Love In Tragedy
Chapter 48. Not wanting to regret.

Inside his room, Erick sat leaning on his bed. He thought very hard as his hands continued to move around twirling his phone. Erick looked back at Biqha's words this afternoon.

flashback to a few hours earlier.

While on the sidelines of their lunch, Biqha who had previously been silent to witness Erick's silence, finally ventured to ask.

" Rhik... bholheh hakhu thanyha sheshuhathu? "

Erick raised his head staring at Biqha flatly. Then he nodded small.

" As long as it has nothing to do with personal matters. I don't want to talk about that. "

Biqha again fell silent at Erick's cold response. Seeing that Biqha had no voice after Erick answered his question, Erick could have guessed that the thing Biqha wanted to ask was definitely related to his personal matter.

" When did you become fond of kepo as well as other people's personal problems Bi ? "

" Mhahaf. Hakhu ghak bhermhakshud bheghithu. Hakhu chumha shedhikhith khephikhirhan hajha. Shebherhapha phelhiknyha mhashalhah hantharha khamhu dhan hayhahmhu? Shamphai shethahun lhebhih bherlhalhu. "

(Sorry. I didn't mean that. I just had a little thought. How weird is the problem between you and your father? Until more than a year passed, you still could not make peace, and forgive each other. )

Erick tried to be indifferent by continuing to eat his food.

" Apha khamhu thidhak inghin bherhushaha bherdhamhai dhenghan hayhahmhu? " (Didn't you want to make peace with your father? )

Erick took a deep breath, after which placed his spoon onto the plate.

" Do you think I'm as cool as this? I don't want to believe Bi either. But I have no other choice. "

Erick breathed in his annoyance, leaning his body weakly against the chair he was sitting in.

" He doesn't even want to see me as his son anymore. He has revoked all my rights as part of his family. He trusted others more than his own son, his flesh and blood. "

The longer it went, the more Erick's voice grew weak and began to tremble. Although Biqha could not hear, but she could see it from the tremors of her lips. Look at Erick's soft eyes and look down. As his eyes began to turn red and hot, Erick immediately turned his face away from Biqha.

Erick didn't want to look weak, let alone that in front of Biqha. But how hard he tried to cover it up, Biqha could see the sadness in his eyes. For the first time Biqha saw the fragile figure of Erick.

Several times Erick took a deep breath in order to control his emotions and feelings. After feeling quite calm he turned back to Biqha, but he did not want to look directly at his face.

" Have forgotten it. Quickly finish your meal ! So we can get back to the office. "

Erick spoke formally and decisively. Act like a superior to subordinates, so that Biqha stops talking about him.

" Jhujhurlhah Rhick....! Khamhu mhenchemhaskhan khehadhaan hayhahmhu khan?" (Just be Rick...! You are worried about your father's situation right?! )

Erick again breathed an annoyed breath and turned his face away from Biqha, as the girl was unwilling to stop discussing her matter. A second later he returned to face Biqha, but Erick was still reluctant to look at her face.

" Please Bi..... My emotions are unstable right now. So don't say things that can provoke my anger. "

" Hakhu thahu's. Kharnha hithu dharhi thadhi khamhu. Thaphi hakhu jhugha bhisha mhelhihat dhenghan jhelhas, khalhau khamhu dhiam bhukhan hanyha kharhenha emhoshi. Thaphi jhugha kharhenha khamhu chemhas mhemhikhirkhan khondhishi hayhahmhu khan?! "

(I know. Because you were silent from that moment. But I can also see clearly, if you are silent not only because of emotions. But also because you are anxious to think about your father's condition right?! )

" Stop knowing Biqha ! "

Erick's emotions began to be provoked. Not only was his voice rising, his sharp gaze was also aimed at Biqha. Makes Biqha flinch instantly. Biqha was silent for a moment. But then Biqha spoke again. It wasn't that he didn't care about Erick's anger that he just didn't want Erick to continue to fidget about his father's health.

" Hakhu mhelhihatnyha dhenghan shanghat jhelhas. Ekhspreshimhu bherhubhah, shahat mhenghar khabhar thenthang hayhahmhu yhang shemphat dhirhawhat. Mhulhutmhu bhisha mhengingkharhinyha Rhik, thaphi mhathamhu ghak bhisha bhohong. "

(I saw it very clearly. Your expression changed, when you heard about your father who had been treated. Your mouth can deny Rick, but your eyes can't lie. )

Erick again threw his face aside avoiding Biqha's gaze. Upset, angry, but also in his heart, Erick could not refute Biqha's words. He was only able to take a few deep breaths to control his feelings.

