MUJAHADAH MY LOVE
#Episode 29's. Dejavu

*Yusuf

"Sister, I'm a laper!" Fathin held onto her stomach which was still boisterous without heeding the feelings of her master. It looks like the parasitic creatures that reside in there, are already impatient waiting for the intake of food that enters.

As usual, such a beautiful face was always practically tingling her. He smiled slanted. But a moment later frowned, instantly stopping his steps and staring fixedly at that face, astonished.

"You're often like this? eating not regularly? is it breakfast at this hour?" Instead of answering, the girl even snorted inadmissibly and then said sewot, he said,

"Where do you want breakfast, in the morning already send the deadline instructions to get ready!"

"But that was brapa's hour? this is the last time you're gini!" Firmly while stepping back ahead while pulling Fathin's hand.

He remembered on this floor there is a favorite dining place for students because the price is match for this thin pocket. But even though the benchmark price is cheap does not mean cheap. Evidenced by the number of visitors mini restaurant is not a few also coming from the top.

The place is comfortable with decorative interior design, a plus for the place. The two of them walked in with their hands still holding each other. He chose a place with a little privacy. On the side of the glass wall facing the highway. He deliberately pulled over so that he could still stare at the crowds of the road out there.

He had just successfully landed his butt in a chair when suddenly his ears heard someone calling his name. He turned away and found the caller walking to the table where He and Fathin were. He smiled with appreciation and immediately stood up to greet the charismatic man who turned out to be the owner of the mini restaurant, Reno Barata.

"Hallo, Bang! how, uh, healthy?" He greeted while greeting and as usual complained to each other fist.

"Hallo too, Bro! well, as you can see, I'm healthy thank God! how about, already bring a stick with it turns out!" The stylish-looking man tried to mark him.

He chuckled and then said,

"Gue healthy! Um, get to know, Bang, this is Fathin, my future girl! Fathin, this is Bang Reno, who's got this mini-resto!" It's always like that. He is not friends with the word pleasantries. With cool plus casual style he introduced both. Fathin looked a little excited there, making him smile again to see the girl's face.

The look on the man's face instantly sumringah. Dashingly Reno greeted the girl who from the beginning was silent and occasionally smiled stiffly.

"Reno!"

"Fathin!"

After enough pleasantries, Reno finally retreated while saying dramatic, Reno,

"Today's color you come with happy news, today I will layanin you both with our best menu and it's free!"

"Originally you don't miesel ajha, because we're both lapernya nih!" The two laughed in unison, while the girl seemed to be glaring comically at him. Makes him endlessly chuckle.

"If so, I stay first. The food is coming, right!" Reno said at last and turned to leave the two after being sober.

Sure enough, they did not have to wait long, because the food came as fast as a stone. One package combo menu mainstay mini restaurant complete with a delicious dessert.

Again he chuckled slightly watching Fathin's expression staring at the expanse of food that filled the entire surface of the table before him, with perfectly patterned eyes.

"So, is this a lot of food? we're just the two of us, how strong is it to eat this much?" Fathin threw a gaze at him along with a frown on the forehead.

"The shop of this food must be consumed all. No horror, it's all free. So can't design! Mubadzir ntar." He almost froze to watch that beautiful face suddenly turn wry.

"Sister doesn't have money to pay for all this? pack a conditional free trima gini?" The girl asked along with her funny grin. Thinning and folding of the hands on the chest.

"Haha! Just kidding baby! Come eat! I have been waiting for you! This Abis I'm taking you home!" Fathin nodded obediently and began to enjoy almost all of the food.

He who is actually never satisfied staring at the beautiful face, shady and adorable, do not want to miss the precious moment. He only fed his food a few times, the rest He was busy staring without pause at the charming face in front of him now. Realizing this, Fathin seemed to be acting wrong.

"Sister, why not eat, even see me mulu daritadi? shame on shit!" He only answered with his little bitterness.

"Well, look at your face!" Origin legitimate.

"Well, start again! You're a mick!"

"Oh, yeah, Blum blahin, who's that much clothes for, anyway?" The girl asked full of questions.

