Missing Room
Episode 75's

I still sobbed when our embrace came off. Mas Pras who still shows a confused look now helps me to sit back on some pillows that he has arranged behind my back.

"Say, you're why. Apologize for what?" ask her with outstretched hands wiped my tears.

I looked up my head to look at his bead. My chest tightened again, my mouth opened but just talking was difficult. Until— I was only able to shake my head.

Mas Pras pulled both corners of his lips smiling faintly and said, "It's time to wake up in the morning. Mas sure you had a bad dream because you did not have time to pray at dawn, and Mas did so."

The direction of view now shifted to the clock hanging on the wall. "It's seven o'clock more. Wash your face after breakfast, let Mas take care of Aqila," he said, then got up and stretched out his hand to help me wake up.

I sat down for a moment with my head turned to notice the movements of Mas Pras who turned to go up to the bed to wake Aqila.

"Why are you still sitting there, go to the bathroom. After the end of Aqila's turn to take a bath," said Mas Pras and I obeyed his words without giving the slightest rebuttal even though inwardly still kept so many oddities.

***

I was more pensive after returning from my parents' house. Through the scratches of the pen I wrote down whatever was in my heart. Fears, worries as if becoming one. If I'm so unwilling to do what I have other people, doesn't that mean I have to stay here.

I took a deep breath and then I held my head up and stared at the blue sky from behind the window.

If I always wanted happiness, wouldn't Mas Pras deserve that too?

My eyeballs are now moving around looking at the rest of the room, a lot of things we've done together, consciously and unconsciously I began little by little to know who the figure of Mas Pras and this time it was the corner of my heart that began to feel pulsating.

The sound of knocking on the door began to disperse my daydream. I see now Mas Pras appears from behind the door. "Prepare, at half-time we go to the doctor," he said, nodding and moving from my seat and closing and keeping the book on me.

According to the appointment that has been determined by the doctor Dewi, today is the time for me to do an examination as well as ultrasound to find out the condition of the baby in my womb, also if I'm lucky I can all know her gender.

"The baby's a boy Doc?" tanya Mas Pras confirmed after the Dewi doctor mentioned what he saw on the monitor screen.

The Dewi Doctor nodded and congratulated us. But my original smile is now slowly receding when I look at the face of Mas Pras who if not wrong of my judgment he looks to display a dimmed facial look, but, until the feeling of anxiety instantly infiltrated my heart.

Doesn't he like it? ask batiku.

And when the Dewi doctor gave so many explanations as well as good input for my pregnancy to the birth process, I just drowned with the contents of my mind.

To be Continue

Short first, do not forget thumbs, comments also in Vote

let me also get more upbeat buaT spirit.... What's going on in the future??