KANAYA
02. zayn aldrich's.

They all fell silent and just looked at me, except for Erni. At first glance I saw a smile on his face that made me even more fed up with this situation.

“Neng, why are you talking about it? What's the problem?” said Tini's Mother.

“Yes, you can say fine if there is a problem. Don't make a big decision. You've been dating for five years.” Timpal.

“I'm not the one who should have cleared up this matter to you, but Rian.” My word.

Now everyone turned their eyes to Rian. He just lowered his face. Many times Tini's mother asked what our problems were but Rian did not dare to say anything. Ernie stood up from his chair. He looked at me and approached me. His hand violently pulled my hand.

“What do you want? Want to embarrass me with Rian?” whisky Erni.

I pulled my hand back and looked at him sharply. I never thought he would dare to treat her like this after what he did.

“I have no intention of humiliating you, instead I will make your way easier. So you better shut up, understand?” my grit.

She's speechless. I see he's getting more agitated. I think he really wanted to stop my actions but he didn't dare to. I also continued my words.

“Rian, it's not me who should explain this, it's you. Do you need me to tell you all this?” my many.

Rian looked at me with a clear face. It was as if he didn't want me to reveal the truth. But I don't care. What he did to me is more painful than what I am doing right now.

“You want to know why I want this wedding cancelled? Because Erni is pregnant with Rian's child.”

There was a shriek from the voices of the mothers sitting in the living room, including my mother. Tini's mother seemed to not believe my words and tried to find answers directly from her son's lips. Rian was unable to speak but he nodded then lowered his head even deeper.  Tini's mother cried and thrashed after knowing the truth. He repeatedly hit Rian's body which was just sitting limp. The sound of crying did not escape from Erni's mother who knew that her child was pregnant before marriage.

“Yes Allah is distrustful, what is wrong mother to the point that you make your mother this shame, Son.” Said Tini's mother while crying bitterly.

I feel sorry for both of Rian's parents. I was so close to them that I could not bear to see those who were so sad and beaten. But I realized it wasn't time for me to feel sorry for them. I should have pityed myself. The marriage that I dreamed of and wanted all this time had to run aground in the middle of the road. Rian got up from his chair and walked up to me. He held both hands while kissing her. I immediately pulled both of my hands and moved away from him but he continued to approach me.

“Nay, I'm sorry about this. But we don't have to cancel the wedding we've been waiting for. We've been dating for five years and you want to cancel our wedding?” rian.

“You think I still want to continue this marriage? You must be responsible for your actions as Erni. You two should be in charge!” angry say.

“Yes, yes, I know. You don't have to worry, I'll take responsibility. But we have to stay married, okay?”

“What?”

“Nay, I will still marry you. I can marry you and Erni at once. Good idea, right?”

Without a second thought, I hit Rian hard with the strength I had. Rian whimpered in pain but I didn't pay him any heed. Erni suddenly approaches and protects Rian with her body. I accidentally hit Erni on the back and she whimpered in pain. I stopped my punch too. I saw Rian watching Erni and asked her how she was. Rian looked at me as if he couldn't believe I could do that to him and Erni. I glared at him and he looked down in fear. I didn't think about what was in Rian's brain to the point that he intended to marry me and Erni at once.

“Listen to everything, I think this talk is enough. Please you guys get out of here.” My words don't care.

Tini's mother and her husband pulled Rian home, as did Erni's parents. I, who was usually friendly to Rian's parents, could only take my eyes off without saying goodbye. My eyes started to heat up, it felt like my tears were almost spilled but I tried to hold it. Tony took my hand and accompanied me into my room. I heard the sound of my mother crying while cursing in Sundanese. I know his heart hurts more than mine but I have no choice but to do this. I don't want this problem to be more complicated. I am grateful that God still loves me and gives me guidance so that I do not choose the wrong path. I know I should have explained things to mom and dad but right now I just want to be alone in my room. I cried again on the bed, lamenting my sorrow and my current fate. I don't know how long I cried so I fell asleep because I was tired.

The morning sunlight that infiltrated through the cracks of my room curtain felt so blinding. I woke up and sat on my bed. My eyes were still half closed because I still felt sleepiness. I just realized that crying all night made me feel tired and have a headache. I tried to open my eyes wide but I couldn't do it. It's not that I'm sleepy but there's something wrong with my eyes. I tried to walk towards the mirror that was not far from my bed.  With great difficulty due to my eyes that were almost tightly closed, I finally managed to get in front of the mirror. I saw in the mirror my face was so horrible. My eyes looked swollen and a little reddened. Spontaneously, I screamed to see the current state of my face. I heard the sound of half-footed footsteps running into my room which happened to be unlocked.