"Make me. Today I plan to join Bang Gery to study religion in the mosque. If you've heard of a da'wah group called tabligh pilgrims the same model of their cycle, you can surely guess I want to do it there ntar!"

"Huh? that is a da'wah congregation that is often followed by Uncle Risyad. That's right, who used to move from mosque to mosque while mikul backpack the same cooking tools, really not?" He nodded in response to that question.

"Huh? so Brother also want to follow the micul cooker like that? is your brother not a prestige?"

"Shame, anyway! but there's no harm in trying?" Said relaxed.

"But, said Auntie, usually Uncle went long, can be up to months. Ber__ar__ti_?" Fathin did not continue his words, instead glancing at him waiting for an explanation from him. The corner of his lips was again interested, then said slowly still in a cute style, and,

"Blum sampe slama's. For starters, Bang Gery said it's only three days!"

"Three days are long!" The girl choked, said resignedly.

"You're not starting to stand it, old distance?" Ask with a smile. As usual, Fathin's face would turn red instantly if he had started to shake off such a dreadlocks taste.

"Appaan, anyway! Not funny!" The face has now turned upset. The sad bead that could always knock his heart out seemed to start glazing.

"Heyy, don't be sad first dong, blum brangkat too. Dengerin first! gini__,"

He paused for a moment. Staring at the black bead stick there while looking for the right word to start the explanation. The sudden atmosphere of silence was a little melancholy. That cloudy bead could no longer be hidden. He breathed heavily.

"I want to tell you everything before I leave! I__,"

"What the hell, anyway, I'm not going to come back! I don't want to be horrified!" Fathin took off the rough of the spoon and fork he was holding, to produce a rather loud clanging sound.

"Dengerin first, baby!"

"You don't know how bad I've been all this time. I want brubah. I want to be a good person before we live together. And I saw, ever since Gery joined this congregation, he's really changed. I want to kayak Gery. I want to get rid of myself before I start!" He made his voice as soft as possible while grabbing Fathin's soft and wiggly hand and holding it in full appreciation.

"We never know what will happen. I say this all so you don't think that macem-macem ntar. All you have to inget is that I'm not messing around with any of this."

"Do you mind?"

"Not the same skali. I just don't like Brother talking about it."

"I don't know, I feel like I want to go far."

"No, by the way again. Sister nyebelin know not!" Fathin pulled his hand rough from his grasp.

He still looked down deeply when he saw Fathin's shadow standing up and slightly ran away leaving him. He gasped, not expecting at all if the girl was really upset with him.

Without a second thought he immediately grabbed all the shopping paperbags and then stood up and ran after Fathin who was getting far away. Many times he screamed for Fathin's name but the girl ignored him. Until when he saw Fathin turn to the left, he was immediately mafhum, it turns out Fathin ran towards the toilet.

He also slowed down his steps to buy time while waiting for Fathin to come out of there. He leaned his back against a dividing wall between the toilet area and the outlets there.

When the door opened, he stared fixedly at the beautiful face with eyes. He was sure Fathin had just cried. He walked closer. Fathin was a little surprised to see him appear.

The beads both sat and locked for a split second...

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*fatin

He stared long at his face behind a wide mirror before him. Too long the wailing just now made his eyes slightly swell. It creates disturbing prejudices.

Joseph's words just now about his feeling of going far away made him feel like a Dejavu. He's been in a position like this before. Someone once said the same thing to him and sure enough, that person really went far, far away and never came back. Go away for good.

Memory of the tragic fate that took the life of his little friend, Tasya, is again present filling his head. Worry began to take over his heart.

Still very clear in his memory because everything is neatly stored in his subconscious. During the break, Tasya told a passionate story. He expressed all the complaints as well as many hopes that he wanted to achieve. But what made him shocked and sad, was when Tasya grabbed his hand and said softly,

"We are in charge, right Fhat? Please don't forget me, huh? I'm sure after this you'll miss me!" He raised an eyebrow, looking in wonder at his little friend.

"Where are you going, huh? Papa you moved on?" He speculated with positive thinking. He thought it might be possible that his father Tasya was transferred to another city that required his family to move.

"No, kok. I don't understand either, but I do feel like I'm going far away. So far!" He did not hear what his friend said anymore because of the shock he was in. He gasped together restlessly which made his heart unable to calm down.

