Love of the Adjutant
Hidden Feelings

"Dude......."

"Please, give me a little space." pinta Indra whose eyes began to look glassy.

"I can't give you any hope" said Kinan.

"Yes, I know. But at least please let me be the one who is always around you. A man you can count on. I want to always be close to you, even if it is only the second" said Indra.

"I'm sorry, I still can't feel Mas Indra. I hope Mas can find the girl who will be his match Mas later." said Kinan while removing Indra's hand. But no matter how hard Kinan tried, Indra's hand would not be released.

"Can't I be second to you?? I don't need to be the first, so the second is enough for me." said Indra repeated his request.

"Sorry Mas." replied Kinan briefly representing his heart.

Kinan could no longer say what. All the rejections he said, always Indra broke. Even without a doubt Indra volunteered to be Kinan's mistress. But Kinan still could not accept Indra's feelings, all this time he only considered Indra as a friend. Not more.

After a long discussion, they returned home.

Passing through the desert.

"You know what, Kinan?? To you, I'm just like a man alone in the vastness of this desert. It doesn't look at all." said Indra.

Hearing Indra's words, Kinan simply fell silent. He was confused as to what to behave. He was also confused what to say so as not to hurt Indra's heart.

While in the car, Kinan could only fall into an awkward silence. He looked straight ahead. He did not dare to look at Indra, even though at that time he felt Indra often staring at him.

What am I supposed to do? What should I say to not be offended? Oh, that's so stupid of me. Pinter dikit napa, Kinan.

Kinan grouse in the heart.

Many times Kinan tried to stare out the window, to eliminate his awkwardness. But it didn't work. The memory of Indra's expression of feelings always suddenly appeared in his mind.

Silence in the car broke when Indra started to make her voice.

"We have breakfast??" bring Indra.

"Ohh. Um, don't do it. Let's just go home." tolan Kinan was polite.

Hearing that, Indra also complied. He did not want to force it, because he understood that at that time Kinan was awkward to be around him.

Arriving at Grandma's house, Kinan rushed down from the car. He refused to talk to Indra. Not because he was arrogant, but he was just afraid that Indra would discuss the same thing.

Looking at Kinan who seemed to stay away from him, Indra also sighed. He went straight back to the adjutant mess.

Arriving in front of the adjutant mess, he saw Erwan who was busy playing ball with the Commander's son.

"Where have you been, Ndra?? Morning is not visible." said Erwan.

"Out of Bromo."

"From Bromo??" Erwan surprised. "Aren't you rhyming anyway??"

"I went there with Kinan."

"Kinan?? Are you really going the same way as him??" asked Erwan astonished.

Indra nodded.

"He's the one who jumped??" ask Erwan.

"Yes." answered Indra briefly.

"Ohh, thank goodness that's it. Kirain you're the one who jumped."

"What if I'm the one who jumped??" ask Indra astonished.

"Yes, if you're the one who is upset, that's the sign that you're asking her out. How dare you date the General's son."

"What?!!!!" Erwan surprised. "A minute, a minute. You shot him that way??"

Indra nodded.

"Crazy for you, Ndra. Where did you get your life reserves from?? You can dare to like that." Erwan chirped.

However Indra was just speechless, he looked at Erwan coldly.

"Yes, yeah. Sorry." regretted Erwan.

"How do you know Kinan's answer??"

Indra just sighed.

"See from his expression it's clear that it must be rejected, right??" sahut Erwan's.

Indra just fell silent.

"Yes, obviously, was rejected. You know who he is, and who we are. We are nothing more than babu. Ehh, you even dream of reaching the angel." said Erwan rudely.

"No. She rejected me because she was engaged."

"Wedding?? Same who??" Erwan was surprised.

"Just like Niko."

"Ohh, Niko were you telling me that time??"

Indra nodded.

"That's not to be surprised anymore. They are the same level." said Erwan.

But for all the more Indra just fell silent.

"Name, Ndra. Lupain. Find another girl. After all, women in this world are not just him, there are still many." added Erwan.

"I can't, Wan. I love him already."

"Yes, Ndra. That's easy, mah. If you walk with another girl, over time you will be able to forget her."

"I've tried it, Wan. Even I was about to fall into the night world just to forget her a little, but it didn't work. He's still on my mind."

"So you want giman now?? You want to be a pebinor??"

"They are not married." said Indra.

"But it's the same. He has a fiancee, sooner or later they will get married. What else do you want to fight for?? As the saying goes, you have lost in battle."

"But I haven't started a war."

"Although it has started, you are already considered to lose Ndra. Your competition is not level. Like the heavens and the earth. You have a knife, he has a grenade. Yes lose, Mas Bro." explained Erwan who seemed to drop Indra's heart.

"But I love him" said Indra.

"Dear the hell baby. But find someone who is worth it too. When you like girls whose level is far above us, where they want to see us" said spicy Erwan.

"Already, Ndra. Just patience. Do I need to find a girl??" ask Erwan.

Hearing those words, Indra was upset. He went straight into the room, leaving Erwan who was in front of the mess. He laid his body on the bed.

What should I do to let me get you?? I didn't expect much, just a little space was enough for me. Can't it?? Can't you just set aside a little space for me to occupy?? Don't you love Niko too?? Why refuse me?? Why stay loyal to Niko if you don't have the same feelings.

The next day, Indra did the usual routine. He went to Kinan's grandmother's house, and drove her to work. There was no special conversation between the two of them. Not like the day before. Kinan chose to be quiet. The awkwardness between the two of them is still felt.