Love Two Boundaries
52. Contrition

"Congratulations sir! father's wife is pregnant"

Jedwaaarrrrr

Like being struck by lightning. The doctor's statement just ravaged my world.

Sofia pregnant???

How can???

My kid?

No, it's impossible.

I shake my head. Since his return, I have never even touched him.

Why could? Is there a Buto ijo?

Who is Buto irinya?

Crazy, this is really crazy news.

I slowly turned my ninety-degree gaze toward Sofia, who was still lying in a cage. It was the same, looking at me. Eyes glazed. There's a wish there. I don't know what for. Pardon you? or what?

Tesss....

A drop of my tears fell without a fight.

***

I came out of the room with an already shapeless heart. Betrayed two women at about the same time. My chest felt tight due to invisible bogem, my body bounced to the wall of the hospital hallway.

I repeatedly hit the wall as if to mock. Not enough with my hands, now I'm shaking my head. I feel like I'm the dumbest man in the world.

Luckily, Adam stopped his behavior.

I was crying in his arms. No questions came out of his lips. For that moment, only the elusan he gave.

****

A week after learning the facts about Sofia, who was pregnant with a man while in LA, I finally dropped the talaq also for her. For me, betrayal is unforgivable. The only way is divorced.

Adira has also returned to consciousness, there are no defects as feared, only a lot of memory is lost. But strangely first opened his eyes, the name Ais voiced. It makes my heart hurt again.

Why does it have to be that woman, why does Adira always say her name? Didn't know son, that the woman you love and desire, has betrayed papa.

The day after awakening, Adira was allowed to go home, only recommended control once a week to see the development of his health.

I almost forgot about Adam and Mama. They couldn't believe what was happening to me, including about ice. I told you everything. But it seems like they accepted all my decisions. Perhaps they reflect on the events of Sofia, a meek woman who was thought to be loyal turned out to be double. So they were not too surprised if Ais did the same.

Now we just focus on Dira's recovery, and find a way to let her forget about Ice.

In the afternoon on Dira's return from the hospital, I had an uninvited guest. In front of the fence is parked a car that makes my wound gaping again.

The car belonged to the bastard who was driving Ais home.

The man was still in the dark-glazed car.

Maybe he was asleep or something.

It just so happened that Adam was driving, so I had to get down to open the fence. Before going down I told Adam to go straight inside and bring Mama and Dira.

It is time to repay my heartache.

Time and time again I impatiently slapped the windshield of the car, to get the bastard out. I can't wait to give him a bogeman.

Ready to put up the horses. As soon as the door opened, I was a little surprised, it turned out that the owner was a woman. I know who he is.

Nia Ais's best friend.

"Do you want to come here" I asked ketus, by folding hands on the chest.

"Sorry sir, I just want to ask, is Ais inside?"

I smiled cynically.

"Why are you looking for that woman******, she's not here"

"I mean father? it wasn't yesterday after the hospital that he came home, and I drove him. Why can you say Ais ****** and not here? Doesn't he work here, with dad?

Please dong sir? I'm really worried, because he hasn't been in for weeks and can't be reached"

He nodded at me with a question. But I still choose the cake. But wait, he said I was discharged from the hospital. The soul of my lawyer started working.

"So you said, Ice's in the hospital?"

I'm fishing for answers.

"This father how the hell, cook the same conditions workers themselves do not know. Yes.kemaren Ais was hospitalized for three days, due to dehydration. Thank goodness Reza and I were able to help, otherwise she could die in the apartment"

Back to the lightning strike for the umpteenth time I got.

Suddenly, my brain came back to the puzzle pieces.

Means for three days Ais did not come home because he was hospitalized. His pain in the apartment, there continued to be calls to Reza number because he asked for help, but why should Reza? why should that bastard?

"Father said Ais isn't here, where is he? where she's pregnant again"

Nia spontaneously shut her mouth, like wanting to pull back the words that have been said.

Degs.....

Slow motion tub I turned a shocked look towards Nia.

"What, I'm pregnant? I finally couldn't help but be curious.

"I..he...in..he is pregnant, but we also do not know who is pregnant with the child? Reza and I agreed not to ask. You see, Ais also looked shocked when she found out she was pregnant. She's three months pregnant"

That's what I got from Ais's best friend.

I don't know when Nia left, I don't realize anymore. Now all that is in the head is ice and regret.

Astagfirullah........

What have I done?

Why am I so stupid?

Where did Ais take my son?

Even a ringgit might not have it.

All passports and visas are on me.

Not to mention that it was a thunderstorm that night.

I dragged him like an animal, maybe with an animal I never did that.

He cried, begged, and prostrated himself on my feet. Not one bit I feel sorry for him.

I'm pouring it on the ground.

Everything else turned back in my head. I'm the cruelest man. With a tearful look. I saw two palms while shaking my head and wanting to resist, but that was the reality. It was this hand that lightly slapped Ais until it bounced. Bloody.

With this mouth I spit on his face. And with this mouth, I bite, and I spit out inappropriate words for Ice.

Astagfirullah.......

I don't deserve to be called a human.

Now I'm like a crazy person.

I'm pulling my hair as hard as I can.

You stupid Hafiz!

Why can I be this cruel.

Astagfirulah.....

I hurt two lives at once.

What kind of husband am I?

***

After coming back to know the facts, my life became uneasy. Every day I cry with regret. My life is falling apart again. My days are haunted by the shadow of Ais, her laughter, her voice, her way of speaking, her attention all running through her head. Even the cry for mercy did not escape playing in the head. My sleep was always plagued by nightmares about Ice, about the baby in her womb.

I made every effort to find ice. Hiring special services, spreading photos both on social media and taped in public places. Yet all is nil.

All the flights I've been to, although it's not easy, all I've done is to find the name of Ais. But the reality I got remained the same.

Finally in the second month after the departure of Ais, I ventured to come to Indonesia. Let's go home with a name, which is important I'm sorry to get.

But I have to get the harsh reality. The Ais family had also moved for a long time, no one knew where they moved.

Again, I have to go home empty-handed.

The business I'm running, almost on the verge of bankruptcy. Because so far I no longer care about work. Let alone work, Adira also had time to ignore.

When one incident occurred, due to my indifference, Adira ran away from home. That's why now I promise not to repeat the same mistake by leaving the obvious in sight. I tried my best to be a good father and mother to Dira. Work hard again to build a business that is almost out of business.

The memory of Ice I will bury in the lake of regret, enough me and God only know how sick I am. Although it's hard I'll keep trying. May wherever they are, happiness always be with them....

Aaaamiiinnnnn........

Seriate.......