My beloved sister
What's Wrong With Me?

For a long time I cried in Arsen's arms, and during that time he hugged me back while rubbing my back, trying to calm me down through his soft whispers in my ears. For a moment, I forgot about my frustration and my fear for her, I don't know for sure, for now I feel so comfortable in her arms.

After quite a while of crying in his arms, and feeling a little calmer. I then pulled my body from above the chest of his field. In that instant I also cursed myself who was even swept into the warm embrace, even though I hated the man I had just embraced and unfortunately managed to calm myself. Anxiety also penetrated into my heart, I was worried if my attitude made it big head.

"I'm sorry" I said to him, with a slight misbehavior. Arsen's lips curled while looking at me with a warm look. In that instant, I increasingly regretted my stupidity that had just embraced him and poured out my sorrow on him.

'Rightly my guess is, she must be feeling big head because of my attitude towards her earlier. Oh Sha, why are you so stupid. I shouldn't be acting like that, ' my inner self.

"Sha, what's wrong with you?"

"Father, I'm just sad again, miss your brother."

"You really are gapapa?"

I shook my head too. "I'm going to go back, Arsen."

"Yes Sha."

I then took my foot off to walk away from Arsen. At that moment, my steps suddenly stopped when I heard the sound of a bell ringing, Arsen then opened the door. And, it's true as I thought if the one who came was Chelsea. He then went inside the house while struggling spoiled at Arsen's hands, for some reason I suddenly disliked it. Even when Chelsea threw her smile at me I only returned with a thin forced smile.

"Hello Brother Shanon?"

"Hello Chelsea, emh Chelsea aren't we the same age? How about you just call me Shanon?"

"What's? Shannon? No, brother, you are Arsen's brother-in-law, so I should call you Kak because maybe soon you will be my sister-in-law" he replied with a smile and glanced at Arsen. Arsen smiled, and I, for some reason, didn't like to hear Chelsea's answer. I was silent until his voice broke my daydream.

"Shanon, then we go to the room first" Chelsea said. I nodded my head as I put on a smile that was forced again. Then I followed them until they turned to Arsen's room. After the door was closed, I also stood for a moment in front of the door, for some reason I suddenly acted like this, I don't know. I feel really upset about Chelsea's presence at the moment. I then shook my head, and tried to return to my sanity.

'Gosh, why did I become like this?' my mind while walking towards the backyard, intending to continue my activities that had been delayed, taking care of the plants behind the house. Yes, I really like plants, maybe for a moment I can eliminate the sadness in my heart. For now, I don't want to think about my husband, even though he called me repeatedly, I don't care.

For a moment I was drifting in my activities, until I did not feel the time changed. I only realized that when Bi Ijah said goodbye to me.

"Mrs Shanon, if you'll excuse me, Nyah. I've been eating malem for Madam same Mr. Arsen."

"Yes Bi, thank you."

After Bi Ijah came home, I went into the house, and went into the bathroom. I damped my body on the bathtub I had mixed with aromatherapy liquid. Although it was not entirely effective at relieving the sadness in my heart. But at the very least, it can make me feel a little comfortable.

I took a bath long enough, until when I came out of the room, the sky was already dark. I then walked towards the dining table to eat the dinner that Bi Ijah had prepared. But when I saw the cold food, I took the initiative to warm the food.

While I was struggling in the kitchen, suddenly two burly arms were coiled around my waist. I flinched, then turned my face back and saw Arsen standing behind me, our distance was very close, even his chest almost stuck to my back.

"Sha, if you cook with apron," he said so casually while putting the apron on my body, even though this heart has almost been removed.

"But I just want some food."

"I want to make you, Sha. Tonight I don't want to eat Bi Ijah's cooking, I want it cooked with you."

"Don't you like my cooking?"

"But today I want to eat your cooking, Sha."

"What do you want to masakin?"

"Fried rice, I miss eating your fried rice, Sha," she replied, which made my heart stop beating.

"I-did I ever cook you fried rice?"

"Either."

"When?"

"Forgotten," he answered flatly which made me feel annoyed. I could only sigh, but suddenly I felt something on the back of my body, yes someone was holding my hair, and she was Arsen. He put my hair together, then tied it up.

"Inget Sha, if you cook her hair again picketed," he said near my ears until his warm breath was so felt on my skin.

"Yes, I made you fried rice first huh," I said as I moved away from him who was currently still standing behind me. Arsen then came out of the kitchen, and sat down at the dining table. After I finished cooking fried rice for him, I then brought my cooking and Bi Ijah cooking that I had warmed up to the dining table.

"This is the fried rice" I told Arsen.

"Thank you, Sha."

I also sat on the dining table chair, which was opposite Arsen. But when we were enjoying dinner, suddenly we heard footsteps approaching.

"Arsen, I overslept when we played. You didn't wake me up anyway" protested Chelsea, then sat next to Arsen while writhing spoiled at him. Looking at Chelsea's behavior, I don't know why I feel so upset and lose my appetite. I hurried to finish my dinner and then left my seat.

"Excuse me, I'm done. I go upstairs first," I say goodbye to the two of them, then move my feet towards my room. However, just a few steps left them, my tears came back.

"Oh my God, what's wrong with me?"