If Love is not Angry
Chapter 47's

Ze's pale face was still not gone, as if his blood flow had stopped flowing in the body. He tried to sort through all the sentences the midwife had just said. It's hard to believe, but the medic couldn't have been joking with him.

An hour ago Ze passed out in his boarding room Max rented. The man offered to help when Ze said there was no destination. Max had already brought her home, but she refused, and as agreed, she wanted to be given two days to think. So, Max took the initiative to rent a boarding room that was complete with furniture in it, to live Ze for two days.

Ze agrees. He also has no purpose, after all this place is quite far from Oma's house, a place he believes is safe enough to hide.

However, this morning, while waiting for Max to come to see him, Ze who intended to buy breakfast fell unconscious in front of the boarding gate, until rushed to the nearest midwife clinic for first aid.

"W-w-w-w-w-w-w-w-w-w-w-w-w-w-w-w-w-w-w-w-w-w-w-w-w-w-w-w-w-w-w-w-w-w-w-w-w-w-w-w-w-w-w-w-w-w-w-w-w-w-w-w-w-w-w-w-w-w-w-w-w-w-w-w-w-w-w-w-w-w-w-w-w-w-w-w-w-w-?" asked Ze squeezing the side of her dress. Hope the midwife is willing to double check.

"I'm very sure, Ma'am. It's true, Mommy's six weeks pregnant. Lack of food intake and also lack of enough rest makes Mbak fainted. Low blood pressure, you should rest a lot, and keep the diet, so that the baby's grandpa is healthy. Has the papa been told that Mbak is here?"

None of the midwives' questions Ze wanted to answer. He even chose to overturn the table even the bed in the room.

The news really shook his soul. Pregnant said? Oh, my God, that's right. What's he supposed to do? Getting pregnant?

The goldenness of his hand on the side of his shirt tightened even more, a motion engulfing his soul. He did not want this baby, did not expect it at all! Especially at this time his life is not clear the direction of his goal.

How could she have raised the child while unmarried without a job, money or place to live.

"Mr? Is there anything else you want to ask?" the motherly midwife's reprimand blew her daydream.

Slowly Ze shook his head, not even wanting to discuss about the fetus that was currently developing in his womb.

No one can help him now. The only way his spirit would return was to disappear the baby.

"Well, then, I make the prescription and the cure first. Later there will be a fetal booster vitamin, eaten yes, Ma'am," continued the midwife smiling before passing.

Ze's defense is destroyed. Being alone in the room gave him room to curse all his past deeds. Only lulled in love with the man, he gave himself up until there was a fetus in his stomach.

Crying fired. Biting hard on the white blanket that covered half of his body when he fainted earlier. Confused and desperate too.

"What should I do? Is this a punishment from the Power?" his mind wiped away the tears that spilled, but still poured out profusely.

Had her mother been alive, she was sure her mother would have calmed her down by now.

It took some thought to go home to Mahesa, holding Saka accountable, but remember Airin, it was impossible.

It made her frustration even more perfect. His chest tight, until difficult to breathe, plus the fluid in his nose clogs his respiratory tract.

Or, did he just go back to his father's house? Apologizing and telling her all the current circumstances? Let him be scolded and even scolded, if his father wants to take him back. Currently the fear of being killed Mira has become a fear of umpteenth at this time.

However, he remembered Max's words, his father was sick at this time. Coming up with this news definitely made his father's health even worse.

The reflection in the mirror made him aware, not having time to regret and lament everything that had happened. This was his doing, so he had to take responsibility for the result.

"I'd better go back to Oma's house, asking for Saka's responsibility. It's up to him to say what to his wife, which is clear, he has to take responsibility. This child has the result of both actions, why am I the only one who bears?" his his hisses solidified his heart.

After making up his mind, Ze resigned after paying and redeeming the medicine from the midwife. In a taxi he went to Mahesa's house.

Just as he arrived in front of the house, Ze got off. From the front of the gate that was not guarded by Mr. Komar, Ze stared at the nanar of the magnificent building.

He misses Oma, Wati, even Tuti. And above all, she missed the man who had already successfully planted a fetus in her womb, even though upon his departure from this house, she hated and was angry at Saka.

His gaze caught the figure of Saka coming out from inside the house. Reflex, Ze retreated, hiding behind a fence, a little away from the gate but could clearly see the figure of the man.

It seemed that Saka was about to leave, looking neat and dragging her suitcase.

"It's an opportunity for you to talk, before Saka leaves," inner Ze.

Just about to step forward, suddenly Airin's figure caught up, she pulled Saka's hand until the man turned to look at her.

Without hesitation, Airin cupped the two cheeks of Saka, and fused their lips together. Long and deep.

Ze's heart was scratched again. His heart was broken into pieces. There was nothing more he expected here.

Imagining her conveying about her pregnancy, surely Saka would not accept the presence of the child. Perhaps even, he did not acknowledge the child that Ze had conceived as his flesh blood.

Ze turned his face away, unwilling to see that heart-wrenching scene.

"Curse you, Saka! I won't forgive you!" the screech immediately ran from there.

What Ze witnessed did not all correspond to what he had in mind. Saka planned to leave the house, as it could not stand Airin.

These few days as well he had already searched for Ze to the corner of this city. Without rest, tirelessly, but still the result is nil, as if Ze managed to hide himself in a corner of the city that could not be found.

"Let go!" exclaiming Saka pulled himself from the confinement of Airin who forced him to kiss her. The girl thought that by giving a kiss to Saka, the man would melt and not leave.

Great moments continue to happen between them. Airin does not accept it because Saka spends her time looking for Ze.

"I don't want to. Please don't leave me, Saka! I love you so much" whined Airin. His life is almost at the end of the horn.

"I need to take my own time, Airin. I want to be alone. You stay here with Oma, or if you don't like it, you can go back to the apartment, stay with your parents!"

It was only the last word from Saka before leaving to leave the woman with a lump of regret in her heart.