“Yes Allah, Nay. What are your eyes?” said Mother.

I heard Tony giggling at my current condition. I asked Tony to stop laughing at me and I told him to take an ice cube and a spoon. My mother let me out of the room. Slowly, I went out of the room to the family room.  I heard the sound of ice cubes coming from the kitchen and I thought Tony had taken the ice cubes and spoons I ordered. Tony gave it to mom and stuck the ice directly in my eyes.

“Aduh, Mom, sick.” Whiney.

“Hemm... Why is your fate like this, Nay. What are the mistakes and sins of the mother to the extent that the mother's child experiences this kind of thing.” His word.

“Udahlah, Ma. How to do again.” Sissy me.

“Mother doesn't think, how can Rian after all be the same as you. Same with Erni. Erni is known as a child who pendiem, well, dirut, kok yes can be impregnated with Rian. He also won't meet you.”

I just shook my head without saying a word. Mom kept putting ice cubes in my eyes. After feeling better, I hurried to pick up my phone and contact the Event Organizer who was handling my wedding. It took me half an hour to explain the matter about the marriage cancellation to EO and I was finally able to breathe a sigh of relief. I lay down on the living room couch with my cell phone still in my grasp. I closed my eyes for a while to recover from the swelling. Suddenly I heard a knock on the door and opened my eyes. I was so surprised when I opened my eyes, Rian was already sitting beside me. With her innocent face she looked at me as if last night was meaningless.

“Ngapain you come here? Go home!” I said without further ado.

“Nay, don't be so rude to me. I'm gonna talk to you for a second. It's about our wedding plans. Tomorrow, loh.” He relaxed while smiling.

I think he's totally crazy. I took a deep breath and took it out slowly. I repeated it a few times until the cobbleness in my heart subsided a little.

“What else? All of them I've canceled.” My word.

“What? Why did you cancel?” said surprised.

“Iya, lah. We ‘kan not to be married, why do I continue? I cancel everything!”

“Darling, why are you canceling, anyway? We can still get married. I can't marry Erni now anyway. I have a plan, we're still married. Later if Erin has given birth, our son will grow up together. How darling?”

“Rian, you are crazy, yes?”

Rian continued to chatter about his crazy ideas when Erin came. His face was instantly sour when he saw me with Rian. I'm getting sick of both of them.

“Rian! Why are you here?” erin was angry.

“I'm talking to my future wife again. What are you doing here?” ask Rian back.

“Rian, I'm your future wife, not her. Now that I'm pregnant with your child and you're still ngarep-ngarep her!”

“She's my future wife, Erin. You're the one who broke our wedding plans.”

“You two can be quiet! My God, I could have a sudden stroke because of you guys. Now, get the hell out of here! Fast!” expirku.

Rian kept begging me not to cancel the marriage while Erin kept blaming myself for Rian. I was so frustrated by the noise they made that I pushed them out of the house. It seemed like the commotion they made was heard by Father who was behind the house until he approached us. I never saw him get angry but this time he was furious when he saw Rian's face. He took a broom not far from the living room and hit Rian many times until Rian and Erin came out of the house. His jaw hardened as if holding all his anger. I pulled Dad's arm and repeatedly asked him to hold back. I know it looks like he wanted to curse Rian but he didn't. Erin pulled and took Rian away from my house. My father stopped running amok and stared intently at Rian, making sure he would never come back here again. Dad looked at me with a sad look and hugged me. I know his heart is as broken as mine. I hugged him without saying a word. I don't know why I felt guilty about her even though I realized this wasn't entirely my fault.

In the afternoon I asked Tony to drive me to the city to book a trip back to Jakarta. I decided to go back even though my cut is not over. I think I better calm my mind in Jakarta than I should be in the same place as that “sampah” Rian. My father and mother agreed with my decision and tomorrow I returned to Jakarta using travel. I sent a Whatsapp message to my group of friends about my marriage annulment. On my way home my phone was unceasingly ringing. I think it's a message from friends who want to ask me about my wedding being canceled. I don't care about it. I decided to close my eyes during the trip.