LOVE ME, MAMA
Part Six | Dark

Night showed a tense atmosphere, stars can scatter in the sky, the moon can emit light as bright as anything I do not care, I do not care,

I put my body on my pink bed, I feel so tired today,

I looked at every photo on my room table, my gaze fixed on one photo, a handsome man in perlente clothes

"Dad, where are you?"

Every time I see her picture my heart is claustrophobic, Dad is the reason Mom hates me.

Mbok imah said, Mama used to try to abort me while in the womb, but his efforts none of them succeeded.

Until then I know all Mama's efforts, mbok Imah also said, Mama did all that because mama found out Dad had an affair,.

So is it all my fault?.

Why do I have to bear all his wounds?.

Don't deserve it, am I happy?

that's the word that always fills my brain, every time I get hurt.

I still remember what I thought was so unfair in my life story.

The story began, a few years ago,

Some years ago, when I and Sera were little, I often heard a fight between Mama and Dad, mama who always defended Sera while Dad who always defended me.

Since then I've been asking Dad repeatedly if Mama really doesn't want me

To where, Mama says that Sera was diagnosed with spinal pain, Samsung,

I was sad, but it was the beginning I understood that Sera and I were in a different vortex of life.

I am more understanding of the differences that will occur between me and Sera, like a child at that time, I am angry and do not accept any different right.

The instincts in me revolted, often I threw glasses, broke dishes, even littered the floor, I really incarnated into a very naughty girl

Mama's attention and affection are entirely for Sera, while I?.

I'm just being a backup life for a Sera Anindya.

Mama will be kind to me whenever Sera needs me to be her blood donor, .

Many times I refused, complained tired, complained of pain, but my mother ignored it.

The peak was when I was seven years old, my mother took me to the hospital to become a spinal cord donor for Sera without my knowledge or Dad.

A week went by, Dad knew all about it, Dad was furious, and Mom was guiltlessly saying "IF IT WASN'T FOR SERA, I'D KILLED SWARA A LONG TIME AGO!!"

Just imagine, at the age of seven I heard that word from my own mama's mouth,!!

" HOW DARE YOU,!!"

I saw clearly, Dad was preparing to throw a punch at mom but he was holding up.

"LET'S HIT!!"

Mama is getting ahead challenging,

"What you hate is I'm not SWARA!!"

Dad raised his voice.

I was getting more and more frightened behind the parapet between the living room and the living room, my tears kept flowing every time I heard the debate between my mother and father, and my tears kept flowing,

I was shocked, my fear grew, I regretted going downstairs and seeing all this,

After the great quarrel I no longer saw my father or dared to ask my mother,

Even though I wanted to go with him at the time, honestly I was disappointed that Dad chose to leave without saying anything to me,

Since that incident I have become accustomed to my mother's attitude and treatment of me, bland without affection.

Even though I had given one of my kidneys to Sera, mama remained unchanged.

Am I a burden to that?

My tears drip by themselves considering the events of a dozen years ago, which is why I became stupid like this, because for me enough I know how hurt I am, people just need to know about my happiness.

"Dad don't you miss me, how many years have you left, I miss you dad,"

Memories of the past seemed to be a shadow for me, how not adolescence that should be full of happy stories is now like a blue cloud that becomes gray, gray,

"The drama!!"

I quickly shrank my tears before being seen by Sera.

"Don't tell me you just cried?" He said as soon as he came into my room

"No, who said it?" My elak tried as usual as he could, though,

"Ohh,"

"You, where have you been?" Ask her while sleeping in my bed

"Obdomestic wandering, seeking the wind, who knows I met my white riding prince" I said, Sera laughed

"When I meet two"

"Imagine you distance Lyra, there is not a white riding prince, but a young man riding a cart ..."

Ra Sera and I laughed at the same time, imagining the young man riding the wagon was really laughable

"Laughter on, Basar" I said at last

I noticed her brother's last laugh, she joined in with her own smile.

"It's been a long time since I've seen your laughter, brother, I almost forgot the way you laugh,"

"Ssttt, don't be loud, you'll hear your mom, I'll be angry" I said, Sera immediately shut her mouth, afraid my mom heard our laughter

Just now that I said it, Mama was already standing in the doorway with a look of dislike towards me.

"SERA, GO BACK TO YOUR ROOM !" His orders, I fell silent, while Sera looked at me anxiously.

"Why ma?" Tanya Sera did not accept

"You?" Mama pointed at me with her index jare.

"If you want to make a scene, don't stay in the house!!"

"MAA" Sera raised her tone.

"What??, you don't agree with Mama?"

"You don't like him a lot, you have to learn, do your thesis!!" Mom's orders on Sera,

"Mom don't want you to be like him, useless!!"