KANAYA
50. Only guesses.

A few days had passed but Kanaya still asked zayn to remarry to make them constantly quarrel even for now zayn prefers to sleep in the workspace rather than rooming with his wife.

Mama Elva had invited her to talk and persuade her but Kanaya still asked for it to zayn.

Zayn went into the room about to prepare medicine for kanaya but he saw Kanaya standing on the balcony unaware of her presence, “Definitely daydreaming again,” murmured zayn.

Slowly he approached the kanaya and hugged her from behind, zayn smelling the scent of kanaya's body that he had longed for lately.

“Zayn,” call kanaya slowly.

“Hmm.”

“Are you still angry with me?” kanaya turned to look at zayn.

Zayn held onto both cheeks and kissed her lips for so long, “From yesterday I wasn't angry with you, but I was so upset every time you asked for that weird thing with me.”

“Zayn,” call her.

“Before you speak any strange thing and make me finally angry with you, answer my question first! Why did you ask me to marry again? Do you not love me anymore? Or maybe I have something wrong with you?”

Kanaya shook her head, “I love you so much zayn and you also have no wrong to me.”

“Then try to explain what the reason is?”

“That's because I can't give you a child zayn.”

“Hah?” looks like Zayn's still processing his wife's words.

“Co-try say more clearly!”

“I can not give you a child zayn, I can not conceive anymore so I ask you to marry again,” he said half yelling.

Of course zayn was surprised, “We did lose our baby kanaya, but that doesn't mean I have to remarry with someone else because I can still get her with you later even though it all takes time.”

“But I've been unable to give you a descendant zayn.”

“What do you mean? Don't you want to have children with me again?” zayn seems to be getting upset.

“I want I really want zayn, but I can't have her anymore because of the miscarriage that caused me to not be able to get pregnant again,” kanaya sobbed in zayn's arms.

“Wait to let me digest what you said just now, why can you conclude that you can't get pregnant again?” zayn invites Kanaya to sit down first and gives her a glass of water to calm down and then hugs her again.

“At that time I had seen a movie on television, so the story of her woman was in a big pregnancy and she had a calamity that caused the woman to miscarry.”

“After that the doctor told the couple that the wife could not have children anymore because her uterus had been lifted.”

“At first the husband received her but not long before she was caught marrying again without the knowledge of the wife and when asked she said her reason if she also wanted to have a baby.”

Kanaya stared at zayn with teary eyes, “I'm afraid you are like that then her than you betrayed me better I asked you to marry again.”

Zayn immediately let go of his embrace then looked at his confused kanaya whether he wanted to get angry or laugh now, “Ekhm,” zayn sighed in order to control his emotions.

“So you asked me to remarry just because of the fim you saw?”

Kanaya nodded, “Actually I overheard you talking to the doctor and the doctor said I couldn't get pregnant, hearing it made me feel so sad then I went back to my room.”

“Hah, like her I had to take the television out of this room,” zayn stared at the object with a rectangular shape attached to that wall.

“My wife has really been poisoned by bad impressions.”

“So you suspect that you can not get pregnant again because of the doctor's speech that you only heard at a glance and supported by the film you saw?” kanaya nodded.

Zayn sighed harshly, “What is it because this is also you daydreaming and crying continuously from yesterday?” kanaya nodded again.

“Jeez, how do I explain her yes?”

“So like this, when we want to go home the doctor told me that I have to fast first until your condition is completely restored and you can not get pregnant again in the near future does not mean you can not get pregnant for the next.”

“So I can still get pregnant?”

“Hah, like the impact on your head is really severe to make you stupid like this.”

“Have I wanted to play chess with burhan sir if you need anything you can call me,” zayn kissed his forehead and then came out of the room.

After zayn left Kanaya sat pensively recalling her silly request to zayn a few days ago, kanaya is so embarrassed especially when they both fight mama elva to beg Kanaya so that she does not ask zayn to marry again.

“I am indeed very stupid,” his grouse.

While in the living room mama elva laughed after hearing an explanation from zayn regarding Kanaya's strange request.

“But mama can't stop laughing,” her mouth on the sidelines of her laughter.

After taking a deep breath and taking out her slowly mama elva was a little calmer, “So her silence was at that time because of this?” zayn nodded.

“Yes,” mama elva chuckles.

...°°°°...

The night Zayn went into the room to bring dinner for kanaya, zayn chuckled at the sight of kanaya falling asleep so soundly.

Zayn sighed, “It looks like you're relieved now huh? Even you snore like this.”

Zayn put the tray on the small table beside the bed then woke up kanaya, “Kanaya,” call zayn while patting his cheek slowly.

Kanaya opened her eyes slowly but she instantly covered her face with a pillow, there was a sound of laughter from zayn when she saw his wife being embarrassed like that.

Hearing zayn laugh kanaya immediately wake up and hit slowly zayn body, “Iya yes I will not laugh anymore,” but still zayn can not hold it.

“If you still want to laugh go there!” pissed her.

Zayn hugged kanaya body, “I'm sorry, how about you eat first then take your medicine.”

“You want me to feed or eat by yourself?” tanya zayn let go of her hug.

“Eat by yourself.”

“Alright let me help move to sofa.”

Kanaya ate her dinner while occasionally looking at the zayn who was playing the phone next to her, feeling noticed zayn looked up and smiled.

“What's up? You want something?”

Kanaya immediately shook her head and continued eating, after finishing her meal, she tidied up the dirty dishes.

“Kanaya.”

“Hmm.”

“If if I granted your wish yesterday, would you not feel sad?”

“Sadness lah.”

“Originally you know if you really can't give me a child like you thought, I won't marry again even if you want a pushy mama, I prefer to adopt a baby than I have to start a new relationship with another woman.”

“I don't fall in love easily, since I took over the earthshine group I'm not even interested in being tied up in a relationship, but after meeting you his strange wall that I set up in my heart began to erode slowly.”

Zayn clasped his hands and looked at him so deeply, “I beg you not to ask me that silly thing again, I only love you kanaya.”

Kanaya nodded, “I'm sorry zayn.”

Zayn hugged kanaya, “Now if I turn back, will you leave me when you know I can't give you offspring, will you leave me?” kanaya immediately shook her head.

“I love you so much kanaya,” zayn kiss kanaya lips the longer the kiss goes deeper.

“Already, if it goes on again I can not control myself, oh yes do you want to see the tomb of our baby?”

“Yes, I want to see her.”

“Alright tomorrow I will take you there, now rest there is still work to do, good night dear,” zayn kissed the canaya forehead.

...°°°°

...

The next morning, Zayn invites Kanaya to go to the place where her baby is in the tomb, zayn helps the kanaya who is limping towards the tiny tomb next to the navel of the late brother and his papa zayn.

“I buried our son here so that my father and brother would keep him there, the three of them were the most valuable people in my life, sorry I buried our son here without your consent.”

“Nothing zayn, most importantly our son is happy there with his grandfather and uncle,” kanaya rest in front of their navel.

“Honey, even though your presence is only a short time but mom is very happy to have been pregnant with you for four months,” said Kanaya with teary eyes.

“Be happy there mom and dad always pray for you, then we say yes.”

Zayn took Kanaya back to the car and away from the funeral, occasionally wiping away her tears and sobbing while touching her stomach.

Zayn clasped Kanaya's hand to strengthen her after that she returned to focus with the street in front of her.