Love In Tragedy
Chapter 52. Not like before.

After speaking with Biqha, Erick plans to take Yoga to lunch together and talk to her. But when Erick called Yoga's secretary to ask about his boss's schedule, the director's secretary said that his boss did not enter the office today.

Erick came out of his room and saw Biqha walking alone without a friend.

" Where are Lo Bi's friends....? Don't you have lunch with them? "

Erick asked as soon as he got near Biqha, who was waiting for the elevator door to open.

" Mherhekha shudhah lhebhih dhulhu thurhun. Kharnha hakhu thadhi harhus mhenyhelheshaikhan phekherjhahankhu dhulhu. " (they have already come down. Because I had to finish my job first. )

" How about if you come with me, we eat in the place of mang udin? " Rose Erick on Biqha.

" Bhukhannyha thadhi khamhu bhilhang khamhu hakhan bhicharha shamha Yhogha shihang hinhi jhugha? " (Don't you just say you're going to talk to Yoga this afternoon? )

" He didn't go to work today. His secretary said he asked him to rearrange his schedule today, because he was not fit. So maybe I'll just go home from work and meet him at his house. "

Biqha pondered for a moment thinking about the state of Yoga. After that Biqha finally decided to come with Erick. Because he was also saturated with the curiosity of his two female colleagues, who since last night kept asking him, about what happened last night.

Arriving at the Mang udin, they immediately ordered their favorite meatballs.Along the trip there was no talk at all. Biqha was busy with her own thoughts. And Erick was trying to understand Biqha's situation, so he left her pensive along the way.

" Bhaghaimhanha khalhau Yhogha mhashih hajha kherhas khephalha dhan thidhak mhahu mhendhengarkhanmhu? " (What if Yoga is stubborn and does not listen to you? )

Biqha finally opened her voice, while waiting for the food they ordered. Erick paused for a moment, then sighed fretfully with a glaring look. Erick shook his head weakly.

" I'm not really sure either.... Yoga is going to take my word now. But as friends, we must try to remind when our friends make mistakes, right? And that's what we're working on. If he persists, we have no choice but to act decisively to him."

Erick turned his eyes back to Biqha.

" Maybe the decision you make is the best path. But I think.. this is not fair to Lo Bi. after a long time, you can finally realize your ideals to become office employees. Getting a good job with the right salary, the most important thing can help the family economy. A very simple goal. But you have to take it off because of the attitude of the childish Yoga. "

Erick still vividly remembers the ideals that Biqha expressed first, when they were discussing the future dreams. If Erick deliberately mocked Biqha by mentioning his ideals are not good quality, only to make Biqha upset. Now they are adults, and Erick understands why Biqha has such simple ideals.

Not by being pessimistic, but by being realistic. With a physical condition that has shortcomings, Biqha is well aware there will be a big obstacle for him if he dreams too high. It was hard for him to gain recognition for his abilities.

Even as a child he was expelled from school because he was considered unable to compete with his friends, after he lost his hearing. Making his parents forced to put him into an extraordinary school, because no public school would accept him. Make the mental Biqha small getting down.

With the spirit and support of her father and mother, Biqha was able to accept her condition and come back cheerful. It took a very hard struggle for Biqha to be able to continue her education in public school after graduating from elementary school. That's also he still has to get bullying from his friends at school.

That's why Biqha doesn't want to dream too high. Most importantly for him he can help his mother make money, in order to ease the burden of the mother.

Recalling that, Biqha pulled a slight corner of her lips bitterly.

" Hakhu bhisha mhendhaphatkhan phekherjhahan hinhi jhugha hanyha kharnha Yhogha. Khalhau bhukhan kharnha..... Mhungkhin hakhu ghak hakhan phernhah bhisha. " (i was able to get this job also just because of Yoga. If it wasn't for him..... Maybe I'll never be able to. )

Erick was speechless hearing the pessimistic words from Biqha. He was concerned about the fate of his best friend.

" But you managed to prove you were worthy of Bi...... Even Diana's mom was so heavy she wanted to let you go."

Erick tried to encourage Biqha.

" Truely, Miss Diana can directly grant your resignation request if she wants to. But he did not do it, because it feels very unfortunate if the company loses employees as well as lo.