He also never forgot how Tasya hugged him so tightly and for so long. It turned out to be a hug for both of them for the last time. Yes, a successive accident that occurred at a crossroads not far from school, has claimed the life of his best friend.

It was like losing consciousness when he heard the news. All Tasya said during the rest of the clock was also his best friend's tight hug back playing in his mind. Tasya was really the real "go home" at that time.

Since then Fathin has always kept bad memories of saying "like going far". He was so afraid to hear such a phrase. Especially if the sentence is spoken by someone who He really hopes to be with him forever.

He had no reason to lie to his heart at this time, if in there, every corner and niche was filled with the shadow of a man, Joseph. The man he called the Forced had completely mastered his feelings.

Suddenly he was afraid of losing the man. He could not imagine if the bad thing that happened to Tasya, would happen to the man of his tribe. He won't be able to.

"Please don't take Brother Joseph from me. I'm ready, God! hiks, hiks..!" He came back crying.

He expressed heartbreak through his long cry. Repeatedly wiping away the endless tears. Until the minute He realized that He had left Joseph alone at the table without permission, He stopped crying. Trying to suggest to his heart and mind that everything will be fine.

He then washed the face that now seemed messy due to his crying just now. Taking a deep breath to fill his congested lungs with plenty of oxygen and exhaling slowly, repeatedly.

Chequek..

He opened the door and suddenly gasped in surprise when he found Joseph in front of the toilet. The man walked over to her. All those misgivings caught up with him. He did not dare to look at the eagle's sharp bead. Suddenly his emotions flushed.

"Why aren't you here? Brother wants to go far, right? yes, go there!" Joseph did not even say a word, but he had already cast him out, complete with a bead that began to recite.

"Why cry?" The man's voice is now back to its original, flat and emphatically intimidating mode.

"No! who is crying? Don't accuse!" He tried to hold back the tears from escaping from his petals.

"No why. Don't need to discuss. It doesn't matter either!"

"Do you want to eat or go home?" The flat voice told him to make a stiff follow. He was unable to answer, but looked down deeply.

"We need to talk about that thing." Without waiting for a response from him, Joseph pulled out his hand and walked out of the place.

"I want to go home, I'm full!"

Joseph did not respond to his words, even further tighten the link of his hand. He finally chose silence and followed the man's broad steps.

"Lake in!" Joseph opened the door beside the wheel. He glanced at the face, trying to figure out the mood of the man. He found nothing there except a flat expression with a stiff smile. He went in and sat down restlessly. The tail of his eyes followed the shadow of Joseph passing in front around his car and went in to throw himself in the steering chair.

They were almost at the boarding house but Joseph still had no voice. In his heart he grumbled, annoyed,

"Nih people are hard to guess well, sometimes soft, the trus suddenly flat, chuckle. Sometimes the chatter trus suddenly shut up. Basic bipolar!" It's in the heart.

"Not to overdo it. I just don't like you playing away if I want to talk seriously like that. Blum again you leave food that ajha. Not polite!" His bead suddenly fiddled with rounded lips. This was the umpteenth time that Joseph always correctly guessed what he was thinking. But he was quite relieved, at least the man was willing to make a sound.

"Sorry_sorry! Not intentionally. Abisnya Brother's speech earlier made a bad mood! I really know not!" He threw a glance at the left side. Look at the vehicle that passed there.

"What utterance? which one?"

"Take it. Don't need to discuss. Mostly this brother wants the intention to go far away right? Yeah, why are we like this? Why take all the promises? ngap__,"

"What the hell is that? What the hell are you doing, why is it going so far?" He really did not think with the memory of Joseph who was either weak or just pretended to forget.

"Is it serious not to forget or pretend to forget?"

"Not really bad!"

"Well, you used to say that you think you want to go far? So what does all this mean? All this time I've been accepting Brother? Brother just want to play with my feelings? After making me fall in love, brother will leave me, is that it?"

"Jeez, Fathin, that's just my feeling. Why are you serious about your nanggepin?" Joseph chuckled while hitting the steering wheel. He frowned watching the man's attitude that was not affected at all. Even take his words lightly. Joseph's car has now entered the spacious courtyard of his boarding house. Stop there but the two don't go out right away.

