MUJAHADAH MY LOVE
#Episode 36's. Fool, Absolute Divine Order!

*Yusuf

Fathin had been absent from college for a few days. His condition has not been fully stable since he picked him up after appearing at last opening event. Fathin drop due to too tired exercise diforsir for a week. He was about to take the girl to the hospital but again Fathin refused on the same cliche grounds, "Don't like the smell of the hospital!"

Be it back and forth home_campus_library and Fathin boarding house to take care of the thesis and care for Fathin at once.

A week went by so fast. His relationship with Fathin was close. He was so worried about Fathin's condition that he had a high fever. He who began to understand and try to appreciate the privacy in the boarding tried to give understanding to Arsyil the keeper of the boarding house, to allow him to enter into the room Fathin. He had to be open to everything if Fathin was his lover and soon He would be applying. At first Arsyil hesitated but he was still Joseph the forger who did not like rejection.

"Lo know me, Syil! I don't like to be organized. You tell the kids here that I'm his fiancee and the doctor who's Fathin!"

Arsyil who already knew him enough finally can only resign and agree. He was so painstaking in taking care of Fathin. He didn't even go home and didn't sleep all night accompanying his girl on the slightly worse night of Fathin's illness. The girl shivered and was delirious overnight due to a high fever.

He sat on the edge of the bed while his gaze could not be separated from the pale face of Fathin who was asleep. His hand never escaped from the hot hand of the girl. He occasionally stroked Fathin's head gently. Many times he swallowed the salivary with difficulty whenever Fathin deliriously pulled his arm and hugged him. His slightly open thin lips really tempted his faith.

Lie if you are not tempted. His heart rate is chasing. The murmur in his racing heart fused with the whispers of the damned shetan making him distraught withstanding the turmoil within him that so desired the girl. Fortunately, God the guardian of the heart is still willing to protect his weak faith. He restrained himself. Opting away to go into the bathroom, ablution and establish night prayers. To honor the Creator to keep his heart and faith from bad things.

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It's been pretty busy lately. Hunting for reference books in all directions, back and forth consultation with supervisory lecturers. Not to mention the busyness in the field to find some respondents as research material complementary to the data as well as reference the contents of the script.

Yes, the title he submitted has been in Acc. The choice falls on the title of the thesis "INTERNAL FACTORS OF MOTIVATION, COPING, MOOD AND RELAPSES IN THE CASE OF DRUG ADDICTS". He deliberately chose the title because it would make it easier to find valid data because some members of his gang had become addicted to the substance.

He's really serious about this. Want to immediately complete his study, graduation and then propose to the girl of his heart. A final observation in the brain and planning in the blue print.

He was unanimous in his decision. She will be pursuing a Co-ast program after marriage. He doesn't want to risk being stabbed because there's too much brake here. As Bang Thoriq said,

"Marriage is one of worship and delaying worship is the same as rejecting kindness!"

For two days He felt sometimes present some kind of worry, worry for some reason every time He remembered too close to himself with Fathin. There was a whisper of prohibition every time he wanted to touch his girl especially after his long conversation with Bang Thoriq and Gery two days ago after the weekly deliberation at the Headquarters mosque.

"Youth is a heavy phase in the course of human life. The phase that His Majesty emphasized to be used as best as possible because later must be held accountable before the Khalik. What was that youth spent on? whether only by the raucous and vain or busy improving themselves, scooping up as much knowledge as possible for the provision of the next life."

"And the great thing that has always been a test for youth is this!" Bang Thoriq said softly as he touched his chest.

"heart!"

"I mean Bang?"

"God never forbids us to fall in love because it is one of the gifts God has given to all servants to love each other. But how we channel it is so emphasized that we do not fall into things that are forbidden. We are weak beings who, in addition to being given reason, there is also lust that accompanies us. The test of love is hard. If a little shethan succeeds in derailing our faith then we will perish!" Add Bang Thoriq.

