My beloved sister
Capture of Shanon

I felt this heart break so much, I dropped my body on the floor and shouted the name of Shanon as loud as it was.

"SHANONNNNNN!"

I screamed with tears streaming down my face. I don't care if anyone knows me and thinks I'm a crybaby, I don't care if anyone knows someone else thinks I'm weak crying out of love, I don't care about any of that. All I know is that I am heartbroken right now, and unfortunately again I have a broken heart in the same woman.

In the past, I was so sick that I lost the woman I loved before I said love to her. And right now, maybe I could tell her love, but at that moment it turned out that the woman already belonged to another.

Maybe this is my destiny, this love in my heart may be enough to be harbored or even remembered in my life. Then, am I able to endure all the pain and destruction that is in my heart? Sometimes I ask why I never got lucky in love and have to feel the slump again when it feels very difficult to build this confidence. Again I had to feel broken, and this heart was again blown away by a bitter reality that I now had to face.

After that day, after I found out the woman who married my sister was my first love, I did feel so devastated. But for now I am much more mature in the face of this harsh reality. I can be much calmer than I lost to Shanon for the first time, at least I know that right now Shanon is alive and I am no longer overshadowed by a big question mark in my life.

Maybe this is my destiny, I should be able to smile even though I am not the main character in a story called happy.

I also try to make love and must realize that love does not have to have. Every day, I convinced myself that I might not be a match for Shanon. I have always made myself aware of this if that love does not have to have, because the most important part of loving it is sincerity.

Finally came that day, the wedding day of my brother and Shanon. I did deliberately not come to the wedding party, I have asked permission for Brother Ethan not to come to the wedding on the grounds of being busy completing the final task. And Ethan's brother accepted my reason, he realized my current busyness. Yes, I am busy, but not busy with my college business, but I am busy managing my heart. I'm busy building my mind so that someday I'll be ready to meet with Shanon. Inevitably, one day I will definitely meet with Shanon because after all Shanon married my brother, even though I do not know when I can be ready to meet him.

Even though she's married to the woman I love, I still love Ethan, for now she's my only family after our parents left. Ethan, a good and mature person, even since I have always been amazed at his maturity, so there is no reason for me not to like him.

Actually all this is really ironic, when I was busy arranging this heart that was so broken, far away there the woman I loved, she said, I must be smiling happily and that happy smile is for other men not for me. But I always try to be sincere because for now I am sure if the man loved by Shanon is my brother and I will do anything for Shannon's happiness including sharing it with the man who loved right now and he's my brother, Ethan.

Time moves so fast, little by little I can forget my heartache. Until one day, one of the managers in my office called me and asked me to ask for approval on the new policies in our company.

I then opened access to our family-owned company, I admit that I had never been in charge of that company. All this time I've been handing over to Ethan, and I believe he can definitely do what's best for our company. But as I was reading the new company policy, I felt that there was a bit of a weirdness that there were some company accesses that I couldn't open.

I also felt strange about it, I who was curious then broke into that access with my ability. Finally I was able to open the secret access and that's when I just found out that our company is not okay.

Suddenly, bad thoughts danced in my mind. "Did Ethan do all this?" muttered.

Actually I'm not sure if Ethan did anything bad to our company, and the only way to prove it is that I have to go home, although I also know the risk of the decision I will take it is not easy. Because that means I have to endure the pain of seeing the woman I love making out with other men right in front of me.

But I don't want to be a loser man, I have to sort this out, and investigate what really happened. And if Ethan really has bad intentions in our company, then not only that company that I'm calling but also the wife of Ethan's sister, Shanon will also be taken from him. Because Shanon doesn't deserve to marry a hypocritical man like himself.

"Shanon, wait for me to come back."