"So you can still laugh? I don't want you to go like Tasya? No, I don't want to hear those words.. I don't want you to get hit by a car and die like Tasya. I'm afraid.hiks hyks!" He spoke a little hysterically while cupping his ears and sobbing in tears. He shook his head non-stop.

"Hey, hey, Fathin, why are you? what was? who's gonna go? who's Tasya?" Joseph grabbed Fathin's cold hand and followed frantically seeing him as distressed by a bad past that had befallen him.

"This time I won't be able to lose again for the second time. I will not be strong, brother! Please don't go, please! hyks the torch" He sobbed and squeezed the firm grip of Joseph's hand.

"Fathin, hey, Fathin, you can't be this kinky, dong! What are you, who wants to leave you? already dead in the middle of masa' want to be left behind, hum?" Joseph's one hand was raised and cupped his delicate, soft cheeks. That gentle hand wiped her tears that were endlessly spilling from her petals.

"I have promised you, promise Papa and all my family that I will be your wife. I'm bad, stupid but I don't like breaking promises. I'm only gone for three days, that's why I'm going home. Let's not think of the macems, I promise to go home later, you're the first person I'll meet!" Yusuf said softly wishing that He was calm and that it would be fruitful. His hand slowly weakened. He began to look at the face before him. The hand that was cold was now slowly warming.

"Promise?" He asked still in doubt.

"I'm promise!" Joseph nodded confidently still with his warm smile.

"But Big Brother doesn't really have a feeling about going far, does he? it was just a wrong talk, right?" His doubts are not completely gone.

"No hunch whatsoever, that was I don't know why I can say that either, really!" He removed his hand from Joseph's hand because his chest began to blossom with that gentle touch, as his consciousness now returned.

He looked straight ahead and threw back his memories at the tragedy that occurred nine years ago.

"Tasya accident and died while talking to me. While I'm afraid that people are talking about going far away!" The manic returned to tears. The feeling of longing for his little friend was so strong.

"I miss you very much, Tasya!" Her tears escaped.

"Udah, already, no, drink first. Are you crying, not tired? calm yourself first, that's why we're talking all right!" He did not want to drink, but Joseph's request was usually an order.

"If you're calm, can I talk now?"

"Aren't we talking a lot?"

"There's still a lot I want to take to you!"

Both of them were silent for a moment. He stared at the hardened jaw that began to appear black spots of shaving scars that re-grown. His heart was filled with the feeling of waiting.

"Once again I just want to make you believe that I'm really serious about My intentions. I have heard all about you from Akram. I don't want to destroy you with the ugliness of this lama. You're too good, perfect for the size of a bad guy like me. You are beautiful, kind, gentle, obedient to your parents, you are also obedient to the One Above. I want to like you."

"We know how I will be when I come back, so I ask you, please don't change." He frowned, just as the scale did not understand but He did not want to interrupt what Joseph wanted to say. He chose silence and listened carefully.

"I don't want you to work for any reason. I just want you to go to college well, finish everything on time. I don't want you to be burdened with work and college." He stared intolerably at the man, who was busy removing some cards from his wallet.

"Now, you hold all this, whatever you want to use which one. I changed the pin with your date of birth. You use it for all your needs just like Mitha. Ka__,"

"But, Kak__,"

"There's no buts. You know, I never accept rejection!" Joseph put all the cards in his hand. He looked confused and confused.

"Kaw__,"

"If you don't want to use this, I assume you're rejecting me!" He sizzled slowly. That guy is really stubborn.

"You take good care of yourself. In addition to Akram with Azhar, I do not permit anyone to deketin you. I'm probably gonna turn off my phone for three days, so, if there's anything, call Erick!"

"Here's your phone, I've saved Erick's phone number!" Although reluctant, but he had no choice but to obey every decree of the forcible.

Joseph also typed some numbers on his phone after he thrust it. Many times he sighed. His heartbeats stared back at the several debit cards in his hand. During this time He had several times witnessed how Joseph's shopping model who never wanted to buy cheap goods, He could already imagine how much the contents of each debit card. Again he sighed in disbelief.