This time he began to understand where the discussion was going. It seemed to be slapped with the description of Bang Thoriq. All this time he's been a little distant with Fathin. He had even kissed the girl once. Even until now, Fathin's soft forehead still feels on his lips. Especially if the matter of touching Fathin's hand, he never let the girl walk beside him tampa holding his hand.

"Adziim's 'Astaghfirullahal!" His mind began to feel guilty. Recollecting the night in which the shethan almost derailed him if Allah did not take care of him and Mitha's presence in the same place made him a little hesitant to go far.

"If Antum has begun to understand, it is not too late to make all things beautiful in time. Falling in love with a clean heart and body is much more beautiful. Everything Antum does will be worth worshiping and resting with Allah!" This time Gery who chimed in while patting his shoulder slowly.

He stared at the two charismatic shady faces in turn. The two nodded as if to convince him to immediately justify the girl.

"Lo definitely won't be strong for long, Bro! You're a pretty girl!" Gery added chuckling.

"Ck, what the hell Lo, be careful not to marry me Lo!"

Gery and Bang Thoriq chuckled again while slowly punching his shoulder.

"Where dare I nikung Lo! Campus thugs! It could be dead silly I got thumped into Lo's gangs!" gery still chuckles softly.

"Please give me some advice I can give you a handle!"

The discussion ended with the advice of Bang Thoriq who was so fond in his heart as a cover,

"Gue was also in the position of Lo skarang. Hijrah but dating is still the way. Sample once I khuruj four months walk one group with one Ulama in charge of Palu. On the last day before Wabsy I spent a day pepetin trus He and ask for advice. And the advice that was most impressed in my heart at that time he said gini__,"

"There is no best and most useful advice for a young man except the command of Ghadul Bashar. Subject the view of the things forbidden from it. Looking is strictly forbidden, let alone touching! and the hand of the youth who once touched a woman who was not lawful to him then the fire of hell was more deserving of him!" This time he swallowed the saliva with great difficulty.

All this time he was taking these things for granted. He thought the zina ban was not that detailed. As long as it is not a body relationship then small things such as handrails or kissing are legitimate. Turns out he was wrong. All things that can potentially arouse orgasm in the opposite sex that are not halal include adultery.

"The fool will never change. The absolute divine word that no power in the world will be able to change. If it has been determined that, then why we waste time with courtship that is clearly the door to one big sin. Zina is not just a body connection, even looking at a woman who is not a muhrim is an adultery by the eyes."

"So, halalin or stayin. Just it! Hijrah is Black or White. Yes or No. Can't be gray. It should be clear where we're going. If we really want to go to Ridho Allah swt then we must leave all the old bad habits that can provoke the wrath of God. Do not let God value us not seriously receive this guidance trus Allah revoke again. That woman is something very valuable in Islam. We are only given the right to touch it if we have halalin use dowry and contract!"

He was repeatedly confused with the long explanation of Bang Thoriq. In his heart he confirmed all the words of the man. All this time he had been too brave to touch Fathin. Though the girl often felt uncomfortable but she never cared.

"But I want to graduate first abis Papa to where his parents made a proposal. And it's still a few months away."

"Perhaps avoid the interaction first. Moreover, Skarang kan Lo is busy doing thesis. He must have understood!"

He nodded back assuring.

"Gue Go on, Bang, God willing!"

**

Today he has just met three members of his gang who have experienced Relapse or Relapse. Relapse is the re-occurrence of an old pattern of abusers (adiction) where drug use takes place again regularly. He did some question and answer regarding the relapse they experienced.

It turns out that many things can sometimes be a trigger for the relapse pattern of the addicts. All of them are classified into two factors, internal (factors originating from within the individual) and external (factors originating from outside the individual).

Internal factors include negative feelings, such as feelings of sadness, jealousy, anger, disappointment, etc. High-risk emotional states, such as excessive sadness/happiness, feeling too happy and excited, excessive stress, depression, etc. Boredom, usually occurs due to the absence of activity. Adjustment issues, especially when completing inpatient rehabilitation and returning directly to family and community.

