My Blacklist Man's
The Dilemma of Fania

Fania moved restlessly on her soft bed. Time has shown midnight. However, his eyes reluctantly closed He thought of Bi Ina's remarks earlier this afternoon and the right decision for the newly-known man's proposal.

''Angelo Nikki Hayden,'' he muttered involuntarily a line of faint smiles painted on his lips.

His mind wandered on the conversation this afternoon.

''Mom, that guy suddenly proposed to me. I should how?" Fania asked for advice when walking hand in hand with women who had been considered mothers.

Bi Ina looked to be smiling gently.

''I can't give you a solution. Better ask your little heart. Heart words are never wrong, Fania. Because he never lies."

That answer further added to the dilemma he felt. Fania was silenced with her eyes fixed on the expanse of colorful flowers before her. Her hands stretched out picking a sprig of white roses that were within reach then inhaling within the flower permeated its scent.

''I'm confused, Mom. Our meeting was a mistake. He wants someone but not me. I don't know him at all. Funny right? I don't know the name of the man who asked for me. How can we build an ark without any bond of love, let alone meet a few times."

''I was afraid, she married me just because of this child," the girl continued by rubbing her stomach.

''Fania, have you ever heard a phrase? Love can come with time."

The girl nodded slowly.

''Do you believe that expression can come true?"

He nodded again, although hesitated a little.

''Angelo Nikki Hayden, that's her name. Then why do you doubt Mr Ello's good intentions?" Bi Ina looked at the woman.

Fania fell silent trying to digest the middle-aged woman's words well.

''Maybe you still think it's bad. But believe! Sir isn't that bad. He's experienced more bitterness than you've experienced at his young age. For decades I have served this family. I know everything that's happened. And I can only have pity on my master who struggles with adversity every day. He had to bear that burden for decades. So choose single at the age of four heads this."

''But, after he met you. I could see again the radiance of happiness that had long been taken from his life. I often see him smiling to himself. You have managed to restore the smile of my master, Fania," concluded the middle-aged woman.

''All decisions are in your hands, I have no right to force. Just one message, think of the fate of the tiny creature that is growing in your womb, even if you do not expect it. You are a mother after all. Imagine if you were in her position, your own mother would willingly throw you out. How you feeling?"

Bi Ina's words seemed to slap her hard. Her mother's defense some time ago just flashed in her memory. Without feeling a drop of water dripping on his cheek.

''I'm sorry, we're here to make you happy, not to grieve. If you find out about this, I could get in trouble. There are many types of beautiful flowers, you have to see them," Bi Ini asked while holding her hand to distract.

The girl nodded, then followed the steps of the woman.

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''What actually happened to you? What have you been through to suffer for decades?"

Fania leaned her body against the bed rest. Many questions that made him curious.

He also asked Bi Ina. However, the woman said if it was not her realm to explain, instead suggested asking her master directly.

His hands touched his stomach. Inside there was a lump of creature that tried so hard he vanished, and only he wanted it to happen, whereas the people around him wanted this baby to stay alive.

''Am I a cruel mother?" ask him to yourself.

Guilt suddenly engulfed in his heart. She remembered her mother's affection all along. A gentle and firm figure. He is like an angel in the life of his sons. She rarely hurts her children physically or mentally. If her children were wrong, she would reprimand in a firm tone. And the loud slap she received yesterday was the first slap in her life from her mother. Asih was very disappointed with his shallow thoughts.

''Forgive me ... I'm a bad mother. Because of my selfishness, you're almost wretched. I promise, from now on ... I'll take care of you. I'm sorry, mother." He's monologuing with a fetus that's in his stomach. His eyes also seemed to be glazed.

''It's already night we should sleep. I have to give you an answer for your father tomorrow."

Fania turned back to her body. He turned off the room lights preparing to wander into dreamland.

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In a dim room, Angelo seemed to put on a serious face listening to a series of reports from one of his men. His hands clenched furiously as he learned the woman secretly enthroned in his heart was being treated unfairly.

If only, he was met earlier with Fania. He'll shut their mouths tight. Fania is not the woman they accuse. He took his sanctity.

''So, there was a provocateur behind the expulsion?" angelo asked with a sharpened highlight forward.

''Really, Sir. She named Yunita a close neighbor of Miss Fania who had long disliked Miss Fania's family.''

''Hmmm, making use of his state of appearance. Then, how's the family doing?"

''They are being excommunicated, sir. Metal mother shaken thinking about the fate of miss, even her twin sister was forced to work part-time to meet the needs of the family and the cost of their mother's treatment."

''Do they have no father?" angelo asked as if interrogating the defendant in court.

''Yes, Sir. He's an unemployed. But, he rarely came home spending more time outside for gambling and drunkenness. Her father also participated in the exorcism of the lady at that time."

The man heard all the explanations. He plans to avenge them all.

''Is there any more?"

''Yes, sir."

The man in black also reported on the allegations of Fania's lover and her findings at the girl's workplace in detail.

''I am satisfied with your work. I've sent your salary. Now, you can go."

''Fine, Sir. Fillers....''

The man smiled happily at the row of numbers that went into his mobile banking account, even repeatedly saying thank you. He had not expected to get such a big bonus just for a trivial job.

After the departure of his man, Angelo rested his body on his swivel chair. She did not expect that her maiden went through a series of painful events all by herself.

''He must be very ambitious to kill his baby. I guess the reason was simply because I couldn't accept the reality."