" Rhym.... Hakhu thahu khamhu ghak bhuthuh sharhan dharhikhu. Thaphi shebhaghai themhan, akhu hanyha inghin mhembherhimhu ghambharhan aghar khamhu bhisha mherhenhungkhannyha. Jhanghan shampoo khamhu mherhashakhan phenyheshalhan mhenthalham. "

( Rick... I know you don't need my advice. But as a friend, I just want to give you a picture so you can reflect on it. Do not let you feel deep regret later.)

" Khitha ghak phernhah thahu bhathas ushia shesheorhang Rick..... Kharnha ihthu, mhanfhahatkhanlhah whakthu shebhahik mhungkihn, shelaghi khamhu mhashih phunyha kheshemphathan hithu. Khalhau khamhu mhenghwhwhwhwhwhirkhan hayhahmhu, ghak hadha shalhahnyha khamhu mhenjhenguknyha. Hathau shethidhaknyha hubhungi dhia, dhan thanyhakhan lhangshung khehadhahannyha. Hayhahmhu phasthi akhan shenhang mhendhengar shuarhamhu. "

(We never know someone's age limit Rick.... Therefore, make the most of your time while you still have that opportunity. If you're worried about your father, there's no harm in you visiting him. Or at least call him, and ask him directly. Your father would love to hear your voice. )

" You don't know who my papa Bi is.... He is a stone-hearted man. "

Although the speech from his mouth was very spicy, but his lips trembled and his eyes reddened as he said it. Biqha looked at Erick with teary eyes. He felt Erick's reddened eyes hint at a deep sadness and longing. Biqha was deeply concerned about the father and son's relationship.

" Shekherhas-kherhasnyha hathi ohrhangthua, dhia phasthi mhemhilhikhi khashih shayhang yhang thulhus huntuhuk ahnhaknyha. Bhahkhan khemharhahannyha hithu phun mherhuphakhan bhenthuk dharhi khashih shayhangha. Chobhalhah hituhuk mhembhukha khomhunhikhashi dhenghan hayhahmhu Rick....! Khalhau khalhian shamha-shamha bherkherhas hathi, dhan thidhak hadha yhang mhenchobha mhenchobha mhemhulhai khomhunhikhashi shengikh mhenghakhis jharhak dhiantharha khalhian. Shamphai khaphan? "

(As hard as a parent, he must have genuine affection for his child. Even his anger was a form of affection. Try to open up communication with your father Rick....! If you are both insistent, and no one wants to try to start communication and erode the distance between you. When will you arrive?)

Erick still remained reluctant to look Biqha in the face. He threw his face to the side, as if unwilling to hear Biqha's words at all.

" Shekharhang ushiha phaphamhu jhugha hudhah ghak mhudha lhaghi, kheshehathannyha jhughan hakhan mhenhurhun shehirhing bherthambhahnyha ushia. Bhelhihau hakhan shemhakhin rhentha Rhik, shihapha yhang hakhan mhenhophangha shahat dhia shudhah thidhak mhamphu bherdhirhi theghak lhaghaghi? Khamhu shathu - shathunyha phutrha yhang dhia mhilhikhi. Khamhu adhalhah thumphuhan harhaphannyha Rhik..... "

(Now that your father is not young anymore, his health will also decline with age. He's getting older Rick, who's gonna support him when he's not able to stand up straight anymore? You're the only son he has. You are Rick's hope.... )

Erick was still not struggling, but the words that Biqha spoke disturbed his heart until his eyes were filled with tears. Not wanting Biqha to see that, Erick turned his face back.

" Jhanghan shampoo nhanthi khamhu mhenyheshal shepherthikhu......" (Don't let you regret it like I did.... )

Erick scrunched his forehead hearing Biqha's last sentence, with a weakened and quivering voice. Then he moved his head back to face Biqha, looking at her as if asking.

" shejhak awhal mhashuk khulhiah, hakhu shudhah sherhing khalhi mhelhihat ibhu shepherthi mhenhahan rhasha shakhit. Whajhahnyha sherhing see phuchat. Thaphi shethihap khalhi khamhi mhenhanyhakhannyha, ibhu shelhalhu bhilhang khalhau dhia bhahik-bhahik hajha. Chumha shedhikhit lhelhah hathau phalhinghan chumha mhashuk hangin. Dhan shethelhah hithu, hakhu hakhan lhangshung pherchayha dhan hikhut mhenganghap hentheng rhasha shakhit yhang ibhu rhashain. "

(Since the beginning of college, I've often seen my mother withstanding pain. His face often looks pale. But every time we asked her, she always said she was okay. Just a little tired or at most just catching a cold. And after that, I will immediately believe and take the pain lightly. )

Biqha told me a little stammered, because it began to sob when crying in memory of his beloved mother.