In addition to internal factors, external factors also have a big influence as a trigger for relapse. Some of them are high-risk situations, namely certain moments that remind of narcotics. Social pressure, feelings of being humbled by family and friends. Interpersonal conflicts, such as conflicts or conflicts with wives, parents, friends, etc. Certain people, such as friends of addicts, drug dealers, friends sharing while still actively using, etc. Certain objects, such as injections, pipettes, bong (sucking devices), or narcotics themselves. Certain places, such as discotheques, city houses, places that are often used to use and store drugs while still actively using drugs, etc.

"Ok, enough for today. Thanks, guys, for all your time!" He closed his interview session.

"Together, Bang! whenever you need it, we're ready, Bang!" David, one of the respondents, chuckled.

"Ok, I've pulled. already want maghrib, nih. All the prayers!"

"Widiih, our campus general turned out to be a penitent, guys!" This time it was Dion who chimed in with a big laugh.

He laughed softly in response. Grabbing his voice recorder, cell phone and car keys on the table and rushing to his feet.

"Sheap, look at it later. There is no free time. The three of us are busy doing the thesis too, Bang!"

"OK! I unplug! Assalaamu'alaikum!"

"Wa'alaikumsalam!" Serempak the three returned the greeting while smiling knot. There was a sense of amazement in the hearts of the three of them seeing his massive change.

They were separated after fighting each other five, mainstay male style tos, fist bump.

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*fatin

He is starting to fit back. Joseph took good care of her. Makes her think that having a doctor's husband must be a lot of fun. He does not need to go to the hospital if the pain relapses because there is a husband who will be on standby at all times to take care of him at home.

He smiled wryly. Now the man has not even been seen the trunk of his nose since he actively entered the campus again.

Today he is not even so focused on the basic lecture material PPD aka Development of Educated Participants. His mind drifted in all directions. For the past few days Joseph had not visited him. His cell phone number could not even be reached.

He sighed with a heavy voice that was blown roughly. The voice from the mobile operator that marked the inactivity of the number he had dialed made him a little upset.

His mind began to gather disturbing emotions. He's starting to fret. Accustomed to the presence of Joseph beside him made him begin to be prejudiced when the man suddenly disappeared for days like swallowed by the earth.

He came out of the room with gontai steps minus the spirit. Glanced for a moment at the time pointer that was coiling on his white wrist. At 11.30. Soon the time for dzuhur arrived. He decided to wait for prayer time at the Mushala campus while waiting for Mitha who was still studying.

He was about to turn towards Mushola when suddenly a man called out to him. He turned and found a familiar face, the new friend, Rafael.

"Hey, you want to go home to the skarang?" Rafael asked with his friendly smile.

"Ehm, no, Raf! I want to wait for Mitha at Mushola Skalian to pray. Dzuhur again!" Sahut friendly.

"Oh, that. Though I was planning to take you home together. Yeah, me first, Dad?"

"Sorry, yeah!"

"It's Ok! bye!"

"Bye! be careful!"

The young man nodded along with his sweet smile and a moment passed from there. Fathin continued on his way to the mushola. He went inside after the previous ablution in the ablution place available in the corner of the mosque.

He took out a prayer kit from his backpack. Stand up to perform tahiyatul prayer mosque. A few moments later he was drowned in his service. At least his heart was not as shaky as before after he had a degree with his Lord. Especially at the same time he saw Mitha who had just returned from the ablution place with a wet face.

The two throw smiles at each other. Mitha signaled to pray first. He also mafhumed and nodded.

Still with a mukena that adorned her beautiful and clean face, she sat covering in the corner of Mushola. Go back looking for the cause of Joseph's recent change. He wanted to visit the Man in his faculty there but great shame could still prevent him from doing beyond reason and habit.

