Maya (Father From Anankku)
The Part 16

POV MAYA PART II

What sight I was looking at from the reflection of this mirror, what a disgusting sight I had seen in my entire life. My white skin is almost entirely striped because of the bite marks of the curse mouth, not red but rather purple then just imagine how savage he ate my body this night.

I tried to get rid of it, the former evil monster made me feel so low as to be looked at by myself, but in vain the former seemed to like the body so much, god really I want to die alone.

I closed my eyes but again the dim shadow of last night appeared again, that face, that body, that, that breath and the most vexing me was the scene this morning when I woke up, a blood patch that indicated that I had been destroyed.

My phone just kept ringing but strangely it didn't bother my ears at all, I didn't even look at him to know who was calling me, is it because my ears were too busy listening to the sound of my sighing and his disgusting sigh last night that interlinked with each other.

From last night I did not fill my stomach but the smell of the tempting food that was available in the room did not make me crave to eat it. Haha, apparently he wants to show his human side by preparing delicious food so that I don't starve.

I took my feet to step back to my apartment, yes I think it's better than I have to stay in a luxury hotel room but it feels like hell. Joe, he's the one I can count on right now, I need a doctor, I need energy to be able to think calmly then Joe immediately sent a doctor for me without asking me what pain, what, that's how he is and that's what I like about him his loyalty and loyalty need not be doubted.

Two days I have been treated by doctors and special nurses make my body has improved but again the thing that makes the congested dadakh happen again. Nino, yes the man I looked one eye at, he kept paying attention to me but all that was in my heart at that time was Haikal.

I don't know what makes me dislike him is not because he often has to change partners, honestly not because it might be more precisely because in the eyes and my heart there is only Haikal.

She was right in front of my apartment door, looking at me with a very clear worry implied from her eyes. He asked me how I was doing, asked me where I had been for a few days and what I had done while he was abroad. Should I answer if I've been hired by that bad guy.

I turned my gaze away, I could not look at that face and eyes I was afraid that I would look weak, so I arrogantly threw him out not only from my apartment but also from my life. I'm sick really, if I hadn't been obsessed with a man named Haikal maybe I'd be the woman Nino is most happy with right now without having to bear the disgusting burden she is today.

I try to re-normalize the situation in my life I want to forget everything because to end my life too anyway, I am not as brave let alone there is a papa that I have to accompany his life in old age, so I decided to go home and spend my time with my father and make him happy even though I couldn't make him happy by remaining his holy little girl.

But damn it can not be denied, I forget that since the incident that night I no longer have my monthly guests, ah yes, I have not had menstruation since last month. Instantly my face paled especially if I remember that I was often dizzy, nauseous and vomiting lately, especially if I remember, at first I thought it was me eating irregularly since that incident but what my day turned out to be the cause was because there was a small seed growing in my heart.

Then the idea of gadak just came up, Haikal, yes he must be responsible for my destruction. Whether the cunning of which just came to mind, I trapped Haikal of course with the help of Joe the faithful because to do it myself I was not able to, my little heart was completely unbearable but my destruction still forced me to do so.

I was happy to see Anin crying and the grim face of Haikal, maybe I was crazy, yes maybe my mentality was already disturbed because of the many burdens that I bear myself in my youth which is still young.

I was happy when Haikal made a deal with me to be responsible for the baby. I was happy when Haikal accompanied me to check my womb for the first time to the doctor, it feels like the burden in the future I no longer bear alone but I forget that the man I once loved so much was a very smart man.

But no lasting happiness is based on lies, I was saddened deeply when Nino sincerely reached out her hand to make me rise from this downturn. There was a hard feeling to explain when I looked into her teary eyes when I asked her to marry me, wanted me to be selfish and accept the helping hand but again my little heart could not, I could not bear it after all this time that I had neglected to accept when I was no longer worthy of him, certainly not because Haikallah was the most deserving to bear all this with me.

But I forgot that of course my gestational age would be very different from the trapping date I did to Haikal. So all my lies were exposed along with the revelation about my pregnancy to make papa heart attack and critical.

And not long after that, my father left me forever. Why should I be God, why do people I love always leave me?. I wanted to shout as much as possible until the whole world listened to him but my lips could not take out a word and my eyes could not shed a single drop of tears anymore, but why?.

That's where my biggest regret arises, I'm a kara now just like when I insulted Anin first who was also a kara. All I had was this fetus in my womb and at that time my love, my desire to have me and my motherly feeling arose against it. I will defend it no matter what happens even if I have to endure great embarrassment later.

Again and again my regret arose when Anin invited me to live with her, not only Anin but also Haikal and also Haikal's mother Ibu Siti. Errata is not only sorry but I am also very embarrassed but they still force me to inevitably have to come with them. I knew Anin might be very worried about my baby's fate because she thought I was going to get rid of this baby.

Not only that embarrassed me but the treatment of those who considered me as his family also can not explain how shameful I am. I felt like I had a mother for the first time because Siti loved me so much without discriminating between me and Anin. I feel like I have a sister because Haikal considers and treats me like his own sister even my cravings are colored because there is always him who will fulfill my strange desires. I felt like I had a brother because Anin never considered me a rival again, nor did she ever show that she was jealous even though her husband fulfilled all my cravings.

I'm happy god, thank you for still making me this happy. So here I am with them living happily without burden. Enough, enough of them I don't need another god I'm happy here let's keep it this way.

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