" Abhu ghak phernhah mhengelhuh phadha khamhi. Thaphi shebhaghai anhak therrhua, harhusnyha hakhu thahu khalhau ibhu shenghajha menhahan rhasha shakhitnyha dhemhi khamhi. Ibhu shudhah bherjhuang shanghat kherhas hunthuk khamhi. Thaphi hakhu jhustrhu shibhuk dhenghan urhushankhu shendhirhi. Hakhu therlhalhu shibhuk dhenghan nhilhai-nhilhaikhu, shampoo hakhu thidhak mhempherhathikhannyha. Thidhak mhengherthi mhungkhin kharnha dhia mhshih shanghat bhelhia shahat hithu, thaphi hakhu..... Hakhu shudhah lhebhih dhewhasha, harhusnyha hakhu bhisha mhengherthi, iyha khan?! "

(Mom never complained to us. But as the oldest child, I should have known that mother deliberately held back her sense of pocket for our sake. My mother fought so hard for us. But I was busy with my own business. I was too busy with my values, until I didn't notice. Rendra didn't understand, maybe because she was very young at the time, but I..... I'm more mature, I should be able to understand, right?! )

The tears were no longer able to be contained, sobs Biqha was increasingly becoming. Erick was increasingly unable to contain his sadness, hearing the regret Biqha felt. As Erick's tears trickled down the corner of his eye, Erick quickly turned his face to the side.

" Hakhu mhenyheshal Rick...... Shehandhainyha hakhu lhebhih phekha dhan lhebhih pherhathian phadha ibhu, mhungkhin khamhi bhisha mhenghanthishiphashi phenyhithitnyha lhebhih hawhal. Dhenghan bheghithu khamhi mhungkhin bhisha mhemhilhikhi whakthu lhebhih lhamha lhaghaghi dhenghannyha. "

(I'm sorry Rick...... Had I been more sensitive and more attentive to mom, maybe we could have anticipated her illness earlier. That way we might be able to have even longer with him. )

Biqha lowered her head by silencing her own mouth, to hold back her sobbing. After a few seconds of being swept away in the pain of his regret. Biqha then wiped away the remains of tears on both sides of her cheeks in turn. Biqha took a deep breath to relieve the tightness in her chest.

" kharnha hithu Rick's.... Khalhau khamhu mhenchemhaskhan khehadahan phaphamhu, jhanghan thungghu whakthu lhamha lhaghi hunthuk mhenhanyhakhan lhangshung khondhishinyha. Khalhau khamhu mherhindhukhan khelhuarghamhu, jhanghan rhaghu dhan shegherhalhah themhui mherhekha. Kharnha whakthu yhang bherlhalhu thidhak hakhan khembhalhi lhaghi Rick.... Khamhu phasthi hakhan mhenyheshal, shahat khamhu thidhak lhaghi mhemhilhikhi kheshemphathan hithu. "

(Because it's Rick..... If you are worried about the state of your father, do not wait longer to ask directly his condition. If you miss your family, don't hesitate and go see them. Because the time that passes will not come back Rick.... You will regret it when you no longer have that chance. )

Flashback.

Erick's tears flowed again, remembering in detail the words of advice from Biqha. After wiping his tears, Erick took a deep breath. Then Erick picked up his old phone and looked for his father's contact number.

Once again Erick took a deep breath, steadying his determination to call his papa. Prepare your heart and soul well. Because he knew, the response he would receive, might not be in line with his expectations.

When the call was connected, Erick was glued to it. His mouth suddenly became muddled. He didn't think that it would take him long, but his father would answer his phone call. However Erick's facial expression suddenly turned cold. I don't know what Erick heard from there, but his facial expression clearly illustrates that the response from the father was not what he expected.

" Asalamualaik..... Sorry to interrupt your time. I'm calling you just want to know how you're doing. I heard that a few days ago you were hospitalized. Thank goodness you're okay now. I hope that in the future, you will take better care of your health. Please don't be too perfectionist. You have a lot of people you can trust and trust in your company. So don't over-examine yourself. Take time to rest for a while. "

Erick paused for a moment listening to the response of his interlocutor over there. Not long after, his eyes turned red, and his jaw hardened for a moment.

" Sorry. But you misunderstood. I have no intention other than to ask you. If you are not pleased.... I'm really sorry. I-i know..... I no longer have the right to that. And this is in violation of our agreement. But anyway.I am your flesh and blood. I will be worried about your situation when I hear bad news about you. Sorry to interrupt your time. Assalamualaikum....."

Erick disconnects his phone call and throws his phone into the bed. Then he held onto his forehead, then slowly his hands came down covering his eyes. His shoulders shook and his body slowly curled up. Erick sobbed crying over his fate in solitude.

Although the results were not good, and Erick became injured again for following the advice of Biqha. Erick did not regret it in the least. Because he was more unwilling to feel the image Biqha had said. Erick doesn't want to regret it.