He knew that Joseph was busy with his script. But, according to him, this is excessive if even his mobile number can not even be contacted. Shouldn't He instead use a mobile phone to connect with parties related to the work of the script? He was not stopping guessing. Even his dirty brain suspects that the man is cheating.

"Gosh, what the fuck, anyway, until this far he thought!" He shook fast. Trying to get rid of his bad thoughts that could potentially damage his heart. He was already quite tormented with the longing that had afflicted him these few days. He does not want to add to his heart burden with prejudice that is not necessarily the truth.

"Positive thinking!" Mitha suddenly sat down beside him quietly while rubbing her shoulders.

Mitha is indeed the response sikon. He always knew what he was thinking. According to him Mitha was like the forger, always able to guess the contents of his heart and brain. The shadow of Joseph is again present. Especially the days when he was sick and the man really paid all attention to him. Sweet treatments and hand grips that at all times never leave his hand. It really made her so much fun for that guy.

"Don't daydream trus, dong! ntar satan kesambet loh!" Mitha instantly broke her daydream.

"Mhit, is it wrong that I wish more of you, Brother Yusuf? I_gue really fell in love too deeply. I'm tormented, Mhit, I miss this!" His crystal clear bead began to be filled with water-scratching grooves.

"There's nothing wrong with your feelings. It's natural that you miss. All this time you have been accustomed to the presence of the brother. So, when I say gini I can understand the feeling of Lo! who is patient, huh? I'm sure Bang Yusuf must have had a reason for all this. You don't think nothing. I can see, Bang Yusuf is really love and love Lo! Do you remember the day of the march? I see for myself how frustrated he is, Lo. So I tell you where Lo and because I don't want to disturb Lo both, I'm finally back to join the kids!"

He stared intensely at his best friend. Trying to find the seriousness of his words just now. What he found was honesty. His heart warmed immediately. He nodded slowly.

"Thank you, Mhit! You have done me!"

Mitha nodded while smiling warmly. Adzan also nodded. Mushola is almost full of students who want to perform prayers dzuhur congregation. A few seniors in his major threw smiles at him. He smiled back while respectfully nodding.

Prayer dzuhurpun takes place in reverence. After praying one of the seniors he knew was a spiritual manager approached him while he was experiencing it. As usual shake hands, then cipika_cipiki.

"Asalaamu'alaikum, Ukhty!"

"Wa'alaikumsalaam, Brother!"

"Ukht, ntar afternoon is there about no time? um, ana wants to ajakin anti both tarbiyah in the DPC!" Senior named Laila said it kindly.

He glanced at Mitha who seemed to be listening. At a glance Mitha nodded faintly giving the code.

"A_so, Brother! but what's the DPC, uh where do I mean?" Legally laid out because honestly it is still common with some terms in this one world. The senior named Laila instead smiled kindly at his innocent question.

"DPC means the Branch Leadership Council has PKS.it is its place in the Wisdom hallway. Oh yeah, where do you live if you know?"

"In the kambu hallway, brother! srikandi's lodge!" Mitha who said.

"Oh, at Bang Arsyil's boarding house?"

"Yes, Brother!"

"It just so happens, it's close to there. Just two aisles away, nyampe. Later if the two anti already in front of the hallway, call the number ana aja, ntar ana pick up! Let's get hp numbers first, yuk!"

Both nodded. The friendliness and tenderness of the senior was like hypnotizing both of them. They finally gave each other their mobile numbers. Laila gave a little picture of her tarbiyya model. He thought it seemed not much different from the tarbiyah model that they often follow in school first.

Everything parted after a light discussion on the terrace of the mushola. He and Mitha walked towards the gate. Today the two agreed to return home. Akram was busy because he couldn't get Mitha home. While Azhar, her best friend was really hard to meet.

Unknowingly a pair of eagle eyes had followed him wherever he went, yes, Joseph was looking at him with the same longing.

TBC>>>