" Jhanghan shok mhenghiburkhu Rhik..... Hithu mhembhuhatmhu jhadhi khelhihathan hanheh. " (Don't be pretentious to cheer me up, Rick.... It makes you look weird. )

Erick immediately put on an unacceptable face by closing his lips, while staring intently at Biqha.

" Who would comfort you ? I'm talking facts. Diana said that. "

" Shohalnyha khan dhulhu khamhu hithu shukha nyhebhelhin. Dhulhu hajha khamhu bhilhang chitha - chithakhu ghak mhuthu. Shekharhang khamhu mhahu. Hanheh khan....?! " (you used to like to bummer. In the past you said my ideals are not quality. Now you're defending me. Weird right....?! )

" Who did you think? I'm talking about what it is. Besides having hearing problems, you also have problems with vision..... You can't see, I've been a good person. I love to misunderstand me. "

" Dhih's......."

Now it is Biqha's turn to put on an unacceptable face with Erick's words.

" We are now adults.... Time to argue and fight just like before. "

Biqha's facial expression changed instantly.

" The iyha khamhu bhenher. Thengsh Rhik's....! " (Yes you are. Thank's Rick.... ! )

" What? " said Erick pretending not to listen.

" Mhakhashih.. udhah mhahu mhembhelhakhu dhan mhembhanthukhu shelhamha hinhi." (thank you.... I've been willing to defend me and help me all this time. )

Erick starts on his sleazy and ignorant mode, which deliberately replies to Biqha's previous remarks. Biqha also suddenly glanced back at Erick sharply, with her lips tightened and pulled back. Erick immediately chuckled to see Biqha's facial expression, and shortly after that Biqha also smiled funny because of it.

After that they ate together, and enjoyed their lunch without saying much. Because even though Biqha had a smile, but occasionally Biqha still likes to be pensive. And Erick understands why that could happen. Because there are still many burdens of the mind that are raging in the mind of Biqha.

The atmosphere in the stalls that began to be dominated by students from their schools first, making them seem to return to the past. High School days are so memorable for them. But every time they remember Yoga, their smile disappears again. Especially Biqha who is currently still very hurt with Yoga attitude.

" Why did you disappear Bi....? Why don't you ever reply to Yoga emails again? I knew it was very difficult at that time, because of the health condition of the mother. But you can reply to emails from Yoga as usual and tell him about your condition at that time. Maybe things will be different now, if you don't disappear first. "

" Khamhu thahu shendhirgha bhaghaimhanha khondhishikhu Rhik. Hakhu bhahkhan bhelhum phonshel shahat hithu. Mhungkhin khalhau hakhu mhemhinthanyha, ibhu hakhan bherhushaha kherhas unthuk bhisha. Thaphi hakhu ghak mhungkhin mhelhakhukhannyha. Ibhu shudhah chukhup kheshushahan dhemhi mhenhafkhahi khamhi. Hakhu ghak mhahu mhenhambhah bhebhan ibhu lhaghi....."

(you know for yourself how I am doing, Rick..... I'm not from a materially well-off family. Akhu didn't even have a cell phone at the time. Maybe if I asked for it, I'd try so hard to give it to you. But I can't possibly do it. My mother had enough trouble to support us. I don't want to add to my mother's burden anymore. )

Erick slowly nodded his head, before he again asked....

" How did you communicate before? Yoga story to me if previously you often communicate by email, and occasionally he also makes video calls you. You reply to his email via cafe? "

Biqha shook her head.

" Khamhi komghunhikhashi mhelhalhui phonshel dhan imheil themhan khulhiahkhu. Khalhau hakhu mhondhar-mhandhir khe wharnhet chumha unthuk bherkhomhunhikhashi dhenghan Yhogha, ithu nhamhanyha phembhorhoshan bhuatkhu. "

(we communicated through my college friends' cell phones and emails. If I go back and forth to the cafe just to communicate with Yoga, it's a waste for me.)

" friends? Do you have college time? "

Biqha glared at hearing that question from Erick.

