if we meet here!" Ze was so compassionate that Max was pitied.

Max just stared intently at Ze. She misses the girl so much, coming home only to meet her first love.

"Nara, I miss you so much." Max clasped Ze's tanga on the table.

"Is that true, Max? Do you think I don't know your affection for Nura?"