How could that man be so easy to trust him. Do not fear him if at any time He changes his mind and scatters the money in any place.

"I believe in you. If I were there in your heart, I believe you would not betray me!" Yusuf spoke again to him while returning his cell phone.

"Sister indigo well? How exactly do I guess what I think?"

"Our color is a match!" He chuckled along with a red tinge on the cheek. While Yusuf smiled widely, revealing a row of neat white teeth.

"Oh, well, you should not hesitate if you want to use all that for business other than college needs. Just do whatever you want. Actually I'd like to find you a rather spacious house from this boarding room, but blum sempet. Later, back from this?" He ran out of words to obey every command of Joseph. But this last request he must refuse. However, he was already comfortable living in this boarding house. He has no intention of seeking freedom out there.

"No need, brother. We're already at home here!"

"That's? Yes, the important thing is that Arsyil is not macem-macem with you!"

"Ck, what the hell! If so I go down skarang, well, not good for others, ntar in case we do anything again!" He said while inserting all the cards given by Yusuf as well as his cellphone into his slmp mini bag.

He was about to open the door, but suddenly Joseph took his hand and said softly,

"Fhat, I-I can ask for something?" The man hesitated and hesitated. He looked to the side and found the face full of supplications from Joseph. Make it come clean, say,

"M_ask A_what, Brother?"

"A_I can hug you, right?" Hearing the word hug, his bad thoughts returned to surfing on the memory of Tasya's last tight hug for him. His chest is back beating. He shook his head many times. Joseph who saw his reaction thought he would not embrace because of shame and as an effort to keep his spirit. The man said quickly, too,

"It's okay if you don't want to, I won't make it. I understand. I'm sorry I asked for something weird!"

"I'm just afraid this is our last hug like Tasya did back then. I'm scared!"

Without a second thought, Joseph immediately grabbed him in his arms without being prevented and rejected by him. His body returned.

"I promise to be back after three days. I will not leave you. I will ask God to see us again! You don't think of the macem!" The embrace ended and changed the hands of Yusuf who cupped his beautiful face. He smiled attaching a small dimple to the corner of his lips.

"I love you!" Lirih Yusuf swept every inch of her baby's skin with a sharp bead look. His cheeks were again ashamed. The aroma of mint from the fragrant breath of Joseph can always make his whole body bristled. He was so embarrassed but he could not help but reply to the words of his beloved man,

"I love you, too!"

"Part yourself well. Keep health. Don't eat late again!" He just nodded without knowing because He was still so fascinated by the good looks of the face in front of him which was only a few cents away.

"Can?" Yusuf's heavy voice returned. He stared at the sharp bead that was still softening at his forehead, making him understand the purpose of the question just now. At first he hesitated but soon afterwards he nodded in embarrassment. His chest was unceasingly beating hard with a fast rhythm chasing each other. This was the first time for him.

The man smiled. When the face of the two was getting closer he was suddenly frightened and with all his might closed his eyes as much as possible.

Deg. .

Degs..

He waited tensely. Until the moment Joseph's lips landed perfectly on his forehead he immediately gasped. Her heart rippled so beautifully. He felt his stomach tickle millions of butterflies. The reflexes of his hands touched his stomach looking for the butterfly's whereabouts, but nil. His eyes are still perfectly closed. He permeated the gentle kiss until his heart unconsciously demanded more. But his sane brain works fast. The angel on his right side was trying to regain his consciousness. And,

"Sorry, Brother!" In a hurry he withdrew in shame. Joseph acted the same. The two suddenly misbehaved each other.

"Sorry!" Joseph spoke briefly. He nodded faintly.

"I'll go down first. Be careful on the road!" Without waiting for an answer from Joseph, he immediately opened the car door and went out and ran without daring to look again. He's so embarrassed. His body is still even broken. He held his forehead because the kiss was still felt.

He ran small and soon disappeared behind the main door of the boarding house. While in the car, Joseph stared at his departure with a smile that adorned his handsome face. He touched her lips. He still felt the soft skin of his forehead.

"I love you, Fathin!"

"Wait for me to come back!"

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TBC>>>