" Khenhapha? Mhemhangnyha hakhu ghak bholheh phunyha ?! " (Why? Can't I have a friend ?! )

" chem..... Start off. That's not what I mean by Nabiqha Azzahra...... Yeah I'm in the seneng if you have a temen after we leave. Who do I forbid you have a friend....... Bizarrely. "

Erick was a little upset by Biqha's misunderstanding of her spontaneous questions. Because that's what Erick used to worry about, considering Biqha has no close friends other than Yoga and himself.

Even on the last day before he and Yoga left for London first, Erick took the time to come to Biqha's house to say goodbye to his mother and also Rendra. At that moment he told Biqha, so that she would remain herself, and not let anyone use her again, just because she wanted to have friends.

Hearing Biqha's words earlier, Erick was grateful Biqha had a sincere friend to her. And from Biqha's story, Erick was able to conclude that their relationship was very close.

" Why did you suddenly stop answering emails from Yoga? Is it because temen lo does not want to minjemin lo mobile phone or laptop? "

Biqha shook her head.

" Pherhidhidsthe middle shemhesther lhimha, thibha-thibha dhia mhenghilhang. Dhia thidhak phernhah therlhee lhaghi dhi khamphus. Bhahkhan dhia jhugha phindhah rhumhah." (midway fifth semester, he suddenly disappeared. He was never seen again on campus. He even moved house. )

" why? "

Biqha spread her shoulders.

" Shebhelhumnyha dhia shemphat bhercherhitha khalhau hushaha phamhannyha bhangkrhut, dhan shemphang therlhilhit bhanyhak huthang. Mhungkhin hithu yhang mhenyhebhabkhan dhia bherhenthi khulhiah. (he had previously told me that his uncle's business was bankrupt, and was in a lot of debt. Maybe that's what led him to drop out of college. )

For a moment Erick was silent, because he was concerned about the story of Biqha's college friend.

" Continue..... After that you never try to tell Yoga again? You should have told Yoga at that time.... At least once, you can tell Yoga through cafe or not you can send a letter. Yoga must also have given us the address where we live, right ?! "

" Ghak lhamha shethelhah hithu. Dhan hakhirnyha khamhi thahu thenhang phenyhakhit ibhu yhang shudhah krhonhis. Shahat hithu hakhu ghak bhisha mhemhikhirkhan khal lhahinnyha Rhik...... Hakhu hanyha hinghin fhokhus phadha kheshembhu ibhu. "

(Not long after that..... Mom got sick. And finally we know about a chronic maternal illness. I couldn't think of anything else, Rick.... I just want to focus on my recovery. )

Erick could not say anything more hearing Biqha's explanation. Guilt rippled in his heart, as it had made Biqha remember those difficult times.

And Erick also had time to guess and blame Biqha for the slump and change of attitude Yoga is frustrating because. Biqha is experiencing the hardest moments of her life.

" Sory Bi....."

Biqha raises both eyebrows in response to Erick's remarks, wondering why Erick apologized to her.

" I used to spit out the same sprain, and blame you for the slump of Yoga. I also need someone to look for your existence, just because I want to really maki lo and drag you ahead Yoga. I'm really sorry Bi....."

Biqha smiled bitterly in response to Erick's words. Although in his heart, Biqha was surprised to hear Erick's very frontal honesty, but Biqha understood why Erick could be so angry and upset at him. Erick has always been a patron of Yoga.

" Shebhenharnyha shahat Yhogha mhenjhadhikhan khal hinhi shebhaghai halhashannya mhenherimha pherjhodhohan dhenghan mbhakh Halhin. Thaphi hakhu shadhar khalhau shemhuha yhang therjhadhi mhungkhin pherthandha dharhi Allah, bhahwha khamhi mhemhang thidhak dhithakdhirkhan bhershamha. Thaphi khenhapha Yhogha thidhak mhahu mhenherhimha khenyhathahan hithu? Khenhapha bheghithu shulhit mhembhuhatnyha mhengherthi shekharhang? Dhia thidhak shepherthi Yhogha yhang khu khenhal dhulhu. "

(In fact, when Yoga makes this the reason for accepting matchmaking with mbak Alin.... I also had time to suppose so. But I realized that everything that happened might be a sign from God, that we were not meant to be together. Why does Yoga not accept this reality? Why is it so hard to make him understand now? He is not like the Yoga I used to know. )