Infidelity
21. Feeling Not Deserving!

Cal's face looks hard. He did not expect Marsha to forget so quickly. He looked deeper at Marsha as if making sure this woman's love for him had faded.

"Have you slept with her, too, Marsha?"

"It's none of your business?"

"You look so cheap."

"Yes, I'm a cheap girl. Then what do you care?"

"I thought you would choose to be loyal to me until I could leave my wife to come back with you."

"Have you ever made that promise to me? Have you never cried pleading with me not to disturb your household? Now that I have complied with your will then what do you expect from me? Being a stupid woman and being called an actor by your wife?" Marsha replies and pulls Excel's wrists, who listen to their debates.

"Take me out of here Excel!" Marsha said holding a clear grain that almost wanted to fall.

The two were already in the elevator to the basement to pick up the car.

Marsha roared loudly inside the Excel car holding back her pain. He felt a deep regret for giving up his body to Cal just wanting to feel the sweetness of making love.

Excel pulls Marsha's body into his arms. He wants to give peace to Marsha who currently looks angry with her own circumstances.

"Why do you care about Excel? I am a dirty and disgusting woman. I'm cheap and I don't feel worthy of any man."

Marsha said in the warm embrace of this mobster.

"Am I having a problem with your mass, Marsha? I am not a holy man either. But I want to have you, I will not dictate the course of your life. Every human being has their own life choices."

Excel's words assure her love for Marsha.

"Why should I? Aren't there a lot of single girls you could choose to be your wife?"

"I prefer you and they're not on my list. Don't complicate things too much. Because I know you like me." Guess Excel confidently.

"But I'm not ready to marry you even if I like you." Firmly Marsha feels inappropriate for Excel.

"Being the widow's status doesn't taste good to Marsha. Your face is very beautiful with your body is very proportional like a model, you will be the target of any man.

They'll demean you and don't care how much you take care of yourself." Excel Word.

"I don't care about their judgment. I live by my own abilities. They are no better than me."

"Don't be too stubborn Marsha! You still need a man with you. You are smart, but your heart is weak."

"I still need time. My Iddah time is forty days away. That is what is organized in religion. Give me time to determine my attitude!" Pinta Marsha with a gloomy face.

Soon Excel's car entered Marsha's apartment. Excel sends Marsha to her lady's apartment.

Marsha is still shocked by Cal's words to her. His heart still felt the pain of how Cal had rejected him.

"It just needs my body. He doesn't really love me. He just seduced me. I expected too much of him. What about the divorce? Is all this my responsibility? I'm so disgusting." Marsha said to herself.

The tears are back flowing. Right now what he wants to do is take sleeping pills but he is still confused by his sleeping pills just disappeared from his bag.

"I think I forgot something. I want to go out for a minute." Said Marsha who wanted to buy sleeping pills at the pharmacy under the floor of her apartment.

"Do you have to take a sleeping pill first to forget about your problem?" Guess Excel.

Marsha asked who had suspected it was Excel because the waiter would not dare to tamper with his bag let alone his son Al who had been prank to do it.

"Stop running away from reality. If you're too hurtful to Cal, why not reward him in such an ingenious way? Remember...! He humbled you in front of me so that I would stay away from you that way, he easily got you back at all costs."

Imbuh Excel awakens Marsha to Cal's rotten intentions to his woman.

"Is that why you dared to tell her I was your future wife?"

"Of course, baby! That's all I have in mind." Excel say steady.

Marsha. He is confused what else to say to Excel with himself that is not appropriate for anyone let alone Excel a man who is too valuable for him.

"Do you want to avenge your heartache on him?"

"I want to destroy it on this earth." His heart was so full of revenge

"Marry me so that your revenge is avenged. I know he loves you so much, it's just his guts aren't brave enough to let go of his wife because of their daughter.

Now their marriage has run aground because of your affair.

He ends up confused by his own choice except to come back to you again. I know he loves you very much, Marsha."

"No. neither he nor you. I don't want to get married again. I'm already tired. I want to raise my son. Please understand Cell." Lirih Marsha then slept on the long sofa in the living room.

"I'm not forcing you anytime soon Marsha. I just want to protect you by marrying you even if you don't love me." Excel talks tired of persuading Marsha.

"I'm sorry Cell!"

Marsha finally fell asleep. He cried too much for thinking about his life. An affair that brought disaster in his life.

There is no justification whatsoever for anyone who commits an affair. In the end he had to pay a heavy price for what he was currently experiencing. God is not sleeping. A proper reply will be received by the perpetrator.

Excel cradles Marsha's body into the room. He understood Marsha's feelings very well at this time. Feelings of guilt and loss also accumulate in his brain.

"I won't let you bear your own wounds, dear. Anyhow I'll marry you even if you refuse me many times." Excel Gumam.

While Cal went berserk in his room. He didn't take Marsha for granted to belong to someone else.

He gave up his daughter in foster care by his ex-wife Farah. Leaving his wife is not easy because of their daughter.

Now he can no longer have both. Neither Marsha nor Farah.

"I'll make the calculation with you Excel. Let's see who Marsha will choose. You're still her candidate not her husband.

That way I still have a chance to get my women again. Marsha is the woman of my dreams.

Whatever is in him becomes the standard of all men's dreams." Cal muttered while grinning like a demon.

Marsha blinked her eyes, she saw Excel still lying on the long sofa in her room.

"Why is this guy so stubborn. I almost died of fright with the gossip of others, but he just casually accompanied me here. In my room again." Gumam Marsha.

Marsha's coming down to near Excel. Marsha looks closely at Excel's face.

"It turns out he's very handsome." Marsha is heard by Excel who apparently does not sleep.